As for the dream part, I remembered 2 different dreams, the first one involves an idol, the second one was pretty brief.
For the first dream, I recalled myself sitting at some concert hall, in which people where entering from all entrances. There were 2 empty seats to my left and 1 to my right. The concert started with magnificent performances. Moments later, someone came and sat on the seat to my left. When I turned my head, it was Uee from the group After School. She introduced herself, and I did the same too. After the concert ended, we both were told to go and stay somewhere.
Then I realized it was my friend's house. The house was a magnificent mansion, with the first level as a viewing room for the nearby seaside scenery. His entire family came and greeted us, and everyone thought that Uee and I were a couple (LOL).
After dinner, Uee and I toured around the house, at the same time, we got to know more about each other. She shared with me her sad moments in her life, and also about her own family. Later that night, my friend's family gathered and shared with us a legend about a scary beast called the spiritbreaker. The beast's roars could be heard from afar, and that anyone could be the target. When everyone was asleep, I went downstairs to the first floor to grab some night snacks, I saw Uee looking out to the window. I went to have a small chat with her, also sharing some of my snacks too.
That very moment, a loud fearsome roar was heard in the distance. The roar shook the ground beneath us, and at the same time, striking fear into both of our hearts. Seconds after the roar was heard, we heard another scream, a scream that was cut short.
Uee was scared, so we both went upstairs to investigate. What we saw horrified us, it was the dead bodies of my friend and his family members. At that moment, we knew we were in trouble, deep deep trouble. Immediately, I held her hand, and made a mad dash for the exit. Towards the exit, we heard the terrifying roar again. Uee started crying, while we were trying to run as fast as we could towards the beach. The spiritbreaker charged right straight at us but stopped when it saw that we were near the sea, within seconds, it retreated and we saw it charging away from us.
Due to the fright and exhaustion, she fainted into my arms. So I just sat down on the beach, and Uee was leaning on my right shoulder. When she woke up, she weakly said 'thank you' in korean, and kissed me on the cheek.
That very moment I awoke in another dream, I recalled hearing gun fire and sounds of bombing. I recalled holding a rifle, fighting alongside with my comrades. I awakened back into my first dream within seconds (kinda sounds a bit like inception LOL). By that time Uee was already awake. I chatted with her for a little longer, that was when I woke back up into reality. Oh well I actually wished dreams like that will never end, and that I will never wake up from those dreams. 유이누나, 사랑해요!!! ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Anyway yesterday was the eve of Namra's 18th birthday. We all went to Clementi Mall to have lunch, then we headed to Bugis to catch a movie, but unfortunately the tickets were too expensive, so we tried going to Iluma instead, however, the prices were the same since it was an eve of a public holiday. The others bought Koi to drink, while I chatted with Leon while the rest were drinking. We headed to Bugis Street level 2 after that, my back was aching from all the walking, so was Leon's. We decided to go home since there was nothing more to do. On the train, we chatted alot more. Namra had to change lines so she had to alight earlier. I gave her a birthday hug, then Leon, TK, Jonathan and I started talking about DOTA 2 after she alighted :D
Reached back home half dead due to my aching back, but felt really happy that day :) I really do hope I can go out and celebrate birthdays with my friends more often, in which I won't feel so bored at home :)
Got school tomorrow, gotta stop here!
Nights! :)
Sunday, 6 May 2012
Wednesday, 2 May 2012
Back to school
Alright, I'm finally back here after a decade (LOL), I think I last posted since, I forgot, 2 months+?
To start things off, I'm in towards the end of the 3 week in my 2nd academic year in Poly, and I think I am actually getting the hang of stuff pretty quickly. Especially the fact that I am starting to listen more during lectures, and actually finishing my tutorial questions before the tutorial class. The downside about my new academic year? THERE ARE NO GIRLS IN MY CLASS. YES, LITERALLY ZERO GIRLS, from 4 to 2 to ZERO. Oh well, at least I still have all my friends around me. I met up with Tong Shen after the first day of school. It was the start of year 1 for him, and year 2 for me. The funny thing was that we are both born in the same year (1994) , but the fact that I am 1 academic year ahead of him seems a little weird. Nevertheless, we both met up over a meal and chatted for over an hour.
My classmate recently gave me an awesome game, a game in which I have waited months for it. Defense of The Ancients 2, a game with awesome graphics. However as much as I wanted that game, I sort of regretted getting it, because of not playing for months before, I got owned, literally. So I changed my games from time to time, like playing CABAL online, or minecraft as alternatives to playing DOTA.
Last week was the CCA showcase in which every CCA in the school will display their CCA in booths to attract year 1's to join their CCA. I went to help out with the booth management for all 3 days, and I didn't regret helping out. I could say it was a totally new experience for me. I had never done stuff like giving out flyers, or advertising my CCA to other people I didn't know. I had bad experiences in the past but this time round, this CCA showcase has completely changed my mindset about doing these kind of stuffs. In fact if there was another showcase like this in the future, I would volunteer myself without and hesitation. Another good thing is that, there were actually more girls that signed up compared to last year. At the beginning, there were about 8-9 of them, in which they disappeared after a year. So seeing more of them sign up is good because my CCA (Wing Chun), is actually a female martial art, in which is designed for females to protect themselves. Ironically all of the current members are males.
As for my lessons now, the lecture styles are very different compared to last year. We used to attend lectures with 2 classes combined, and 1 lecturer teaching us. Now the lectures are conducted in a large lecture hall, with about 4-5 classes combined into 1. However, I don't like the fact in which people make noise in the lecture hall. I find it quite irritating when I am trying to listen. Oh well, I can't change anything because I am not the module director nor the principal. However during one of the lectures, my classmate Leon, started saying some things in which I totally cracked up after hearing them. The lecturer said this: "whatever sound you make or say, will come out though the output as sound if there is an output such as a speaker attached to it" After the lecturer said that, Leon went," You don't say?" I totally cracked up after he said that sentence.
Just yesterday, I finish watching this really awesome drama, in which I really think there should be a sequel to it. It's a Korean drama called My GirlFriend is a nine-tailed Fox. The last episode was really touching, I almost cried when it ended. But in the end, I didn't cry but there tears in my eyes. It was a small reversal in the end, but it was touching enough to bring tears into my eyes. Here's the link for more info about this drama :)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/My_Girlfriend_Is_a_Nine-Tailed_Fox
To start things off, I'm in towards the end of the 3 week in my 2nd academic year in Poly, and I think I am actually getting the hang of stuff pretty quickly. Especially the fact that I am starting to listen more during lectures, and actually finishing my tutorial questions before the tutorial class. The downside about my new academic year? THERE ARE NO GIRLS IN MY CLASS. YES, LITERALLY ZERO GIRLS, from 4 to 2 to ZERO. Oh well, at least I still have all my friends around me. I met up with Tong Shen after the first day of school. It was the start of year 1 for him, and year 2 for me. The funny thing was that we are both born in the same year (1994) , but the fact that I am 1 academic year ahead of him seems a little weird. Nevertheless, we both met up over a meal and chatted for over an hour.
