15th of January - New Year's Resolutions

It has 2 weeks into the new year, and so much has changed around me. Be it from my best buddies, my NS life and even down to the people that I care for. I read about the truth on the kind of life that I was living, and it hit me really hard. Why? Because firstly indeed what I read was the truth on the kind of life I was living and how badly I want it to change. However this word 'change', scares the crap out of me (yes, no kidding). It associates with the question 'What will happen?' 

For now I do have a few unfinished tasks that I started in 2015 and I want to achieve them in 2016.

1. IPPT Gold

This is a promise that I made to myself after my MPTS days. I was weak, stupid, blur, emotional, delusion-ed, rash, easily influenced and someone who gives up easily. I saw the faces when people achieved the much coveted gold award for IPPT, and from that moment on I wanted to get that award. I want to be fitter, I do not want to be called weak anymore, nor do I want to fall behind in terms of fitness. Lastly I want to have something that I can be proud for achieving.

2.  Making peace with my past and my mistakes

This will take a shit ton of effort, like really. I've never been able to let go of who I am in the past, which is why is it haunting me day after day, The mistakes that I made, the people that I've misunderstood or hurt with my words and actions still flow back into my head until I snap out of it. I chatted with one of the counselor commander and he told me that to let go of one's past, is to first forgive oneself because making peace with the mistakes one by one. 

3. The 'wait & listen' character attribute / attitude

I got inspired by a TV show that is a childhood show of mine. In it is a race of people has mastered this particular human attribute. They wait and observe how their opponent attacks before making a swift decision and then counter attacking. I feel that this also applies to the real world, Some people nowadays are too rash in terms of decision making and also action wise, I am no exception and it has cost me dearly. I do not want to succumb to making mistakes over and over again because of the fact that I'm too rash and hasty to get things done or to solve things.

These 3 are my few resolutions for the new year. I guess no one will probably read this post, but I guess it is 3 cheers to the new year, to better health and to my future. *clanging of wine glasses*

Justin