With just less than 50 days to NS, the fear and nervousness starts to kick in, bit by bit. Furthermore I fell sick due to my stupidity, I ate a large amount of sugar and even mixed sugar into my water bottle (reason being I wanted to recover my energy as fast as possible, so I ate a large spoonful of sugar and drank the entire bottle of sugar down). At 3 am, my stomach freaked out badly, giving me the diarrhea feeling. Rushed to the toilet but false alarm, and my stomach walls started spamming and I really wanted to throw up so badly. Anxiety attack was about to kick in so I just closed my eyes and did some simple breathing exercises, I then managed to fall asleep at around 4:30 pm, then woke up the next day with my stomach feeling really funky and always having the urge to have a diarrhea. This continued on for a few days, and after dinner with Axel, my intestines suddenly became real loose (like if I pressed on my left side of my abdomen, there will be a loud growling and compressing sound of the digested food being heard *gross*), so I quickly asked him to go home and I went to the toilet, and ended up as a false alarm.
Went to the see the doctor and also gave him the medical report of the doctor that he referred me to for endoscopy, then I told him about my stupid story that ended me up in this stupid state. He prescribed me some medicine to treat my stomach openings, and also another set of pills to help me to 'reset' my digestive system to it original state before I got this stupid problem. So after 2 days of medication I feel a little better, maybe still feeling a little funky as well.
But the main point of this post is to share what happened today, nothing exactly happened to me, maybe just my mind and my feelings. So today was the day where my cousin got married, she's 27 years old, not a cousin that I'm really close with. Was feeling a little pissed with my family for rushing me early in the morning to get ready, didn't even had time to properly comb my hair and I had to scoot out of the house. Took a Taxi which we waited for more than 20 minutes, arrived at Grand Hyatt Hotel (no idea if I spelled that correctly). Feeling gloomy and a little unhappy as I enter the ballroom, but my face lightened up a bit when I saw my relatives and cousins that I didn't meet since Chinese New Year until now. We registered at the front counter, and I saw the bride's younger sister and younger brother busily helping out. Soon the reception started and there were videos being played of the wife and husband to be, on how they knew each other, their happy times and how they groom had to fulfill some 'tasks' in order to be able to meet the bride, causing all of the guests to burst out in laughter.
Next was the grandest part of the ceremony, which was the entrance of the bride and the groom, and I have to say, they look really compatible. However when I saw the bride and groom walk down the isle, I suddenly had this ultimatly sad feeling, this feeling that I haven't experienced for a very long time. My thoughts then were, "Don't you think they look good? What about yourself? What are you going to do about her?"
I sort of started daydreaming, to the time when I pictured myself walking down the isle with her, and smiling and my family and friends congratulating me. My heart ached badly after I pictured that, because the fact that it's going to be an impossible dream. She's too good for a person, more like perfect to me. I think of her all the time, to the point where I sometimes hallucinate into thinking she's in front of me and I'm like actually talking to her face to face. I miss her to the point I feel that I can go insane, and like she's a drug when I see her, I want to see her more and more, and especially that smile of hers that melts and warms my heart. The fluttering of my heart when I see her laugh happily, and that her gracefulness when she helps people, I miss all of those.
I will never forget the day when I first saw her, first talked to her and got her picture and lastly the day when I gave her a gift and confessed to her. Up till now, everything just feels so surreal, as if everything happened in a dream.
When I wake up everyday and think of her, I tell myself that it's all over and to move on, but my heart inside tells me otherwise. But the fact that I managed to tell her everything, I guess it's all worth it in the end and I do not have any more regrets, just missing her.
I love her.
