Feeling down

I feel so absolutely down today. Couldn't concentrate in class, felt so miserable. Basically I think I'm like a nobody, I'm a failure at every single thing I do, I get ignored, I get friend zoned by girls, I'm not physically fit, I'm as weak as a kitten, I'm always falling sick, I get mocked by other players online. I just wanna lie down on my bed, and just hide away from this cruel world.

Since I'm so insignificant, if I disappear, no one will know right? Yeah, maybe I should just run away from everything, like a coward I always am.

Sick

Back here after so long, about more than 3 weeks. Loads of things happened recently, school's started and currently heading into the midst of the 3rd week in school. I fell sick about 3 times in one month, and guess what? They are all related. It all started when I came back from Hokkaido. The trip to Hokkaido was unforgettable, I almost teared up when I reviewed the photos, I miss that place alot *teary*, and yes although my family brought back home stuff, I still miss that place, and I SWEAR, I will go back there somewhere in the future. 

Anyway, after about a week when I came back from vacation, my dad got stomach flu, and 2 days later, my mum and I both got the virus. So I suffered pretty badly, I puked and got diarrhoea, my appetite destroyed, and had a few sleepless nights. So yeah, managed to recover from it, BUT weeks later disaster struck again. After a delicious meal at Irodori Japanese Restaurant, I had a bad stomach upset that night. My stomach felt like its on fire, then there was alot of gas inside, for the whole 3 hours, I was roaming around the house, keeping myself occupied and trying to expel as much gas as I could. Ate medicine the next morning, felt so much better. Last Monday, I almost "died" in class, had a terrible stomach upset, felt like puking so badly, stomach felt warm and churning upside down. Consulted a doctor, doc gave me probiotics and a few other medications. However for the whole week, the medications only helped a little. Therefore I just consulted the doctor again, doctor reassured me about my condition, saying that I will be better within a few days.

So yeah, I am just writing this post, just hoping my stomach doesn't cause me problems again.

Signing off.