My classmate recently gave me an awesome game, a game in which I have waited months for it. Defense of The Ancients 2, a game with awesome graphics. However as much as I wanted that game, I sort of regretted getting it, because of not playing for months before, I got owned, literally. So I changed my games from time to time, like playing CABAL online, or minecraft as alternatives to playing DOTA.
Last week was the CCA showcase in which every CCA in the school will display their CCA in booths to attract year 1's to join their CCA. I went to help out with the booth management for all 3 days, and I didn't regret helping out. I could say it was a totally new experience for me. I had never done stuff like giving out flyers, or advertising my CCA to other people I didn't know. I had bad experiences in the past but this time round, this CCA showcase has completely changed my mindset about doing these kind of stuffs. In fact if there was another showcase like this in the future, I would volunteer myself without and hesitation. Another good thing is that, there were actually more girls that signed up compared to last year. At the beginning, there were about 8-9 of them, in which they disappeared after a year. So seeing more of them sign up is good because my CCA (Wing Chun), is actually a female martial art, in which is designed for females to protect themselves. Ironically all of the current members are males.
As for my lessons now, the lecture styles are very different compared to last year. We used to attend lectures with 2 classes combined, and 1 lecturer teaching us. Now the lectures are conducted in a large lecture hall, with about 4-5 classes combined into 1. However, I don't like the fact in which people make noise in the lecture hall. I find it quite irritating when I am trying to listen. Oh well, I can't change anything because I am not the module director nor the principal. However during one of the lectures, my classmate Leon, started saying some things in which I totally cracked up after hearing them. The lecturer said this: "whatever sound you make or say, will come out though the output as sound if there is an output such as a speaker attached to it" After the lecturer said that, Leon went," You don't say?" I totally cracked up after he said that sentence.
Just yesterday, I finish watching this really awesome drama, in which I really think there should be a sequel to it. It's a Korean drama called My GirlFriend is a nine-tailed Fox. The last episode was really touching, I almost cried when it ended. But in the end, I didn't cry but there tears in my eyes. It was a small reversal in the end, but it was touching enough to bring tears into my eyes. Here's the link for more info about this drama :)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/My_Girlfriend_Is_a_Nine-Tailed_Fox
Friday, 23 March 2012
Back at Fairfield Secondary
I called Shen on the way to the secondary school, since I couldn't just enter the school just like that, and of course the guard will catch me with my long hair. I met Shen at the front gate, and we entered. Apparently there was photo taking today, so there were many students near the driveway towards the exit of the front gate.
When I walked in, many students started staring at me, I guess its be because of my long hair(?). Me and Shen went to the CCA block and I met up with my juniors whom I took them for more than a year. Of course they still remembered me, except they took some time to recognize me since I had my hair "altered" to 3 times longer since secondary school. There was a muster parade that day. Shen became a cadet lieutenant around the end of last year, and he told me alot of stories about the many incidents in the unit and also among the teachers too. When I heard them, I was shocked because some of the problems were caused by the teachers themselves.
Anyway I helped out the Secondary 3 platoon, since they were the ones that were going to lead the unit very soon. Soon it was the parade itself, and guess what? The teachers even changed the basic structure of the parade, there was no standard in the marching, and there was no march past at all. I was completely at a loss for words. The teachers completely omitted the basic structure which was stated clearly by the HQ that it was not supposed to be changed or omitted in anyway. Oh well, I can't do anything since I am only a senior with no more rank, unless I got for the cadet officer course.
After the parade, I thought Ji Hao and Adli some of my PDS skills (didn't go rusty since it is still my passion even after I graduated). I left for home soon after. I felt really happy since I was openly welcomed back by the unit even after 1 year of not helping out after graduating. But however I am not really happy with the changes made to the unit, and that the teachers also expects us to update them, but they themselves do not update us in the first place. Oh well, I hope that things will improve, and that I definitely do hope to see some changes the next time I come back to Fairfield NCC.
When I walked in, many students started staring at me, I guess its be because of my long hair(?). Me and Shen went to the CCA block and I met up with my juniors whom I took them for more than a year. Of course they still remembered me, except they took some time to recognize me since I had my hair "altered" to 3 times longer since secondary school. There was a muster parade that day. Shen became a cadet lieutenant around the end of last year, and he told me alot of stories about the many incidents in the unit and also among the teachers too. When I heard them, I was shocked because some of the problems were caused by the teachers themselves.
Anyway I helped out the Secondary 3 platoon, since they were the ones that were going to lead the unit very soon. Soon it was the parade itself, and guess what? The teachers even changed the basic structure of the parade, there was no standard in the marching, and there was no march past at all. I was completely at a loss for words. The teachers completely omitted the basic structure which was stated clearly by the HQ that it was not supposed to be changed or omitted in anyway. Oh well, I can't do anything since I am only a senior with no more rank, unless I got for the cadet officer course.
After the parade, I thought Ji Hao and Adli some of my PDS skills (didn't go rusty since it is still my passion even after I graduated). I left for home soon after. I felt really happy since I was openly welcomed back by the unit even after 1 year of not helping out after graduating. But however I am not really happy with the changes made to the unit, and that the teachers also expects us to update them, but they themselves do not update us in the first place. Oh well, I hope that things will improve, and that I definitely do hope to see some changes the next time I come back to Fairfield NCC.
Wednesday, 21 March 2012
Liking someone
Liking someone is really tough. For me I have many experiences to share. When I like and confess to that girl, firstly the awkwardness when you confess, next is the moment she rejects you. The worse moments are the part after the entire event is over. For me I really dreaded the time when I was in Sec 2. Especially the time after I confessed to her. Shall not mention the name because of respect reasons.
The day after I confessed to her, I tried texting her, and saying that I was sorry. She didn't reply me. At school I tried finding her but she sort of avoided me the moment she saw me. And the worst part was that her friends knew that I liked her. So I had to avoid her instead, because I knew what kind of embarrassment I will cause her if she ever sees me. Up till now, I think I haven't seen her for about 3 years, hopes she's doing fine.
Moving on with my life, now I myself ain't sure who to go for, as confused as before. Anyway I've got a talk tomorrow , have to sleep early. Nights :\
The day after I confessed to her, I tried texting her, and saying that I was sorry. She didn't reply me. At school I tried finding her but she sort of avoided me the moment she saw me. And the worst part was that her friends knew that I liked her. So I had to avoid her instead, because I knew what kind of embarrassment I will cause her if she ever sees me. Up till now, I think I haven't seen her for about 3 years, hopes she's doing fine.
Moving on with my life, now I myself ain't sure who to go for, as confused as before. Anyway I've got a talk tomorrow , have to sleep early. Nights :\
Monday, 19 March 2012
NUS open house
Today was the first day of the NUS open house. I was awakened by my mum telling me to get ready to go out to NUS. Honestly speaking, I felt really irritated because I just don't like getting awaken just to go somewhere the first thing in the morning. Oh well, anyway I ate my breakfast feeling pissed, and also tired because I didn't sleep well. I slept at around 3+, then I woke up at 4:10 because I had a bad stomachache.