Sunday, 22 June 2014
Saturday, 14 June 2014
15th of June
I promised myself to wake up early as I wanted to go out for a morning exercise, but I sort of overslept because I was happily gaming with my friends the night before. Woke up at around 10, went to wash up and the weather suddenly freaked out, the winds were like ultra strong and the sky was like totally overcast (at least I don't have to go out and exercise since it was about to rain very heavily :P) Ate breakfast then played some maple as I wanted to rush my way to level 140 so that I can unlock the next chapter of the Silent Crusade, but I ended up slacking and switching to cabal since I had some stuff to settle in game, basically some money matter and also to chat with some people :D
The rain stopped and mum went out to buy some lunch, mixed rice added with bean sprouts and sweet and sour pork, and not forgetting a cup of hot drink to make the perfect lunch for the day. After lunch, went to re-watch the walk through for the House of the Dead 4 arcade gameplay on YouTube, after that I went to watch another person play one of the games that I frequently played during my childhood days when I went over to my cousin's house. Slept for a little since I was so tired from playing some L4D, I actually went to replay each campaign and I stopped at the 8th campaign since I was about to fall asleep while playing. Slept for a little and quickly went to log back in to Maple since the hot-time was about to come. Obtained some gift boxes from the event monster lingering in the town. My game lagged badly when all of the players obtained the gift box since many players were complaining that they didn't get some of the gifts that they were supposed to. My brother also came in to my room telling me that he also didn't receive some gifts, and I too didn't get the gifts. Went to watch running man as that particular episode that I wanted to watch had some guests that were in my list of favorite female celebs :D
Went out for a run since I haven't been running for the past 1 day, I promised myself to try and run every single day before I enter NS. Came back home feeling extremely exhausted since I ran non stop and not forgetting the uphill slopes near New Town. Originally I wanted to run one full round around SP, but since it was daytime I just decided to run a 2.4 km at the back of SP (I somehow have a thing against running in the midst of people in the daytime, if I have to run past places where they are alot of people, I will usually run in the night so that there are lesser people). Played some music while eating dinner, felt hungry after dinner so I just ate some left overs in the kitchen.
So right now I'm just typing this post while chatting with Axel on skype, don't really know what else to type since nothing much happened today, expect maybe the fact that she's going off to Korea for a quick vacation, and that I might try to start a conversation with her again tomorrow or something.
Will stop here for today, probably going to game for like an hour or so before going to sleep.
Adios Amigos~
Justin.
Sunday, 8 June 2014
6th of June
Reluctant to get out of bed since I was still a little tired, and a little moody when I woke up, I guess I still miss her as always, but the fact that I told her everything, and that my heart felt a little better even though I might not see her again. Got up anyway, switched on my com and ate some breakfast that my mum prepared for me, some luncheon meat with cucumbers together with 2 slices of bread. Wanted to drink some hot Milo but I decided against it since I am going to travel on a bumpy bus later on. Played some maple while eating breakfast, did the daily attendance quest and I collected the rewards since day 1 until today (day 9), and I went to exchange some of the coins for a 2 handed scroll for my Revolution 2-handed sword, and to my astonishment, I managed to succeed in using that scroll in which my weapon is now insanely strong! (to me, haha :D). I was pretty satisfied with my damage, and right now I am going to work towards 100,000 damage per hit :)
Got out of the house to take bus, still feeling pretty sucky as I kept thinking non stop about the times I have seen and talked to her, be it online or face to face. The memory in which the time when I told her everything, and her reactions and what she said after that, I still can remember everything as if I told her everything just yesterday. I don't really know but everything, I just want to talk to her and ask her how is she, but I guess from just looking at her current photos and her bring happy by just serving people passionately, I can tell that she's doing better than fine and perhaps doing even better than me. Reached the workplace after a bumpy bus ride, I guess some of my colleagues didn't really talk to me as I think I was showing some 'black face'. Ate some snacks while trying to fix this customer's laptop, this customer's laptop had some problems with the WiFi. I was puzzled as I couldn't assess the internet without using the Local Area Connection cable, so what I did was to extract out the customer's hard drive and then I slotted our testing hard drive into the customer's laptop, then I went to switch on the WiFi by pushing the buttons on the keyboard, and BAM, it worked like magic. I assumed that the customer's laptop had a software problem, so I just slotted the customer's hard drive back into the laptop, and BAM! The laptop had no problems already, so I guessed that the WiFi was disabled somewhere and what I did was to simply re-enable it using another hard drive. The customer was pretty pleased with me when I called her to tell her that her software had no issues and the data wasn't touched.
