I don't know what should I put as the title for this post. Anyway I woke up feeling shitty and lovesick, I ate breakfast as usual. Bee Hoon and sliced fish cake with luncheon meat, and a cup of hot milo. My stomach felt okay after breakfast surprisingly. I went to play Red Alert 2 after breakfast, mum obviously wasn't happy because I was playing com early in the morning. I have been doing this for the past 1-2 weeks?
During lunch time, I went to watch a badminton match on TV with appa. Appa was like cursing and swearing at the China player, because my dad thinks he has an attitude problem, or acting too proud. Anyway one of the players of the defending world champion, Lee Chong Wei. I have watched him play before on TV, he is really awesome, like an agile monkey. He is able to take shots very quickly, making little mistakes and dominating the court easily. However I think luck wasn't on his side today, he lost to Cheng Long, his opponent from China whom my dad thinks is just a show off and got lucky when he won the defending world champion.
I went to play com, lie on my bed, repeated the process 3-4 times. Texted Shannon for a short while before heading downstairs for a run. After I finished running, I climbed up 29 floors and almost died halfway but I persevered. Went to bathe, ate chicken wing rice for dinner.
The lovesick feeling overwhelmed me again after dinner for some unknown reason. I was like thinking how did I even get past secondary school. I was very emo in my third and fourth year, because I kept having unrequited love. I kept loving someone but not getting the results that I want. I always told myself that I could always find someone and love her even more than the previous. Oh well I think I can mention names here since basically not one reads my blog.
The first person I liked was in Secondary 2, and her name was C (Oh well, I think for respect reasons, I should not put the full name online). C and I were classmates since Primary 5. We talked, laughed and studied together sometimes. She was kind and caring, and I think she is beautiful, she still is though but just that I buried my feelings for her in Secondary 3. In Sec 3, I found someone else. Her name starts with a B. B and I only talked for 1 hour, but I really enjoyed that 1 hour when we were together. I didn't even know her, neither did she. I opinion on her is that I think she is kind (duh), caring and also helps people in the first opportunity, and shes beautiful.
However she somehow found out that I had feelings for her, and she totally ignored me in the corridor whenever we walked past each other. Basically unrequited love for two straight times. Hated it alot, but I guess I have no choice but to pick myself up again and again.
Anyway after dinner, I texted Shannon again, and she told me she has a boyfriend now. I'm very happy for her as someone appreciates her and she accepted his feelings. As for me, I guess I will have to wait, 10 years or 20 years, I will still wait, wait for someone to come along and appreciate for who I am.
Shall stop here now, I'm super tired.
당신이 여자 사랑
*Signing Off*
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