So obviously I had to make a trip to the toilet. After that I quickly washed up and went to sleep. Anyway we reached the entrance of the NUS campus at around 11+. I was amazed the first thing I stepped into the campus.
I was seriously shocked at the number of girls that visited and also studying at NUS itself. Some of them were very beautiful, like really beautiful. Others had good figures, while some of them had both :D That somehow lightened my mood a little. We went into the exhibition hall where information for each course was available, and headed towards the Engineering sector. My parents wanted to find out more about the enrollment in the Bioengineering course. For me, I went to the Electrical and Computer Engineering course booth. I went to ask a lecturer some questions regarding the course requirements, curriculum timing and the styles of the lectures. I saw my friend there, surprisingly he was there with his brother too. His brother had just graduated from the Army, so it's a good time for him to look for a good course in Uni.
Was totally amazed at the girls there, wanted to ask for some of their contact numbers, but in the end I decided against it. Really couldn't forget my time there, and I didn't regret going there too.
So obviously I had to make a trip to the toilet. After that I quickly washed up and went to sleep. Anyway we reached the entrance of the NUS campus at around 11+. I was amazed the first thing I stepped into the campus.
I was seriously shocked at the number of girls that visited and also studying at NUS itself. Some of them were very beautiful, like really beautiful. Others had good figures, while some of them had both :D That somehow lightened my mood a little. We went into the exhibition hall where information for each course was available, and headed towards the Engineering sector. My parents wanted to find out more about the enrollment in the Bioengineering course. For me, I went to the Electrical and Computer Engineering course booth. I went to ask a lecturer some questions regarding the course requirements, curriculum timing and the styles of the lectures. I saw my friend there, surprisingly he was there with his brother too. His brother had just graduated from the Army, so it's a good time for him to look for a good course in Uni.
Was totally amazed at the girls there, wanted to ask for some of their contact numbers, but in the end I decided against it. Really couldn't forget my time there, and I didn't regret going there too.
Friday, 2 March 2012
Meet up
Today I met up with John and Kai, just to buy some ingredients for a BBQ session later that day. Me and John waited for Kai just outside Dempsey Road. While waiting, I saw a car suddenly went out of control, then the tire flew out from the back wheel, and the car was in a diagonal position in the middle of the road.
Anyway after meeting Kai, the three of us headed to Huber's Butchery and purchased some beef, pork and sausages. Kai paid for them since he was the main organizer. After we bought the meat, we wanted to take a cab back to his house. Kai then called for a taxi by calling the hotline for taxi booking, and all of us anticipated for the taxi's arrival. However we waited for more than 20 minutes, the taxi failed arrive. So we decided to walk to the main road and tried flagging for another cab. As expected, within seconds we managed to get a cab, and we headed to his house.
Around 4+, DH and Chris arrived at his house, and they both headed to the Gym. KL and JP arrived together soon after. I was pretty shocked when I first saw JP after more than a year. She has changed into a beautiful woman, I think she has became more womanly and graceful, therefore she caught my attention within seconds of seeing her. SM came just before KL and JP arrived. She's in JJC now, and she seems more healthier than before (she's always seems to have a cold or a bad flu whenever I saw her last time). Me and John went to start up the fire, JM, Tim, ZC and DC came together around 7. ZC and JM looked more beautiful now, maybe going to different schools changed them physically? That I'm not sure myself either. Anyway Che and NT came the latest, and that time the food was almost done so all of us started eating. Che looked more prettier than last time, especially when she lets her hair down. We ate the food, and chatted and laughed. Kai brought out the Liquor, KL and DC started drinking, soon after Chris, DH, ZC and RC joined in.
Some of us went up to his bedroom, and started chatting with the lights off-ed. I chatted with Chris and DH, and later with Tim, JP and DC. I walked out with DH around 1130, we chatted about our problems happening in our lives now, while waiting for the bus. DH missed his bus so I was able to chat with him abit more, before I boarded my bus and heading home.
Actually I wished I was more close with them, because I just seem to have this awkward feeling around some of them. Oh well, at least I managed to talk to JP abit more than last time, when I was like completely awkward around her. Same for DC, I did talk to her abit more compared to last time.
In all, today I was rather happy with the gathering, and I hope to meet them up more often in the future for such gatherings.
Anyway after meeting Kai, the three of us headed to Huber's Butchery and purchased some beef, pork and sausages. Kai paid for them since he was the main organizer. After we bought the meat, we wanted to take a cab back to his house. Kai then called for a taxi by calling the hotline for taxi booking, and all of us anticipated for the taxi's arrival. However we waited for more than 20 minutes, the taxi failed arrive. So we decided to walk to the main road and tried flagging for another cab. As expected, within seconds we managed to get a cab, and we headed to his house.
Around 4+, DH and Chris arrived at his house, and they both headed to the Gym. KL and JP arrived together soon after. I was pretty shocked when I first saw JP after more than a year. She has changed into a beautiful woman, I think she has became more womanly and graceful, therefore she caught my attention within seconds of seeing her. SM came just before KL and JP arrived. She's in JJC now, and she seems more healthier than before (she's always seems to have a cold or a bad flu whenever I saw her last time). Me and John went to start up the fire, JM, Tim, ZC and DC came together around 7. ZC and JM looked more beautiful now, maybe going to different schools changed them physically? That I'm not sure myself either. Anyway Che and NT came the latest, and that time the food was almost done so all of us started eating. Che looked more prettier than last time, especially when she lets her hair down. We ate the food, and chatted and laughed. Kai brought out the Liquor, KL and DC started drinking, soon after Chris, DH, ZC and RC joined in.
Some of us went up to his bedroom, and started chatting with the lights off-ed. I chatted with Chris and DH, and later with Tim, JP and DC. I walked out with DH around 1130, we chatted about our problems happening in our lives now, while waiting for the bus. DH missed his bus so I was able to chat with him abit more, before I boarded my bus and heading home.
Actually I wished I was more close with them, because I just seem to have this awkward feeling around some of them. Oh well, at least I managed to talk to JP abit more than last time, when I was like completely awkward around her. Same for DC, I did talk to her abit more compared to last time.
In all, today I was rather happy with the gathering, and I hope to meet them up more often in the future for such gatherings.
Wednesday, 29 February 2012
Sucky day
Just when I thought life couldn't get any worse, my friend yesterday trolled me to the max, literally to the max. It all started in the morning when I was still sleeping. He texted me to ask me whether I was free to go out to play LAN with him at Clementi mall. I wasn't pissed when I woke up to the text message, in fact I was a little happy since I haven't met up with him for almost half a year. After I washed up and had breakfast, I called him to tell him to meet me at Long John Silvers.