*Sorry! Still at the front counter and there are customers coming, will complete this post later at night!*
Got out of the house to take bus, still feeling pretty sucky as I kept thinking non stop about the times I have seen and talked to her, be it online or face to face. The memory in which the time when I told her everything, and her reactions and what she said after that, I still can remember everything as if I told her everything just yesterday. I don't really know but everything, I just want to talk to her and ask her how is she, but I guess from just looking at her current photos and her bring happy by just serving people passionately, I can tell that she's doing better than fine and perhaps doing even better than me. Reached the workplace after a bumpy bus ride, I guess some of my colleagues didn't really talk to me as I think I was showing some 'black face'. Ate some snacks while trying to fix this customer's laptop, this customer's laptop had some problems with the WiFi. I was puzzled as I couldn't assess the internet without using the Local Area Connection cable, so what I did was to extract out the customer's hard drive and then I slotted our testing hard drive into the customer's laptop, then I went to switch on the WiFi by pushing the buttons on the keyboard, and BAM, it worked like magic. I assumed that the customer's laptop had a software problem, so I just slotted the customer's hard drive back into the laptop, and BAM! The laptop had no problems already, so I guessed that the WiFi was disabled somewhere and what I did was to simply re-enable it using another hard drive. The customer was pretty pleased with me when I called her to tell her that her software had no issues and the data wasn't touched.
*Sorry! Still at the front counter and there are customers coming, will complete this post later at night!*
Wednesday, 4 June 2014
4th of June
Stuck down here at the front counter at my workplace since my colleague went out for lunch, and my stomach is feeling a little funky since I had some snacks (heaty snacks D:) and right now my stomach is feeling a little warm and churning a little, guess I have to eat something real warm later so I won't feel so bad after that.
Woke up at around 8 today since I snoozed the alarm for about 3 -4 times, I was still feeling tired when I got out of bed (I'm always tired :D), switched on my com and washed up. Mum prepared some luncheon meat with bread so I just ate it for breakfast. Bathed and got ready to leave the house, in the meantime, I went to play some Maple, managed to kill a operator balloon and got a very good scroll and I even manage to succeed in scrolling my revolution 2-handed sword, at least my morning was pretty much made. Left the house feeling as sleepy as always, luckily I managed to catch a double decker bus number 166 and I fell asleep while listening to my favourite songs. Currently the songs that I like / listen alot are songs like CNBLUE's Can't Stop, Z:EA's The Ghost of Wind, Yong Junhyung's Flower and Caffine, and not forgetting old songs like INFINITE's The Chaser and Paradise, there are still quite a number of them that I like just that I'm too lazy to type them all out one by one (I just named those that I listen to a lot while I am traveling on the bus). Was hoping that the bus driver wouldn't drive that fast since I wasn't really looking forward to work as I was still really sleepy, but still alighted in the end, and went up to my workplace. Signed in and I started chatting with my colleague when he arrived.
Quite a number of repairs today since some of them was halfway done since last Saturday until today, the first one was some urgent rework case in which my colleague passed to me for some final testing, the keyboard wasn't working so I had to remove the entire casing and I actually found out that the keyboard wasn't even connected to the motherboard itself. Connected it back and I ran some CPU stability test and also a high graphics test, after about 5 - 10 minutes the laptop shut down by itself, indicating a fan problem. I was puzzled so I quickly removed the entire casing, and the motherboard so that I am able to take out the fan and see what's the problem. While disassembling the fan, a screw dropped out from the fan internally, so I guessed that was the problem that is causing the fan to malfunction, and then I re-applied the thermal paste and the fan was working perfectly fine, one laptop fixed! :)
Have to stop here because I did this post at the front counter and there are customers that will be coming later! :D
Adios Amigos~
Justin
Woke up at around 8 today since I snoozed the alarm for about 3 -4 times, I was still feeling tired when I got out of bed (I'm always tired :D), switched on my com and washed up. Mum prepared some luncheon meat with bread so I just ate it for breakfast. Bathed and got ready to leave the house, in the meantime, I went to play some Maple, managed to kill a operator balloon and got a very good scroll and I even manage to succeed in scrolling my revolution 2-handed sword, at least my morning was pretty much made. Left the house feeling as sleepy as always, luckily I managed to catch a double decker bus number 166 and I fell asleep while listening to my favourite songs. Currently the songs that I like / listen alot are songs like CNBLUE's Can't Stop, Z:EA's The Ghost of Wind, Yong Junhyung's Flower and Caffine, and not forgetting old songs like INFINITE's The Chaser and Paradise, there are still quite a number of them that I like just that I'm too lazy to type them all out one by one (I just named those that I listen to a lot while I am traveling on the bus). Was hoping that the bus driver wouldn't drive that fast since I wasn't really looking forward to work as I was still really sleepy, but still alighted in the end, and went up to my workplace. Signed in and I started chatting with my colleague when he arrived.
