Pissed off (again)

Today when I went to Piao Min's house with Chew Bok, Bong and Venessa, we went to take pictures with Piao Min's laptop. After that we went to play pool at Clementi Reacreation centre. After playing pool and taking loads of pictures, all of us agreed to go to Chew Bok's house to enjoy some more fun. But I needed my laptop so I decided to go home to take my laptop out to Chew Bok's house. I called my mum to tell her that I was coming home to grab my laptop.

But my mum wasn't really happy because she thinks that I am wasting money by going out and travelling alot. I have went out a total of 5 times including today. So I just told my mum that I was going out to Chew Bok's house to only play, its not like I'm going to spend more than a hundred bucks (I have never spent that much before). I really wanted to tell my mum back this "Since you say that, Fine, I will stay at home and not spend a single cent, and I wont also find a job since travelling also wastes money according to you"

So I was pissed with my mum when I left the house. I decided not to eat my dinner since I was too angry to eat. I went to play Dota with Chew Bok, it wasn't the first time I played with a friend so it wasn't so difficult to play. But I got ganged a few times by the AI Nevermore (Shadow Fiend) and Witch Doctor. The bright side was that I managed to kill them a few times using the mighty Crixalis (Sand King). We won in the end because of the good teamwork with Chew Bok. He was using Magnix (Pandaren Brewmaster), and all I need was the slowing down in speed and my burrowstrike (stun) and my Epicentre (Ulti) to kill enemy heros easily. If all else fails, Chew Bok uses the Primal Split (Pandaren Brewmaster's Ulti) to summon 3 freaking mighty Pandas to slice the s*** out of the enemy.

Anyway, now I'm pretty bored so I am going to play Dota now.

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*Signing Off*

SNSD, one my sources of strength.

Alright this post is really gonna sound very, very weird. So yeah, just saying first. I have been thinking about my pathetic love life for the past few hours. I had no mood to play com, and let alone DOTA. So I went to watch some SNSD variety shows on my com.

To all SNSD antis, no offense or any hard feelings, if you are an anti, then please stop reading this post. For the past few months, whenever I'm upset, angry or frustrated, I will watch SNSD videos because they never fail to make me smile. Even after I get so mad at someone or something, just watching their shows just lightens my mood by alot. 

I can proudly say that they are one of my favorite k-groups. Well some antis say that they are plastic, no talents, act pretty, but in the end, its all about personal preference. To me, if I don't like something, most of the time, I will keep the negative comments to myself. Lest I let it out and it upsets or angers other people. 

Sometimes I don't understand why some people just don't understand what is called personal preference. Oh well, I hope they will understand it someday. 

Back to SNSD, I have started liking each member more and more. Especially Seohyun, whenever I watch We Got Married, I love the way her eyes sparkle whenever she is deep in thought or concentrating on doing something. I also love how she respects other people especially YongHwa. 

If they was another girl just like Seohyun, I will be sure to chase after her all the way. Her character just attracts me alot. 

I also don't really know what else to post already, because this has been on my mind for an entire day so posted whatever I could post here. 

Shall stop here for the night and get some rest.

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*Signing Off*

IT fair! + Spamming pictures

Today I woke up at 8+ and I switched on my com since I had nothing to do. I went to play DOTA and surprisingly, my game results wasn't so bad after all. 16 kills and ZERO deaths :D

Anyway mum went to cook garlic sausage, eggs and bread for my breakfast today (yum yum :D) I gobbled it down, and went out to meet sister Venessa and Chew Bok at Redhill station. We went to City Hall, and of course, I went to eat my lunch. An Über fat chicken chop :D It was totally worth it. After that we walked to Suntec City to visit the IT fair. 