I reached there about 2pm, went to have a small lunch. Then my friend called me to tell me to go to Plaza Singapura instead since his friend wanted to play LAN there. But since I didn't want to travel there (waste money), so I just told him that I was going back home and that I will play from home. Feeling down, I went to take a bus home. I boarded bus 196, when it stopped at New Town Secondary School, a group of female students boarded, I thought 2 of them looked beautiful to me. However, looks are definitely deceving, they started talking and laughing loudly, causing some of the commuters to look at them. When I had to alight, I pressed the bell once, but those girls started laughing loudly and even wanted to piss the bus driver off. So they started pressing the bell repeatedly, for about 7-8 times. I could tell the bus driver was pissed, since he started accelerating and decelerating the bus, causing them to lose their balance.
Those girls alighted the same stop as I did, and they started laughing about the bus driver's pissed look, shame on them seriously. When I reached back home, I went to shower, and just laid on my bed. Then my friend called again, saying that his friend had given him loads of problems so he decided not to play with him and wanted to meet me back at Clementi. However I was already at home so he asked me if I could go out again. Seriously? Who does he take me for? A fool? A retard? Someone which he thinks he can troll?
Anyway I felt sad the entire day, so I just went to rewatch coffee house again, just to cheer myself up. Mum came back home with Nasi Lemak for dinner, then she made a cup of coffee for me, really appreciated it. Went to watch episode 8 of Dream High 2, then went to rewatch We Got Married Leeteuk And Kang Sora episode 10 and 13. Chatted with my friend for awhile before going to sleep. Oh well it pretty sucked for me on that day, really hope things can improve soon.
Shall stop here for now, my mind is completely dry.
I reached there about 2pm, went to have a small lunch. Then my friend called me to tell me to go to Plaza Singapura instead since his friend wanted to play LAN there. But since I didn't want to travel there (waste money), so I just told him that I was going back home and that I will play from home. Feeling down, I went to take a bus home. I boarded bus 196, when it stopped at New Town Secondary School, a group of female students boarded, I thought 2 of them looked beautiful to me. However, looks are definitely deceving, they started talking and laughing loudly, causing some of the commuters to look at them. When I had to alight, I pressed the bell once, but those girls started laughing loudly and even wanted to piss the bus driver off. So they started pressing the bell repeatedly, for about 7-8 times. I could tell the bus driver was pissed, since he started accelerating and decelerating the bus, causing them to lose their balance.
Those girls alighted the same stop as I did, and they started laughing about the bus driver's pissed look, shame on them seriously. When I reached back home, I went to shower, and just laid on my bed. Then my friend called again, saying that his friend had given him loads of problems so he decided not to play with him and wanted to meet me back at Clementi. However I was already at home so he asked me if I could go out again. Seriously? Who does he take me for? A fool? A retard? Someone which he thinks he can troll?
Anyway I felt sad the entire day, so I just went to rewatch coffee house again, just to cheer myself up. Mum came back home with Nasi Lemak for dinner, then she made a cup of coffee for me, really appreciated it. Went to watch episode 8 of Dream High 2, then went to rewatch We Got Married Leeteuk And Kang Sora episode 10 and 13. Chatted with my friend for awhile before going to sleep. Oh well it pretty sucked for me on that day, really hope things can improve soon.
Shall stop here for now, my mind is completely dry.
Monday, 27 February 2012
Seriously
I have been super frustrated the moment I came home from the airport. I was kind of grouchy and pissed at the same time, and it's one of the worst combos to have when you are playing DOTA. So basically I cursed and cursed repeatedly, to the point I just felt like quitting DOTA for good.
For the past 2 days I lost every single match that I played. In addition, it was the just after the exam period, so my gaming standard expectations was very high, but I just failed to meet those standards.
My feelings and mood wasn't really that good these few days. People around me don't actually know how I even feel right now. Sometimes I feel extremely angry and frustrated, and I have to vent it on something. I can't possibly vent in on my family or friends. Therefore, the only thing I can vent my frustration on is by gaming. But because of my standards rising from time to time, if I don't meet those standards, my frustration builds up more and more instead of releasing it. Sometimes I feel that I suck in everything because I just don't meet those basic expectations of mine. I shared this matter with my mum, asking her for her opinion whether what I'm doing is it good for me? Or is it just leading me to a path of destruction?
There's another matter that has been bothering and frustrating me since a very long time ago. Women, are like Queen in chess, in which protects the King, and that women can help clear a man's messed up life. My life, is really in a bloody mess right now, to the point I can just literally go crazy. I really want a girl, a girl that can understand how I feel, listen to my feelings and emotions. People around me are finding their other halves already, just like me. I'm really jealous sometimes, and I always ask myself this question from time to time, Why is it just not me? Why?
The word why appears very often in my head, as if it's bugging me to answer that question in my head. However, the answer will not be found that easily. So I guess I'm back to the same point in my messed up life, unable to advance, and most likely fall back down into that pit of destruction.
For the past 2 days I lost every single match that I played. In addition, it was the just after the exam period, so my gaming standard expectations was very high, but I just failed to meet those standards.
My feelings and mood wasn't really that good these few days. People around me don't actually know how I even feel right now. Sometimes I feel extremely angry and frustrated, and I have to vent it on something. I can't possibly vent in on my family or friends. Therefore, the only thing I can vent my frustration on is by gaming. But because of my standards rising from time to time, if I don't meet those standards, my frustration builds up more and more instead of releasing it. Sometimes I feel that I suck in everything because I just don't meet those basic expectations of mine. I shared this matter with my mum, asking her for her opinion whether what I'm doing is it good for me? Or is it just leading me to a path of destruction?
There's another matter that has been bothering and frustrating me since a very long time ago. Women, are like Queen in chess, in which protects the King, and that women can help clear a man's messed up life. My life, is really in a bloody mess right now, to the point I can just literally go crazy. I really want a girl, a girl that can understand how I feel, listen to my feelings and emotions. People around me are finding their other halves already, just like me. I'm really jealous sometimes, and I always ask myself this question from time to time, Why is it just not me? Why?
The word why appears very often in my head, as if it's bugging me to answer that question in my head. However, the answer will not be found that easily. So I guess I'm back to the same point in my messed up life, unable to advance, and most likely fall back down into that pit of destruction.
Sunday, 26 February 2012
Exams over
My last paper ended minutes ago. How relieved I felt, when I handed up my paper and walked out of the exam hall. But of course, the feeling of uncertainty stil lurks somewhere inside my head. O well, I guess it's all over, and it's time to enjoy myself now :) right now I'm heading to the airport to join my friend. He's going to HK soon, so since my last paper was today, I decided to see him off at the airport, then head home.
Maybe I can join my friends on a game of DOTA today? I guess so. Anyway I'm in the train right now, so I shall stop blogging now since it's a little inconvenient to do so right now in the midst of many people.
:)
Maybe I can join my friends on a game of DOTA today? I guess so. Anyway I'm in the train right now, so I shall stop blogging now since it's a little inconvenient to do so right now in the midst of many people.
