I should be sleeping, but.....

My laptop has been switched off and I should be sleeping, but I can't sleep for some unknown reason. Therefore I decided to make a new post on my phone and post it up here. Now as I look up into the night sky, I thought back into those girls that I sort of have a crush on them last time.

As I was thinking about them, I also thought back on the things I did together with them. It also reminded me on how I kept my feelings for them and also how those feelings eventually got leaked out and then they somehow (I don't know how) managed to find out about it. Thinking back, I felt kinda ashamed to even face them now, which was the reason why I avoided them in school after they found out about my feelings for them.

I also felt stupid whenever I tried to sort of like show off my skills in Precision Drill whenever they are close by. As in I wanted them to see my skills and perhaps have a change of heart(?). But in the end, it was just my own wishful thinking. Those girls are long gone from my memories, but from time to time, then just re-appear in my memories. I do wish them the best of luck in whatever they do and I hope I don't cross their paths again in life so that those memories will not surface again.

I also thought about what I did today at home. I was supposed to finish 3 tutorials on Structured Programming today, but I ended up doing chapter 1 and the programming codings for chapter 2b. After that I went to eat dinner then watched about 2.5 hours of TV before playing Maplestory with Janson and Bok. I guessed I was too lazy to do homework. These few days, my daily routine was almost the same.

Basically I will wake up in the morning, eat breakfast, watch videos on my phone, on my laptop, game until lunchtime, do about 20 minutes of tutorial, then go to YouTube and watch live performances, then do another 30 minutes of tutorial, then continuing gaming till dinner time, then do about 30 mins of tutorial then continue gaming till about 1am in the morning, toss and turn on my bed before getting some proper sleep.

I fear that my computer addiction has gone from bad to worse, as I tried to concentrate in doing my tutorials but I will end up going to Facebook or YouTube. So this morning I tried resisting the temptation to on my laptop. However, the temptation got the better of me and I went to on my laptop just before lunch time. I also tried to control myself by just telling my self that I switched on my laptop just to do the codings for my Structured Programming.

However I ended up gaming and going to YouTube instead. At this rate I think my Mid Semester test will be a disaster and my parents will definitely do something about my computer addiction. My self control and self discipline is really weak, and I will definitely do something about it, as I don't want to end up repeating modules like some year two's I know.

Okay it looks like I will stop right here, it's 2:45am and I am starting to get sleepy already. Tomorrow will be a brand new day, with new history to be made *signing off* 