Till now I'm still not enlightened about one crucial question that I've always asked my friends but never got an answer. Some of my female friends told me this before, "Actually boring guys are good leh, in a sense that they will be super loyal to their girlfriend or wife in the future. For someone like you, I think your other half will be super blessed".
I was glad that their impression of me is a good one. However I do see an irony, a major one. If females say that boring guys make good partners, then why my friends leading monotonous but meaningful lives are being dumped by their partners one at a time? Even some of my friends, whom I know for more than 15 years, their character being of a pure soul, is also getting dumped by their partners. Those ladies that dumped my friends, went for guys that are more outgoing, spontaneous and people that knows how to party.
I'm confused, like really.
Anyway it was around 5 pm, doing my shift work with Bryan. He was sharing about how he flopped things up when he was out dating with this girl of his, and there was one point when he said about what he was doing while driving his car. "You know when I was driving halfway, she fell into a deep deep sleep and her head was falling towards the direction of my shoulder. This is something that I always wanted, like when you're driving and the car stops at the red traffic light, you turn your head and look at how beautiful she is. It's something unexplainable".
A bad habit of mine, which is being jealous and also the frequent comparison of lives with my peers. I felt jealous after he shared his story with me. He has the things that I also want to experience, which I feel I might not be able to experience at all.
I felt absolutely terrible during dinner, so I didn't talk to anyone. Headed upstairs and forced out 160 push ups to cool my head off before going to sleep.
At least I did feel a lot better after waking up.
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