:)
Last second of the final hour
With only a few hours left to the final exam paper, I just couldn't relax enough, I did the test papers with much uncertainty and with very little confidence. I just have to hope for the best, and make sure I don't have any information leakage from my brain tomorrow (lol)
Today I woke up, watched happy together 3 on my phone, tried doing tutorial again, but I got distracted by my friend who was chatting with me on skype. Ate lunch while watching We Got Married, I really missed watching the old couples like Seohyun <3 YongHwa and Victoria <3 Nichkhun. Sadly, the couples whom I follow their episodes, are coming to an end now. Super Junior's Leeteuk and Actress Kang Sora, and T-ara's Eunjung and actor Lee JangWoo, are all ending soon. To be honest, I actually wished that they really got married in real life. Oh well, back to reality. They did many memorable things together, and also shared the kisses in which was very time stopping when you watch them.
Anyway, with only 8 hours to my exam, I guess I will just sleep throughout the night, and head to school about 7am to do some brain refreshment formula readings.
Alright, shall stop here to get some sleep. Will blog again tomorrow :) Nights! :)
Today I woke up, watched happy together 3 on my phone, tried doing tutorial again, but I got distracted by my friend who was chatting with me on skype. Ate lunch while watching We Got Married, I really missed watching the old couples like Seohyun <3 YongHwa and Victoria <3 Nichkhun. Sadly, the couples whom I follow their episodes, are coming to an end now. Super Junior's Leeteuk and Actress Kang Sora, and T-ara's Eunjung and actor Lee JangWoo, are all ending soon. To be honest, I actually wished that they really got married in real life. Oh well, back to reality. They did many memorable things together, and also shared the kisses in which was very time stopping when you watch them.
Anyway, with only 8 hours to my exam, I guess I will just sleep throughout the night, and head to school about 7am to do some brain refreshment formula readings.
Alright, shall stop here to get some sleep. Will blog again tomorrow :) Nights! :)
Friday, 24 February 2012
Morning
It's now after lunch time, just ate my chicken rice, now slacking on my bed. I didn't really sleep that well, slept at 2+ yesterday because I went to watch Happy Together 3. Got rudely awaken because of my brother playing Trouble Maker on his phone. The whistling sound woke me up, and I shut the door because I couldn't stand the sound and I was feeling mad. Ate my late breakfast, then I went to download 7 more episodes of coffee house. I insisted that that drama had to be in my com because I somehow felt that it will be taken down sooner or later.
Went to game a while for about 1 hour+ then I tried to re-download another childhood show that I remembered (but failed of course, the torrent refused to budge). So now I'm back slacking on my bed, because I'm feeling extremely lazy to do the test papers online. Shall blog later, I'm going to get some more rest.
Went to game a while for about 1 hour+ then I tried to re-download another childhood show that I remembered (but failed of course, the torrent refused to budge). So now I'm back slacking on my bed, because I'm feeling extremely lazy to do the test papers online. Shall blog later, I'm going to get some more rest.
Bad exam paper
It's been a day since my Engineering Maths paper. Speaking of my Engineering Maths paper, I was like uncertain for about 60% of the whole paper. When the paper ended, I was frustrated, just then my classmates wanted me to go to Redhill with them. However I was like pissed and frustrated, and I couldn't just vent my frustration on them, it wouldn't be nice and it will make me look like a retard.
So I just gave a excuse and said that I was low on cash. I headed to food court 4 and had a plate of grilled fish rice and a cup of Milo. I headed home and went to game (oh well). Later at night I went to re-watch the first 3 episodes of Coffee House. That really cheered me up alot since I got to see Eunjung's simple personality again. I think she really did a very good job playing that role in that drama. I really hope she can play roles like that in the dramas that she is featured in more often in the future.
Got really bored of DOTA, kept losing match after match, I think I lost 20+ matches in 5 days, really disappointing. Anyway I decided to dedicate time in finding good dramas and variety shows to watch. Currently Running Man and some other childhood shows are what I enjoy watching. Shall not reveal what the childhood shows are, but it's a Japanese show.
I gamed till about 2, then I was lying on my bed thinking about what my year 2 will be like, and what will my final year GPA score be. Since my Engineering Maths papers wasn't good, my GPA is sure to be below 3.5 :/ oh well, I guess I have to work harder in year 2 if I want to secure a place in uni.
Shall stop here, I'm going to watch Coffee House now :)
So I just gave a excuse and said that I was low on cash. I headed to food court 4 and had a plate of grilled fish rice and a cup of Milo. I headed home and went to game (oh well). Later at night I went to re-watch the first 3 episodes of Coffee House. That really cheered me up alot since I got to see Eunjung's simple personality again. I think she really did a very good job playing that role in that drama. I really hope she can play roles like that in the dramas that she is featured in more often in the future.
Got really bored of DOTA, kept losing match after match, I think I lost 20+ matches in 5 days, really disappointing. Anyway I decided to dedicate time in finding good dramas and variety shows to watch. Currently Running Man and some other childhood shows are what I enjoy watching. Shall not reveal what the childhood shows are, but it's a Japanese show.
I gamed till about 2, then I was lying on my bed thinking about what my year 2 will be like, and what will my final year GPA score be. Since my Engineering Maths papers wasn't good, my GPA is sure to be below 3.5 :/ oh well, I guess I have to work harder in year 2 if I want to secure a place in uni.
Shall stop here, I'm going to watch Coffee House now :)
Monday, 20 February 2012
Few Hours
With only a few hours left to my first paper, I finished all of the revision papers today. But I still don't feel confident enough, maybe it's just my forgetful memory of the info? I really don't know.
Anyway today I went to school early to do some practice papers. I reached school around 11, then I headed to FC4 to sit down and study. As I was looking for a seat, I saw Ryan revising his work near the entrance of the upper floor. I went to join him in revising our work. I went to bought a drink and did 1 practice paper. Wasn't really that tough :) About an hour later, the cleaners told us that the upper floor had to be cleared for cleaning, so we all moved down to the mid level of the food court. Around 2+, another friend of mine finished her exam so she came and join me for lunch. Originally I didn't want to have lunch, but after I saw the food that she bought, I thought :" Why not just grab some food? Since you have been craving for grilled fish all day long".
So I went to buy a plate of grilled fish rice with black pepper sauce. I gobbled down my food quickly and played about 3 songs in TapTap. My performance has really deteriorated by almost 300k points, so maybe I can work on that after my exams(?).
After lunch we went to the swing at Moberly to relax for a while. We played on the swing for a short while (honestly I didn't really dare to sit on that swing because the ropes look really worn out, as if it was going to snap any moment, it really reminded me of the swing incident back at my old house. I was swinging at a very high height and with a large force, then one of the chains snapped while I was on the swing in mid air. I sort of 'flew' quite a bit before crashing on the ground).