Quite a number of repairs today since some of them was halfway done since last Saturday until today, the first one was some urgent rework case in which my colleague passed to me for some final testing, the keyboard wasn't working so I had to remove the entire casing and I actually found out that the keyboard wasn't even connected to the motherboard itself. Connected it back and I ran some CPU stability test and also a high graphics test, after about 5 - 10 minutes the laptop shut down by itself, indicating a fan problem. I was puzzled so I quickly removed the entire casing, and the motherboard so that I am able to take out the fan and see what's the problem. While disassembling the fan, a screw dropped out from the fan internally, so I guessed that was the problem that is causing the fan to malfunction, and then I re-applied the thermal paste and the fan was working perfectly fine, one laptop fixed! :)
Have to stop here because I did this post at the front counter and there are customers that will be coming later! :D
Adios Amigos~
Justin
Tuesday, 3 June 2014
3rd of June
Woke up feeling exceptionally tired because of the late night game raging session the night before (enjoyed it because of the nonsense that we discussed :P). Was hoping that time didn't passed that quickly because it's the last day of my off-days from work, in other words I have to go to work tomorrow D:
Got out of bed anyway, and ate some hard bread for breakfast while playing Cabal, was pretty satisfied with my performance in the nation war because I managed to have some proper teamwork with my guild master. 14 kills and 4 deaths (:D), recently I have been getting more kills in nation war because there are quite a number of new comers from the opposite nation, in which they are not really experienced or do not have the average standard of equipment for war. So I just kinda took a little advantage and killed them (sorry :\). After breakfast, went to watch some Korean shows, the recent episodes of 'The Human Condition' have been pretty interesting so I decided to watch a little more episodes, I haven't been watching 'Ghost Adventures' because the past few episodes have been a little boring in my opinion, but from Zac's twitter, I think there are going to be interesting episodes / encounters coming up, looking forward to that :)
Mum went out to buy lunch for me since she knew I was going out later that afternoon, was kinda hoping that mum would buy me some roasted chicken breast rice, but since the stall wasn't open, she bought me mixed rice instead (some rice, broccoli, a large slice of black pepper pork and an egg fried by mum herself). After lunch, went to laze around in my bed like some ginger cat because I was a little reluctant to go out but I had to go in the end because I had to return my graduation robe by the 7th of June, but since I am going to be working from Wednesday all the way to Saturday so I will have to return it today. Took a train and changed lines, bought some light snacks from Old Chang Kee outlet at Potong Pasir station itself. My stomach felt a little funky after eating the snacks, I guess it has to be the stupid oil from the snacks (D:). After returning the robe and getting back the $30 deposit, headed back to Potong Pasir station to take a train, while walking I saw a 147 bus driving past me. So I called home to told my mum that I will be taking the 147 bus at the opposite bus stop since I had nothing to do (I originally wanted to go and find my friend at her workplace but I realized that she was having her off day on Tuesdays). Boarded the bus and stared outside the window while contemplating on the things that I wanted to do / planning to do after I stop work, chatting with my buddy on messenger about the recent things that happened (it also included you know who *wink wink*) After 40 minutes of sitting in the bus, I grew a little tired and started yawning non stop, and my butt started to hurt (yes, literally even though the seats were cushioned a little). Alighted at the stop that I needed to, then I went to buy one of my favourite childhood snacks (chocolate wafer :D), before heading home.
