Sometimes, I just really wonder about alot of things. Questions pop up inside my head every now and then. The most common questions that I always have inside my head is that, how does it feel like to be accepted by the girl you like? How can you love and feel loved by the person you love? What is the feeling when you get a hug from the person you love?
These questions pop up in my head, but time after time, I am unable to answer them. However, I sort of got the slight feeling of giving a hug to my girl in a dream. I remember clearly it was near a jetty, and that my girl was crying, hard. And that very moment, I just stretched my hands out, and hugged her. I wanted her to feel safe, and comforted at the same time. I wanted to give all my love to her.
That very moment, a large tsunami came, we ran for our lives. I held her hands and ran all the way, not looking behind. Suddenly I heard a loud thud. I realized that she had fallen to the ground, I ran back to save her, but only to realize that it was too late to run away from the waves. So I hugged her tight, and I said to her, "I will never leave you, even in the brink of death" I closed my eyes, and she closed hers, and the next moment I could feel the cold water over my shoulders and my entire body. Even as the waves swept us away, I did not let her go, as promised.
That very moment, I woke up, and I was relieved but sad at the same time. I was relieved that this did not really happened, as it all occurred in a dream. However, I was sad because only then, it will prove how strong my love for my girl will be. I don't think any one right now will understand how much I am going to love my girl.
Another thing that is burdening me is my hover hand syndrome. I just have this fear of touching girls. Even if it's only placing on shoulders, I still have the hesitation of placing my hand there. I guess that's gonna be one of my big problems in the future when I do get a girlfriend.
Anyway it's 1:15 am in the morning now, I better get some rest because tomorrow will be a day of revision for me
당신이 여자 사랑
*Signing Off*
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