We played at the swing for about 20 minutes. I needed to head home soon so I gave all my friends a goodbye hug, then I headed for home was dead tired when I reached. I actually wanted to climb up 29 floors but I was too lazy to do so. Watched episode 6 of Dream High 2 after I took a shower. I felt so sorry for Kang Sora, all she wanted was her apology to be accepted by everyone, instead everyone just stuffed all the apples she gave out to them as a form of apology, back into her locker. When she opened it, all the apples rolled out like a waterfall, really pitiful scene.
Did the revision questions again after dinner, then went to watch episode 46 of Running Man starring SS501's Kim Hyun Joong. I actually wanted to re-watch Coffee House cause I really wanted to see Eunjung's charm again :D but it was almost midnight when I finished watching Running Man.
It's 12:48am, I have to sleep now because I have an exam paper to conquer tomorrow morning :) goodnight! :)
Anyway today I went to school early to do some practice papers. I reached school around 11, then I headed to FC4 to sit down and study. As I was looking for a seat, I saw Ryan revising his work near the entrance of the upper floor. I went to join him in revising our work. I went to bought a drink and did 1 practice paper. Wasn't really that tough :) About an hour later, the cleaners told us that the upper floor had to be cleared for cleaning, so we all moved down to the mid level of the food court. Around 2+, another friend of mine finished her exam so she came and join me for lunch. Originally I didn't want to have lunch, but after I saw the food that she bought, I thought :" Why not just grab some food? Since you have been craving for grilled fish all day long".
So I went to buy a plate of grilled fish rice with black pepper sauce. I gobbled down my food quickly and played about 3 songs in TapTap. My performance has really deteriorated by almost 300k points, so maybe I can work on that after my exams(?).
After lunch we went to the swing at Moberly to relax for a while. We played on the swing for a short while (honestly I didn't really dare to sit on that swing because the ropes look really worn out, as if it was going to snap any moment, it really reminded me of the swing incident back at my old house. I was swinging at a very high height and with a large force, then one of the chains snapped while I was on the swing in mid air. I sort of 'flew' quite a bit before crashing on the ground).
We played at the swing for about 20 minutes. I needed to head home soon so I gave all my friends a goodbye hug, then I headed for home was dead tired when I reached. I actually wanted to climb up 29 floors but I was too lazy to do so. Watched episode 6 of Dream High 2 after I took a shower. I felt so sorry for Kang Sora, all she wanted was her apology to be accepted by everyone, instead everyone just stuffed all the apples she gave out to them as a form of apology, back into her locker. When she opened it, all the apples rolled out like a waterfall, really pitiful scene.
Did the revision questions again after dinner, then went to watch episode 46 of Running Man starring SS501's Kim Hyun Joong. I actually wanted to re-watch Coffee House cause I really wanted to see Eunjung's charm again :D but it was almost midnight when I finished watching Running Man.
It's 12:48am, I have to sleep now because I have an exam paper to conquer tomorrow morning :) goodnight! :)
Sunday, 19 February 2012
1 more day (continued)
It has been a hectic day in school after studying fro about 2 hours with my friend. The paper wasn't really that bad, despite having to refer to my own notes sometimes. The paper that I did yesterday night totally killed me because I did the paper at 1 am to 2am, then I really could take it anymore, so I decided to surf facebook for about half an hour. I switched off my com at 3:00am. I tossed and turned in my bed for about 40 minutes then I sort of managed to fall asleep until about at 5:00am when the winds picked up speed and the rain started pouring.
I woke up again to close the windows in my room and the living room. My body was really tired at that moment, but for some weird reason I wasn't able to fall asleep. Subsequently I managed to fall asleep and woke up at 8:30, then I went to surf facebook for a short while before washing up and eating breakfast. I went to watch some shows on my com for awhile before going to school to meet my friend.
I woke up again to close the windows in my room and the living room. My body was really tired at that moment, but for some weird reason I wasn't able to fall asleep. Subsequently I managed to fall asleep and woke up at 8:30, then I went to surf facebook for a short while before washing up and eating breakfast. I went to watch some shows on my com for awhile before going to school to meet my friend.
Saturday, 18 February 2012
1 more day
1 more day before my exams, I managed to do 1 sample paper. But of course there were things I didn't know how to do. And of course I referred to my notes and I was able to do most of the questions that I couldn't :)
Anyway tomorrow I am meeting my friend in school for a study session. I hope I will take this session seriously as I only have 1 day left to properly study before the start of my exams. Anyway we planned to meet around 12, but my mum will probably tell me to go to school like around 10 to study first. Then after that we planned to go to Clementi mall to eat since there are no food courts opened in SP tomorrow.
I actually felt like watching Coffee House again. Haha I kinda miss seeing the simpleness charm in Eunjung. Maybe after my final year exams, I can go and watch it again and again.
Speaking of dramas, I started watching The Salamander Guru And The Gang. Apparently it features SHINee's Minho and g.o.d's Son Ho Young in the first episode. So I decided to continue watching it. It's a pretty funny drama since there was some comedy inside it. Another drama I started watching is called The Moon That Embraces The Sun. The first episode is pretty not bad, it makes me want to continue watching it.
Right now I'm trying to look for dramas that Eunjung acted in. Like Queen Insoo, and another which I forgotten the name.
It's pretty late (3:12 AM) I have to get some sleep. Goodnight! :)
Anyway tomorrow I am meeting my friend in school for a study session. I hope I will take this session seriously as I only have 1 day left to properly study before the start of my exams. Anyway we planned to meet around 12, but my mum will probably tell me to go to school like around 10 to study first. Then after that we planned to go to Clementi mall to eat since there are no food courts opened in SP tomorrow.
I actually felt like watching Coffee House again. Haha I kinda miss seeing the simpleness charm in Eunjung. Maybe after my final year exams, I can go and watch it again and again.
Speaking of dramas, I started watching The Salamander Guru And The Gang. Apparently it features SHINee's Minho and g.o.d's Son Ho Young in the first episode. So I decided to continue watching it. It's a pretty funny drama since there was some comedy inside it. Another drama I started watching is called The Moon That Embraces The Sun. The first episode is pretty not bad, it makes me want to continue watching it.
Right now I'm trying to look for dramas that Eunjung acted in. Like Queen Insoo, and another which I forgotten the name.
It's pretty late (3:12 AM) I have to get some sleep. Goodnight! :)
Wednesday, 15 February 2012
Capture
6 more days to my final year exams. I have studied, but I really feel that I can do better. Anyway I started watching this drama just yesterday. It's called Coffee House featuring T-ara's Eunjung. Don't ask why I started watching this drama.
Anyway I have watched about 12 out of the total 18 episodes. But I was not really satisfied with the streaming links to the videos as some of them were broken, about 20% of the links available in fact. Eunjung, has a very unique charm that captures my attention. She portrays a simple minded coffee girl in a small coffee restaurant, longing to go out into the world, and become a famous writer.