Mum suggested that I should go to Star Vista to buy dinner, but since my brother is going to a hawker center outside, mum decided to cook for me in the end. Stomach became funky once more after eating dinner, and also that I told my mum to help me tell my brother that I didn't want supper in the end. At around 9:30, I decided to go out and have a late night run and some slight workout. Came back home feeling exhausted since I haven't been working out / running for about a month or so due to work (D:). Went to play cabal and attended the nation war once more, and though I got killed a little more as compared to the morning session, I still managed to beat the number of kills I got this morning :) Danced and derped a little with my buddies in game before exiting cabal. Chatted with Eugene for abit and played some dota, lost very badly and was feeling totally unsatisfied with my performance. Guess it's one of those days where games don't work out the way you want it to be.
Alright so it's 12:28 am, got to get some sleep soon because I have to go to work tomorrow, gotta earn money!! :D
Adios amigos~
Justin
Got out of bed anyway, and ate some hard bread for breakfast while playing Cabal, was pretty satisfied with my performance in the nation war because I managed to have some proper teamwork with my guild master. 14 kills and 4 deaths (:D), recently I have been getting more kills in nation war because there are quite a number of new comers from the opposite nation, in which they are not really experienced or do not have the average standard of equipment for war. So I just kinda took a little advantage and killed them (sorry :\). After breakfast, went to watch some Korean shows, the recent episodes of 'The Human Condition' have been pretty interesting so I decided to watch a little more episodes, I haven't been watching 'Ghost Adventures' because the past few episodes have been a little boring in my opinion, but from Zac's twitter, I think there are going to be interesting episodes / encounters coming up, looking forward to that :)
Mum went out to buy lunch for me since she knew I was going out later that afternoon, was kinda hoping that mum would buy me some roasted chicken breast rice, but since the stall wasn't open, she bought me mixed rice instead (some rice, broccoli, a large slice of black pepper pork and an egg fried by mum herself). After lunch, went to laze around in my bed like some ginger cat because I was a little reluctant to go out but I had to go in the end because I had to return my graduation robe by the 7th of June, but since I am going to be working from Wednesday all the way to Saturday so I will have to return it today. Took a train and changed lines, bought some light snacks from Old Chang Kee outlet at Potong Pasir station itself. My stomach felt a little funky after eating the snacks, I guess it has to be the stupid oil from the snacks (D:). After returning the robe and getting back the $30 deposit, headed back to Potong Pasir station to take a train, while walking I saw a 147 bus driving past me. So I called home to told my mum that I will be taking the 147 bus at the opposite bus stop since I had nothing to do (I originally wanted to go and find my friend at her workplace but I realized that she was having her off day on Tuesdays). Boarded the bus and stared outside the window while contemplating on the things that I wanted to do / planning to do after I stop work, chatting with my buddy on messenger about the recent things that happened (it also included you know who *wink wink*) After 40 minutes of sitting in the bus, I grew a little tired and started yawning non stop, and my butt started to hurt (yes, literally even though the seats were cushioned a little). Alighted at the stop that I needed to, then I went to buy one of my favourite childhood snacks (chocolate wafer :D), before heading home.
Mum suggested that I should go to Star Vista to buy dinner, but since my brother is going to a hawker center outside, mum decided to cook for me in the end. Stomach became funky once more after eating dinner, and also that I told my mum to help me tell my brother that I didn't want supper in the end. At around 9:30, I decided to go out and have a late night run and some slight workout. Came back home feeling exhausted since I haven't been working out / running for about a month or so due to work (D:). Went to play cabal and attended the nation war once more, and though I got killed a little more as compared to the morning session, I still managed to beat the number of kills I got this morning :) Danced and derped a little with my buddies in game before exiting cabal. Chatted with Eugene for abit and played some dota, lost very badly and was feeling totally unsatisfied with my performance. Guess it's one of those days where games don't work out the way you want it to be.
Alright so it's 12:28 am, got to get some sleep soon because I have to go to work tomorrow, gotta earn money!! :D
Adios amigos~
Justin
Monday, 2 June 2014
Graduation (27th of May)
It's been more than a month since I last posted something here, because I've been busy at work and also too tired from work after coming home, plus some laziness I guess? :P Anyway I created this post today since my buddy asked me to create it.
