Few days back was the graduation ceremony, I remember waking up feeling like crap because my stomach wasn't feeling good the night before. Ate my breakfast anyway, played some L4D before I went to arrange my stuff for graduation. Killed a ton of Tanks in L4D, because I felt that I needed that I needed some de-stress before I went out. Went out at around 12, as I needed to buy my school tie and also wanted to meet up with some of my friends. I saw my friend back from Secondary school and also another familiar face, they have just completed their graduation ceremony and were attending their own tea reception ceremony. I chatted with them for awhile before my brother called me to tell me that he has ended his class and was waiting for me at another part of the school. Met up with my brother and then we chatted a little, then I saw her friends nearby. My blood froze since I knew that she has to be there nearby, within minutes she appeared and when I saw her, she looked beautiful as always with that never ending smile of hers. I was beginning to feel anxious since my parents agreed to reach the entrance of the hall by 12:45 pm, and it was around 1 pm when I called again and again as my mum wasn't picking up the phone. Finally they reached and I dashed to the reception counter to quickly purchase my school tie.
After much difficulty, I managed to properly put on my school tie and graduation robe, then I entered the hall with my parents. At first I was a little lost because I actually followed my parents to the audience seats (I was supposed to go to the seats assigned for the graduates), so I kind of stared at one of the ushers for like about 3 - 4 seconds, then she sort of like figured out that I had no idea where I was supposed to be seated (I know it's embarrassing). Then I saw her again entering the hall with smiles, I couldn't help but to stare at her once more. I noticed a book near the arm rest of my seat, I picked it up and opened it and it contained all of the graduates for all of the graduation ceremonies (even those sessions that were later in the day or the day after). Jin Kai came soon after, and we started chatting since he was just a few seats after mine. My family was seated in front so I called to my family so that they could see where exactly I was seating. I had to stand up since my mum couldn't really see me in the entire sea of graduates. Soon the ceremony started and that there were speeches given by some CEO of some large multinational company, and also videos being played of some students sharing their life and their wonderful experiences in SP.
After that was the much awaited price / diploma presentation ceremony, in which every graduating student's name will be called on stage and then will be given this red coloured scroll casing. My heart was pounding every second during that part, and I could also see my dad looking at the queue of graduates for me. Soon it was my section to stand up and join the queue, as the queue moved forward, my parents managed to locate me and started to take some pictures of me when I was waiting. She's was sitting near the front and I was happy that I saw her, and her smiles eased my nervousness. Soon my name was called, and as proudly as I could, I smiled brightly and walked towards the director. When I was near him, I asked,"Sir, can I take a selfie with you?" He smiled and replied with a nod on his head. I then took a selfie with him and then collected my scroll casing.
After a few others, then came to the closing of the ceremony and then was the start of the tea reception. I knew this was the only chance I had to talk to her once more. After I went out of the convention centre, I immediately went to look for her. While looking for her, I went to take some selfies with some of my friends that I made during my poly life, and I met up with my family. My mum actually bought a gift for me from the school itself, which is a teddy bear with a flower attached to it's back. I took a photo with my family while holding the flower itself, and another picture with my dad (Dad, I love you). I met up with my buddies and while still holding the gift box in my hand, I was so worried that I wasn't able to find her and talk to her.
I was desperate, I decided to call my friends for help, which was to help me to locate her and to give me call when any of them located her. My buddy James told me that she was at the 2nd floor of the convention centre. After hearing it, I quickly ran up to look for her, I pushed the door open and frantically searched for her, I saw someone that looked like her, but I wasn't sure because I couldn't see her face. I went outside of the 2nd floor feeling so crestfallen because I thought all hope was lost. My buddies saw me feeling so down and they wanted to come upstairs to talk to me. Just then, Namra texted me telling me to quickly go to the skate park, at the same time, I also saw her walking with her.
Without thinking, I ran all the way down to the skate park at the plaza area, in which I met up with Nam, and I frantically asked her where was she. I was trying to catch my breath while the gift box was still in my hand. Then she walked towards me, while giving me the most sweetest smile ever. My heart melted when I saw her smile, and I smiled back to her. Then I said to her, 'Hi! :) I think your speech that you gave just now was so good :)' As we met face to face, I said to her: "I got you a gift!" and I handed her the gift box. When she saw the nicely wrapped gift box, she was stunned and she laughed a little while saying, "Oh my gosh, is it really okay for me to accept this gift? I barely know you :)". I told her it was okay, and I said to her, "Open it! Open it! :)" Since her hands were full, I helped her to open the gift while the box was in her hands. When she saw the gift that I got for her, she went like,"Oh my gosh! Snoopy! So cute! :)" Obviously I was dying of happiness when I saw that she liked the gift so much. She wanted to take a picture, so I happily agreed (:P), she held the gift in one hand and her friend took a picture of us. After taking the picture, I wanted to talk to her, so I said to her," Is it okay if I can talk to you in private for like 5 minutes?" She quickly agreed and I brought her to a corner.