However her life was changed (for the better and for the worst), when her senior introduced Eunjung to become a writer's secretary. The writer has a extremely weird attitude and personality. He always wants his pencils to be sharpened at a certain length, coffee must be made to his own liking and taste, and also having very weird and unpredictable mood swings. With alot of stress, he always releases his stress by asking Eunjung to dance or to make him laugh by doing silly actions, basically making a fool out of herself just for his own self entertainment.
Despite all of the humiliation, Eunjung still decides to work for the writer. She always tolerates his eccentric personality, and always fulfills his requests diligently. That was what really captured me about her.
Back to reality, if only I was able to find a girl whose rather simple minded, yet honest, diligent and capable at the same time. Someone that would let me hug and protect her, at the same time, giving her happiness.
Happy Forever Alone day :/ (another name for Valentines Day)
Anyway I have watched about 12 out of the total 18 episodes. But I was not really satisfied with the streaming links to the videos as some of them were broken, about 20% of the links available in fact. Eunjung, has a very unique charm that captures my attention. She portrays a simple minded coffee girl in a small coffee restaurant, longing to go out into the world, and become a famous writer.
However her life was changed (for the better and for the worst), when her senior introduced Eunjung to become a writer's secretary. The writer has a extremely weird attitude and personality. He always wants his pencils to be sharpened at a certain length, coffee must be made to his own liking and taste, and also having very weird and unpredictable mood swings. With alot of stress, he always releases his stress by asking Eunjung to dance or to make him laugh by doing silly actions, basically making a fool out of herself just for his own self entertainment.
Despite all of the humiliation, Eunjung still decides to work for the writer. She always tolerates his eccentric personality, and always fulfills his requests diligently. That was what really captured me about her.
Back to reality, if only I was able to find a girl whose rather simple minded, yet honest, diligent and capable at the same time. Someone that would let me hug and protect her, at the same time, giving her happiness.
Happy Forever Alone day :/ (another name for Valentines Day)
Sunday, 5 February 2012
Bothers
Alright I guess I am back to this blog after a long long time (didn't bother counting how many days I have not touched this blog). Anyway my final year exams are around the corner, 2 weeks more to be exact. I do feel a little worried to be honest, because I keep having this feeling of not revising enough for it. In school I am sometimes really sleepy, I try not to sleep though. But my mind just wanders off very easily. I do text in class though, I texted a few other friends, just to keep my boredom away and also to not fall asleep.
I have started eating new foods in school, instead of just eating chicken rice or fast food for almost every week, I started eating hotplate and guess what? It fulfilled my beef cravings almost everyday! Right now I felt that I walked out of a hurricane alive after so many assignment and lab tests completed in such a short time. But I know I am going to walk right straight into something bigger, a hypercane. My final year exams are right around the corner and I feel that I am really not trying my best to study. That really bothers me alot as I still have other assignments to do. I have a photo essay to complete, and another lab test around the corner.
Another thing that really bothers me alot is the 14th of February. Will the forever alone prophecy be broken or will it still continue? I really hope that the prophecy will be broken, only time will tell.....
I have started eating new foods in school, instead of just eating chicken rice or fast food for almost every week, I started eating hotplate and guess what? It fulfilled my beef cravings almost everyday! Right now I felt that I walked out of a hurricane alive after so many assignment and lab tests completed in such a short time. But I know I am going to walk right straight into something bigger, a hypercane. My final year exams are right around the corner and I feel that I am really not trying my best to study. That really bothers me alot as I still have other assignments to do. I have a photo essay to complete, and another lab test around the corner.
Another thing that really bothers me alot is the 14th of February. Will the forever alone prophecy be broken or will it still continue? I really hope that the prophecy will be broken, only time will tell.....
Saturday, 31 December 2011
Idols
I really don't know what to post, shall post on which female idols that I think look beautiful to me.
1. Choi Sooyoung :)
The reason is very obvious, she's my favorite out them, and also my ideal girl. She's very funny, kind and caring, and of course, beautiful to me. A supporting vocalist of the group Girl's Generation, and stands at 171cm tall.
2. Ham Eunjung
I'm not really sure why I put her as second place. There's something very attractive about her. She's sometimes a little too honest when she speaks about certain stuff. Nevertheless, she's cute the way she is. Lead vocalist in the 6 member girl group T-ara, ex-leader of the group.
3. Ueno Juri
When I first saw her as a guest in the show We Got Married, I was kinda surprised, she just looks different from the many Japanese idols that I saw before.
4. Kang Sora
Basically I agree on what Leeteuk hyung describes about her. Baby fat on her cheeks, teary eyes, and of course, beautiful too. Female actress, best known from the Korean movie, Sunny.
I can't seem to find a good picture of her. Oh well.
5. Lee Yeon Hee
I remember seeing her act in the same movie as Sooyoung. She's a very young actress, about the same age as the SNSD members. She is just beautiful, and really cute. When I saw her guest starring in Running Man, she is just cute, and nothing else. Was a potential member of Girl's Generation but dropped out to focus on acting instead of singing. Currently under the same company as Girl's Generation (S.M. Entertainment)
6. Victoria Song
She's captured my attention when I was watching her episodes of We Got Married together with Nichkhun hyung. She is not those whiny type, but instead she has a innocent and playful and she always puts her best foot forward everytime. I enjoy the particular episode when they were both in Thailand. She looks beautiful^1000000 with that headband on. From Qingdao, China, leader of the quintet dance group, f(x)
7. Song Ji Hyo
I remember seeing her before in dramas that aired many years back. But my best memory of her is from the current variety comedy show, Running Man. I think her best features are her eyes, smiles and of course, her beauty. She's just different from all the other running man members. Most of the time, composed and innocent, but sometimes funny especially when she uses informal speech.
1. Choi Sooyoung :)
The reason is very obvious, she's my favorite out them, and also my ideal girl. She's very funny, kind and caring, and of course, beautiful to me. A supporting vocalist of the group Girl's Generation, and stands at 171cm tall.
2. Ham Eunjung
I'm not really sure why I put her as second place. There's something very attractive about her. She's sometimes a little too honest when she speaks about certain stuff. Nevertheless, she's cute the way she is. Lead vocalist in the 6 member girl group T-ara, ex-leader of the group.
3. Ueno Juri
When I first saw her as a guest in the show We Got Married, I was kinda surprised, she just looks different from the many Japanese idols that I saw before.
4. Kang Sora
Basically I agree on what Leeteuk hyung describes about her. Baby fat on her cheeks, teary eyes, and of course, beautiful too. Female actress, best known from the Korean movie, Sunny.
I can't seem to find a good picture of her. Oh well.