Few days back was the graduation ceremony, I remember waking up feeling like crap because my stomach wasn't feeling good the night before. Ate my breakfast anyway, played some L4D before I went to arrange my stuff for graduation. Killed a ton of Tanks in L4D, because I felt that I needed that I needed some de-stress before I went out. Went out at around 12, as I needed to buy my school tie and also wanted to meet up with some of my friends. I saw my friend back from Secondary school and also another familiar face, they have just completed their graduation ceremony and were attending their own tea reception ceremony. I chatted with them for awhile before my brother called me to tell me that he has ended his class and was waiting for me at another part of the school. Met up with my brother and then we chatted a little, then I saw her friends nearby. My blood froze since I knew that she has to be there nearby, within minutes she appeared and when I saw her, she looked beautiful as always with that never ending smile of hers. I was beginning to feel anxious since my parents agreed to reach the entrance of the hall by 12:45 pm, and it was around 1 pm when I called again and again as my mum wasn't picking up the phone. Finally they reached and I dashed to the reception counter to quickly purchase my school tie.
After much difficulty, I managed to properly put on my school tie and graduation robe, then I entered the hall with my parents. At first I was a little lost because I actually followed my parents to the audience seats (I was supposed to go to the seats assigned for the graduates), so I kind of stared at one of the ushers for like about 3 - 4 seconds, then she sort of like figured out that I had no idea where I was supposed to be seated (I know it's embarrassing). Then I saw her again entering the hall with smiles, I couldn't help but to stare at her once more. I noticed a book near the arm rest of my seat, I picked it up and opened it and it contained all of the graduates for all of the graduation ceremonies (even those sessions that were later in the day or the day after). Jin Kai came soon after, and we started chatting since he was just a few seats after mine. My family was seated in front so I called to my family so that they could see where exactly I was seating. I had to stand up since my mum couldn't really see me in the entire sea of graduates. Soon the ceremony started and that there were speeches given by some CEO of some large multinational company, and also videos being played of some students sharing their life and their wonderful experiences in SP.
After that was the much awaited price / diploma presentation ceremony, in which every graduating student's name will be called on stage and then will be given this red coloured scroll casing. My heart was pounding every second during that part, and I could also see my dad looking at the queue of graduates for me. Soon it was my section to stand up and join the queue, as the queue moved forward, my parents managed to locate me and started to take some pictures of me when I was waiting. She's was sitting near the front and I was happy that I saw her, and her smiles eased my nervousness. Soon my name was called, and as proudly as I could, I smiled brightly and walked towards the director. When I was near him, I asked,"Sir, can I take a selfie with you?" He smiled and replied with a nod on his head. I then took a selfie with him and then collected my scroll casing.
After a few others, then came to the closing of the ceremony and then was the start of the tea reception. I knew this was the only chance I had to talk to her once more. After I went out of the convention centre, I immediately went to look for her. While looking for her, I went to take some selfies with some of my friends that I made during my poly life, and I met up with my family. My mum actually bought a gift for me from the school itself, which is a teddy bear with a flower attached to it's back. I took a photo with my family while holding the flower itself, and another picture with my dad (Dad, I love you). I met up with my buddies and while still holding the gift box in my hand, I was so worried that I wasn't able to find her and talk to her.
Few days back was the graduation ceremony, I remember waking up feeling like crap because my stomach wasn't feeling good the night before. Ate my breakfast anyway, played some L4D before I went to arrange my stuff for graduation. Killed a ton of Tanks in L4D, because I felt that I needed that I needed some de-stress before I went out. Went out at around 12, as I needed to buy my school tie and also wanted to meet up with some of my friends. I saw my friend back from Secondary school and also another familiar face, they have just completed their graduation ceremony and were attending their own tea reception ceremony. I chatted with them for awhile before my brother called me to tell me that he has ended his class and was waiting for me at another part of the school. Met up with my brother and then we chatted a little, then I saw her friends nearby. My blood froze since I knew that she has to be there nearby, within minutes she appeared and when I saw her, she looked beautiful as always with that never ending smile of hers. I was beginning to feel anxious since my parents agreed to reach the entrance of the hall by 12:45 pm, and it was around 1 pm when I called again and again as my mum wasn't picking up the phone. Finally they reached and I dashed to the reception counter to quickly purchase my school tie.
