It has been a good 18 days since I collected my pink IC and left the army, and within these 18 days there have been ups and downs. Once again I did a lot of self reflection and I was more aware of what was making me feel down. I would say the first thing was the very fact that I pushed away and hurt the people that really cared for me even when I wasn't being fair to them. My actions have hurt them to the point some of them stopped caring for me, and I really regret my actions to this very day. I used to think that I would be able to easily find people that truly care for me, but after everything that has happened, I realised I was wrong, 100% wrong in fact.
People that you know might not turn out what they really are, in which they would turn out likely to just be acquaintances or even worse, betrayers / backstabbers. On the other hand, I am thankful to those people still stood by my side even though I might have unknowingly hurt them. I will definitely watch my actions and the things I say as these 2 things tend to easily hurt people the most.
Okay enough for the negative part! Visited a Chinese physician to get my stomach and re-flux problems checked, and apparently it was caused by the over consumption of cold food and beverages. Therefore even since then I've cut down on cold drinks but as for desserts I still have em' every once in a while, I mean it is impossible to completely not eat dessert :D (like, bruh come on!). At the same time I've completely changed my workout style to fully calisthenic-style and no weights. The main reason is because my gym that I signed up last year is expiring soon and it has at least 80 dollars worth of deposit left, but I have to travel pretty far to reach that gym. Calisthenics? I can do them anyway and anywhere. As of now, I am on my journey to doing my very first muscle up :)
Been studying for Uni almost every single day, as I know it is going to OMG difficult since it's an honours course squeezed into 21 months. Therefore if I am able to pull through the 21 months, my life would be way better after that. Not a lot of revision done in a day, just a chapter and loads of questions plus online research. Research plays a very big part in finding solutions and exploring more about that topic. I met up with a professor recently and he told me that just plainly memorizing answer will only help me to PASS, but to SCORE and EXCEL I have to do additional research and theory proving. But well, till then I am not going to stop my revision and research and at the same time enjoy my very much well deserved civilian life :D
Alright, it's pretty late so I will be getting some sleep. Since I am no longer in the army, I do have more time alone therefore I promise to update this dead blog more often :)
Cheers:)