5. Lee Yeon Hee
I remember seeing her act in the same movie as Sooyoung. She's a very young actress, about the same age as the SNSD members. She is just beautiful, and really cute. When I saw her guest starring in Running Man, she is just cute, and nothing else. Was a potential member of Girl's Generation but dropped out to focus on acting instead of singing. Currently under the same company as Girl's Generation (S.M. Entertainment)
6. Victoria Song
She's captured my attention when I was watching her episodes of We Got Married together with Nichkhun hyung. She is not those whiny type, but instead she has a innocent and playful and she always puts her best foot forward everytime. I enjoy the particular episode when they were both in Thailand. She looks beautiful^1000000 with that headband on. From Qingdao, China, leader of the quintet dance group, f(x)
7. Song Ji Hyo
I remember seeing her before in dramas that aired many years back. But my best memory of her is from the current variety comedy show, Running Man. I think her best features are her eyes, smiles and of course, her beauty. She's just different from all the other running man members. Most of the time, composed and innocent, but sometimes funny especially when she uses informal speech.
Monday, 19 December 2011
The pathway in a new life 3
I'm back to this blog after a long hiatus, including alot of laziness and forgetting to post sometimes :P I guess it has been about 2+ months since I last posted something. Anyway now it's the holidays, and there's about 2+ weeks before term 4 of my polytechnic school commences. What have I been doing during this holiday? I went out with friends, chatted with people I have not chatted with for more than 3 years already, and I am also looking forward for the BBQ party Chew Bok organized at the first day of the new year.
Anyway, few days back, I went to a fencing competition that Janson was participating in. I met Chew Bok at redhill station and then we had breakfast at Whitesands shopping mall before heading to the competition venue. When we reached there, we couldn't see him because there were too many fencers from the same Junior College as him, and also fencers from other Junior Colleges. Since I don't really know how then fencing scoring works, I just sat there and watched.
There were a few girls that were from the same fencing team and Junior College as Janson. One of them particularly caught my eye. She has really pretty eyes, and a very nice smile. She looks really beautiful to me (sort of like a unique aura emitting from her). After Janson had finish fencing, I went to ask him who she was.
After Janson told me who she was, I was quite disappointed because I found out that she's actually a retainee, in other words, she's a 93 while I'm a 94. I tried to look out for her most of the time when I was sitting. At one point of time, she came with a guy, that guy was rather muscular (compared to me I was like an anchovy D:)
Since they looked so close so I guessed that they were boyfriend and girlfriend. When Janson, Chew Bok and I were eating break at Pastamania, I went to ask Janson if that guy was her boyfriend, however Janson said that he wasn't. Inside I was a bit happy since I know that she's not taken, BUT even if I do want to meet her, it wouldn't sound right for a 94 dating a 93 (at least to me)
So yeah I went home feeling sleepy and I was thinking of her partially. My brother came home from the army camp, then we both played DOTA together since we haven't played together for a long time. He used Luna Moonfang for both matches while I used Nevermore and Magina respectively.
Today I found this very touching and nice song by Lee Seung Gi. I listened for the first 25 seconds and I really loved that song alot. It's a very nice love song that basically describes my situation right now, clueless and confused.
So yeah, I've got more stuff to share but it's 2.20am and I have to get some rest. I shall stop here now :) Nights! :)
Anyway, few days back, I went to a fencing competition that Janson was participating in. I met Chew Bok at redhill station and then we had breakfast at Whitesands shopping mall before heading to the competition venue. When we reached there, we couldn't see him because there were too many fencers from the same Junior College as him, and also fencers from other Junior Colleges. Since I don't really know how then fencing scoring works, I just sat there and watched.
There were a few girls that were from the same fencing team and Junior College as Janson. One of them particularly caught my eye. She has really pretty eyes, and a very nice smile. She looks really beautiful to me (sort of like a unique aura emitting from her). After Janson had finish fencing, I went to ask him who she was.
After Janson told me who she was, I was quite disappointed because I found out that she's actually a retainee, in other words, she's a 93 while I'm a 94. I tried to look out for her most of the time when I was sitting. At one point of time, she came with a guy, that guy was rather muscular (compared to me I was like an anchovy D:)
Since they looked so close so I guessed that they were boyfriend and girlfriend. When Janson, Chew Bok and I were eating break at Pastamania, I went to ask Janson if that guy was her boyfriend, however Janson said that he wasn't. Inside I was a bit happy since I know that she's not taken, BUT even if I do want to meet her, it wouldn't sound right for a 94 dating a 93 (at least to me)
So yeah I went home feeling sleepy and I was thinking of her partially. My brother came home from the army camp, then we both played DOTA together since we haven't played together for a long time. He used Luna Moonfang for both matches while I used Nevermore and Magina respectively.
Today I found this very touching and nice song by Lee Seung Gi. I listened for the first 25 seconds and I really loved that song alot. It's a very nice love song that basically describes my situation right now, clueless and confused.
So yeah, I've got more stuff to share but it's 2.20am and I have to get some rest. I shall stop here now :) Nights! :)
Saturday, 12 November 2011
The pathway in a new life 2
Haven't posted since I don't know when, totally had no mood to post anything. My laptop yesterday started to malfunction slowly, the hard-disk kept telling me there's a warning that it is failing. Basically it's just something bad, luckily I managed to back up all my info including my school documents, music, pictures and 1 or 2 games. I started using back my desktop since it's the only available computer in the house now.
Today I used the com and played some games, totally had no mood to study or do any schoolwork. After lunch I tried doing my DE lab assignment, I couldn't test it out since my laptop is malfunctioning, so I just listened to music while playing Minecraft. About 4+, Janson called me and asked me whether I wanted to go out and have dinner at Chew Bok's Aunt's food stall. I quickly agreed and met them at Suntec City, we then took a bus to the location. We then ate dinner, a plate of beef fried rice with chicken wings. After that we chatted and laughed while playing cards. We went home after that.
These few weeks in school was pretty shitty for me. I have been feeling crappy and lovesick, and annoyed. Annoyed by someone and also by the work and presentations. But the worse was the lovesick feeling.
It all started last Thursday, it was the PEEE practical session. I was just connecting some simple circuits, just then, I had a flashback on that girl that I like previously. She just suddenly appeared in my mind. I sort of miss her, especially when she played a big role in helping me get through secondary 4. I still think of her nowadays, but I think about how happy she is without me inside her memory. I shall just watch her from afar as she goes into happiness.....
Today I used the com and played some games, totally had no mood to study or do any schoolwork. After lunch I tried doing my DE lab assignment, I couldn't test it out since my laptop is malfunctioning, so I just listened to music while playing Minecraft. About 4+, Janson called me and asked me whether I wanted to go out and have dinner at Chew Bok's Aunt's food stall. I quickly agreed and met them at Suntec City, we then took a bus to the location. We then ate dinner, a plate of beef fried rice with chicken wings. After that we chatted and laughed while playing cards. We went home after that.
These few weeks in school was pretty shitty for me. I have been feeling crappy and lovesick, and annoyed. Annoyed by someone and also by the work and presentations. But the worse was the lovesick feeling.
It all started last Thursday, it was the PEEE practical session. I was just connecting some simple circuits, just then, I had a flashback on that girl that I like previously. She just suddenly appeared in my mind. I sort of miss her, especially when she played a big role in helping me get through secondary 4. I still think of her nowadays, but I think about how happy she is without me inside her memory. I shall just watch her from afar as she goes into happiness.....
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