After much difficulty, I managed to properly put on my school tie and graduation robe, then I entered the hall with my parents. At first I was a little lost because I actually followed my parents to the audience seats (I was supposed to go to the seats assigned for the graduates), so I kind of stared at one of the ushers for like about 3 - 4 seconds, then she sort of like figured out that I had no idea where I was supposed to be seated (I know it's embarrassing). Then I saw her again entering the hall with smiles, I couldn't help but to stare at her once more. I noticed a book near the arm rest of my seat, I picked it up and opened it and it contained all of the graduates for all of the graduation ceremonies (even those sessions that were later in the day or the day after). Jin Kai came soon after, and we started chatting since he was just a few seats after mine. My family was seated in front so I called to my family so that they could see where exactly I was seating. I had to stand up since my mum couldn't really see me in the entire sea of graduates. Soon the ceremony started and that there were speeches given by some CEO of some large multinational company, and also videos being played of some students sharing their life and their wonderful experiences in SP.
After that was the much awaited price / diploma presentation ceremony, in which every graduating student's name will be called on stage and then will be given this red coloured scroll casing. My heart was pounding every second during that part, and I could also see my dad looking at the queue of graduates for me. Soon it was my section to stand up and join the queue, as the queue moved forward, my parents managed to locate me and started to take some pictures of me when I was waiting. She's was sitting near the front and I was happy that I saw her, and her smiles eased my nervousness. Soon my name was called, and as proudly as I could, I smiled brightly and walked towards the director. When I was near him, I asked,"Sir, can I take a selfie with you?" He smiled and replied with a nod on his head. I then took a selfie with him and then collected my scroll casing.
After a few others, then came to the closing of the ceremony and then was the start of the tea reception. I knew this was the only chance I had to talk to her once more. After I went out of the convention centre, I immediately went to look for her. While looking for her, I went to take some selfies with some of my friends that I made during my poly life, and I met up with my family. My mum actually bought a gift for me from the school itself, which is a teddy bear with a flower attached to it's back. I took a photo with my family while holding the flower itself, and another picture with my dad (Dad, I love you). I met up with my buddies and while still holding the gift box in my hand, I was so worried that I wasn't able to find her and talk to her.
I was desperate, I decided to call my friends for help, which was to help me to locate her and to give me call when any of them located her. My buddy James told me that she was at the 2nd floor of the convention centre. After hearing it, I quickly ran up to look for her, I pushed the door open and frantically searched for her, I saw someone that looked like her, but I wasn't sure because I couldn't see her face. I went outside of the 2nd floor feeling so crestfallen because I thought all hope was lost. My buddies saw me feeling so down and they wanted to come upstairs to talk to me. Just then, Namra texted me telling me to quickly go to the skate park, at the same time, I also saw her walking with her.
Without thinking, I ran all the way down to the skate park at the plaza area, in which I met up with Nam, and I frantically asked her where was she. I was trying to catch my breath while the gift box was still in my hand. Then she walked towards me, while giving me the most sweetest smile ever. My heart melted when I saw her smile, and I smiled back to her. Then I said to her, 'Hi! :) I think your speech that you gave just now was so good :)' As we met face to face, I said to her: "I got you a gift!" and I handed her the gift box. When she saw the nicely wrapped gift box, she was stunned and she laughed a little while saying, "Oh my gosh, is it really okay for me to accept this gift? I barely know you :)". I told her it was okay, and I said to her, "Open it! Open it! :)" Since her hands were full, I helped her to open the gift while the box was in her hands. When she saw the gift that I got for her, she went like,"Oh my gosh! Snoopy! So cute! :)" Obviously I was dying of happiness when I saw that she liked the gift so much. She wanted to take a picture, so I happily agreed (:P), she held the gift in one hand and her friend took a picture of us. After taking the picture, I wanted to talk to her, so I said to her," Is it okay if I can talk to you in private for like 5 minutes?" She quickly agreed and I brought her to a corner.
