Confused

It's has been eternity (1 week) since I last posted something, I guess I was too lazy to post, and to be completely honest, I almost forgot that my blog even existed (LOL). Anyway last nowadays, Shannon is the one that always wakes me up early in the morning by just SMS-ing me, and of course the ringtone of my phone will wake me up. 

Anyway, I guess I have gotten a little better in DOTA (Defense of the Ancients). At least I know when to assist and kill at the slightest opportunity. And of course, the hero that I know how to use the best is Yunero (Juggernaut). 

These few weeks, I realized I am getting happier with my poly friends, but sometimes I do get frustrated because of some minor issues. Today I had to go to school because I had to finish up my IE (Introduction to Engineering) project, which consists of soldering a few components. I got up from my bed and my injured legs (especially my knees), were taking it's toll on me. I dragged me feet to school, and Leon texted me telling me that they were at food court 4. However, I mistaken what Leon said (more of forgot) and I went to food court 2 instead, when I entered the food court, I was wondering why I couldn't find them.

So I gave them a call and asked them why I couldn't find them. Until Jmeen noona told me that they were at food court 4 all along. In other words, I made a huge blunder and I had to walk all the way to food court 4, while carrying my toolbox and enduring the pain coming from my injured legs and knees. While walking to food court 4, I was fuming mad until to the point I was ready to go berserk. I blamed myself of my own stupidity and on why I did not realize I was at the wrong place. So when I met them, I refused to eat, my frustration levels were at it's peak when I met them because I know I didn't want to eat at food court 4, but I wanted to actually eat at the McDonalds outlet at the Triple E building. 

So after Leon, David and Jmeen noona ate finish their food, I went to eat McDonalds breakfast (HotCakes with sausage and an upsized Milo), I gotta admit, I never felt happier after I ate everything down. After that we all moved to the Spectrum's top floor. We found a table and we all started using our lap tops since the IE lab that has free access only opens at 1. Leon then suggested playing DOTA. we all agreed. Anyway I was kinda surprised when Jmeen noon actually wanted to play DOTA with us. 

As usual I played Yunero (Juggernaut), with high spirits, I thought I could get a good result in that game, since it was partially an in-house game. However I was wrong, David pwn-ed the shit out of me, killing me 7 times. That was when I realized how lousy I was in DOTA.

After that game, we moved up to the lab and settled down ourselves before starting to finish up our circuit boards. Since Jmeen noona didn't know how to do her circuit board, she asked Leon to help her, while I continued me and Leon's group assignment. At the start, it wasn't so bad because I simply desoldered those bad parts. But later when I had to solder the VCC part into the board, I started getting frustrated as the solder entirely stuck together. So basically I resoldered it again and again.

Anyway I left about 3+ and went back home to have tea break. My legs were killing me by the time I was at my house's doorstep. After eating my teabreak, I went to play DOTA public game, as usual I got flamed again and again for not working properly with my teammates. Oh hell, I was really demoralized, it looks like I will forever be a noob in DOTA I guess?

Today I woke up at around 9+ when my mum told me to go and cut my hair, obviously I couldn't say no to my mum, so I reluctantly agreed. I had a light breakfast since I had breakfast very late because I was lazy to get out of my bed.

Anyway Shannon texted me to wake me up. She had to go to school for the national day dance rehearsal in my secondary school. Haha I could vividly remember the time she asked me why I didn't have a girl friend. It got pretty awkward at first, since it's the first time a girl actually asked me why I didn't have a girlfriend. 

So I replied her that I was still scouting for one. I think none of my friends know who I even like now, besides I can't and I will never tell that person my feelings for her, instead, I will just watch her from afar as she goes into happiness. As for me, I guess I'm a pretty impatient person. Whenever I see couples happily holding hands and waking together, I get very jealous of them. It's because I just wonder why can't I be as happy as them?

But if I sink too deep into these thoughts, I will just end up being selfish because I know love can't be forced. Many of my friends tell me that in Poly, it's easy to get a girlfriend. However, I'm not getting the results I am expecting. Therefore, I am still gonna wait, and continue scouting for the right one for me. 

It's 1:13am in the morning, I'm gonna stop here because I'm too tired to continue posting. 

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*Signing Off*