This part is going to be cheesy (don't laugh). She was standing very close to me and then I said to her, "Okay, erm things are going to get a little awkward for what I have to say to you" , then she went, "Oh I think I know what it is." So I told her, "You know for the past one year, I actually had feelings for you, and the reason why I told you is because today is the last day I am going to see you and I probably think that we won't be seeing each other again, and furthermore I regretted it many times already, I don't want to regret it once more." After she heard it she was a little surprised but she was laughing a little most of the time, and I was about to die from blushing. My buddies were all looking at me from afar as I was talking to her. After I told her, she was like laughing a little and she said to me, "Thanks for telling me that you got feelings for me and also I really respect your decision. Don't need to be shy just because you confessed to me, I'm not a person that will go around telling other people like 'Hey this guy confessed to me!', come on! Don't need to feel shy or anything! :)" I smiled awkwardly at her after that, after that I asked her , "Hey, I don't know if it's okay if I can have one last selfie with you?"
She replied, "Yeah sure! Of course, it's grad man :)" I was happy once more, we took a photo and then I smiled at her and said thanks to her. She then stretched out her hand towards me, and that she said, "All the best to you for the future! *with a very bright smile*" I reached out for her hand, and I grabbed it and shook her hand, then I said to her, "Yeah you too! All the best for uni :)" Then she turned and left. That's the first time and the last time I will ever get to shake her hand, and probably the last time I will ever see her in my entire life.
Still missing her as much as ever, I wonder how she's doing right now? Maybe smiling and helping others as always? :)
I love her.
Without thinking, I ran all the way down to the skate park at the plaza area, in which I met up with Nam, and I frantically asked her where was she. I was trying to catch my breath while the gift box was still in my hand. Then she walked towards me, while giving me the most sweetest smile ever. My heart melted when I saw her smile, and I smiled back to her. Then I said to her, 'Hi! :) I think your speech that you gave just now was so good :)' As we met face to face, I said to her: "I got you a gift!" and I handed her the gift box. When she saw the nicely wrapped gift box, she was stunned and she laughed a little while saying, "Oh my gosh, is it really okay for me to accept this gift? I barely know you :)". I told her it was okay, and I said to her, "Open it! Open it! :)" Since her hands were full, I helped her to open the gift while the box was in her hands. When she saw the gift that I got for her, she went like,"Oh my gosh! Snoopy! So cute! :)" Obviously I was dying of happiness when I saw that she liked the gift so much. She wanted to take a picture, so I happily agreed (:P), she held the gift in one hand and her friend took a picture of us. After taking the picture, I wanted to talk to her, so I said to her," Is it okay if I can talk to you in private for like 5 minutes?" She quickly agreed and I brought her to a corner.
This part is going to be cheesy (don't laugh). She was standing very close to me and then I said to her, "Okay, erm things are going to get a little awkward for what I have to say to you" , then she went, "Oh I think I know what it is." So I told her, "You know for the past one year, I actually had feelings for you, and the reason why I told you is because today is the last day I am going to see you and I probably think that we won't be seeing each other again, and furthermore I regretted it many times already, I don't want to regret it once more." After she heard it she was a little surprised but she was laughing a little most of the time, and I was about to die from blushing. My buddies were all looking at me from afar as I was talking to her. After I told her, she was like laughing a little and she said to me, "Thanks for telling me that you got feelings for me and also I really respect your decision. Don't need to be shy just because you confessed to me, I'm not a person that will go around telling other people like 'Hey this guy confessed to me!', come on! Don't need to feel shy or anything! :)" I smiled awkwardly at her after that, after that I asked her , "Hey, I don't know if it's okay if I can have one last selfie with you?"
She replied, "Yeah sure! Of course, it's grad man :)" I was happy once more, we took a photo and then I smiled at her and said thanks to her. She then stretched out her hand towards me, and that she said, "All the best to you for the future! *with a very bright smile*" I reached out for her hand, and I grabbed it and shook her hand, then I said to her, "Yeah you too! All the best for uni :)" Then she turned and left. That's the first time and the last time I will ever get to shake her hand, and probably the last time I will ever see her in my entire life.
Still missing her as much as ever, I wonder how she's doing right now? Maybe smiling and helping others as always? :)
I love her.
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