This part is going to be cheesy (don't laugh). She was standing very close to me and then I said to her, "Okay, erm things are going to get a little awkward for what I have to say to you" , then she went, "Oh I think I know what it is." So I told her, "You know for the past one year, I actually had feelings for you, and the reason why I told you is because today is the last day I am going to see you and I probably think that we won't be seeing each other again, and furthermore I regretted it many times already, I don't want to regret it once more." After she heard it she was a little surprised but she was laughing a little most of the time, and I was about to die from blushing. My buddies were all looking at me from afar as I was talking to her. After I told her, she was like laughing a little and she said to me, "Thanks for telling me that you got feelings for me and also I really respect your decision. Don't need to be shy just because you confessed to me, I'm not a person that will go around telling other people like 'Hey this guy confessed to me!', come on! Don't need to feel shy or anything! :)" I smiled awkwardly at her after that, after that I asked her , "Hey, I don't know if it's okay if I can have one last selfie with you?"
She replied, "Yeah sure! Of course, it's grad man :)" I was happy once more, we took a photo and then I smiled at her and said thanks to her. She then stretched out her hand towards me, and that she said, "All the best to you for the future! *with a very bright smile*" I reached out for her hand, and I grabbed it and shook her hand, then I said to her, "Yeah you too! All the best for uni :)" Then she turned and left. That's the first time and the last time I will ever get to shake her hand, and probably the last time I will ever see her in my entire life.
Still missing her as much as ever, I wonder how she's doing right now? Maybe smiling and helping others as always? :)
I love her.
Without thinking, I ran all the way down to the skate park at the plaza area, in which I met up with Nam, and I frantically asked her where was she. I was trying to catch my breath while the gift box was still in my hand. Then she walked towards me, while giving me the most sweetest smile ever. My heart melted when I saw her smile, and I smiled back to her. Then I said to her, 'Hi! :) I think your speech that you gave just now was so good :)' As we met face to face, I said to her: "I got you a gift!" and I handed her the gift box. When she saw the nicely wrapped gift box, she was stunned and she laughed a little while saying, "Oh my gosh, is it really okay for me to accept this gift? I barely know you :)". I told her it was okay, and I said to her, "Open it! Open it! :)" Since her hands were full, I helped her to open the gift while the box was in her hands. When she saw the gift that I got for her, she went like,"Oh my gosh! Snoopy! So cute! :)" Obviously I was dying of happiness when I saw that she liked the gift so much. She wanted to take a picture, so I happily agreed (:P), she held the gift in one hand and her friend took a picture of us. After taking the picture, I wanted to talk to her, so I said to her," Is it okay if I can talk to you in private for like 5 minutes?" She quickly agreed and I brought her to a corner.
This part is going to be cheesy (don't laugh). She was standing very close to me and then I said to her, "Okay, erm things are going to get a little awkward for what I have to say to you" , then she went, "Oh I think I know what it is." So I told her, "You know for the past one year, I actually had feelings for you, and the reason why I told you is because today is the last day I am going to see you and I probably think that we won't be seeing each other again, and furthermore I regretted it many times already, I don't want to regret it once more." After she heard it she was a little surprised but she was laughing a little most of the time, and I was about to die from blushing. My buddies were all looking at me from afar as I was talking to her. After I told her, she was like laughing a little and she said to me, "Thanks for telling me that you got feelings for me and also I really respect your decision. Don't need to be shy just because you confessed to me, I'm not a person that will go around telling other people like 'Hey this guy confessed to me!', come on! Don't need to feel shy or anything! :)" I smiled awkwardly at her after that, after that I asked her , "Hey, I don't know if it's okay if I can have one last selfie with you?"
She replied, "Yeah sure! Of course, it's grad man :)" I was happy once more, we took a photo and then I smiled at her and said thanks to her. She then stretched out her hand towards me, and that she said, "All the best to you for the future! *with a very bright smile*" I reached out for her hand, and I grabbed it and shook her hand, then I said to her, "Yeah you too! All the best for uni :)" Then she turned and left. That's the first time and the last time I will ever get to shake her hand, and probably the last time I will ever see her in my entire life.
Still missing her as much as ever, I wonder how she's doing right now? Maybe smiling and helping others as always? :)
I love her.
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