To cut the long story short, Chew Bok bought me a new mouse, and I bought a laptop cooling pad. Sister Venessa bought a new purple colour headphones for herself, and Chew Bok bought a iPhone 4 cover, and the rest of the items I forgot. After that we went to Chew Bok's house, and Chew Bok decided to spam pictures again :D 

I think we spammed about 80+ photos :) we left his house at about 4.40, since Sister Venessa had to go back to school for her CCA. So Chew Bok came to my house for awhile, and I showed him my morning DOTA game replay :D

Okay it's 1.31am in the morning, and I'm still trying to find out how to fit the mouse cover back ever since I took it out to place the batteries inside. Oh well, I gotta rest now because my eyes are ready to close any moment.

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*Signing Off*

Thursday! :)

I have decided to make it a point to post everyday, if not 2 days for 1 post (in case I'm lazy) anyway today I woke up to find out that my mum went out to book badminton courts for my dad and his colleagues, and i went to play some games for a short while, until I left for Sister Venessa's house :) 

At the bus stop near my house, I sighed because I saw the 196 bus drove past, and it was the red man sign. However, a few seconds later, I saw another 196 bus behind, so I quickly ran all the way and fortunately I was able to catch the bus. 

To cut the über long story short, I had to change 3 buses in order to reach Sister Venessa's house. When I reached her house, I went to have some cup noodles that I brought from home. I went to play DOTA after eating, because the Tom Yam flavor was giving me an adrenaline rush (LOL). 

After that we went to practice dancing SHINee's lucifer, at the same time, I was jumping up and down (LOL again) I guess I felt high after eating the Tom Yam. Anyway Chew Bok came later, and of course we practiced dancing a bit more before we started watching movies on HBO. 

After that we decided to eat Macs since my stomach was ready to go berserk since there was no food inside(?) We went to order our own meals, and of course the most difficult part of the ordering was the waiting of the delicious food to come. The food eventually came (of course), and I gobbled down the food real fast. I think I took about 2-3 minutes to eat my burger (much much faster than expected)

I ate my fries but I couldn't eat finish so I gave them to Ryan, who ate the remaining fries at godspeed. I went back home since Venessa was having piano lessons.

After I reached home, I went to slack, then I went to switch on my com to play. At first playing DOTA wasn't really that bad, till I got real bored of it. So I switched to Maple, which I got bored of it after 3 minutes. So in the I went to play blackshot, and I sweared real loud in front of my com, until my dad came to scold me real loud (D:).

BUT swearing does work for me, when I had a good kill/death count at the last few games. Went to watch We Got Married, and felt sleepy so I switched off my com. 

Tomorrow will be a good day for me too :) So I shall stop posting now and get some sleep :)

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*Signing Off*

President Elections + Exams D:

Okay so everyone is now talking about the recent Presidential elections, and how Tony Tan won Tan Cheng Bock by just a slight margin. Honestly, I didn't really care about whether who won, until my mum told me what each candidate wanted to do for Singapore. After that I decided to support Dr. Tan Cheng Bok, as he plans to be the voice of SINGAPOREANS instead of the PAP. Anyway today was the first day of my exam (luckily I only got 2 papers, when I first saw the paper, it didn't really looked as bad as I expected it to be.

In fact, I was able to do most of the questions, until my cold came in and disrupted everything. I remember sneezing countless times. The good thing was thing was that I was able to putt through the exam. After the paper, I went with Teng Kiat, Leon, Jonathan and Jmeen noona to FC4 to eat because I was hungry. As usual I ate my favourite food, sliced fish bee hoon with tom yam soup :), and not forgotting a cup of iced milo :D

After the meal, I went home to relax because I revised for PEEE (Principals Of Electrical and Electronic Engineering) the 2 weeks before the DE paper, but of course I can't slack just because I studied 2 weeks ago. Anyway I took a small nap after dinner, and I directly went to play Maple, but after playing 5 minutes, I got bored of it. So I went to watch We Got Married, I gotta admit, Seohyun's eyes sparkled whenever she is deep in thought, or when concentrating in doing something. I gotta envy YongHwa hyung as he gets to be in this kind of program.

The next day I woke up due someone in the house talking loudly, I can't remember who was it, but I just woke up. Then I went to watch We Got Married (again), but this time it was a different couple. It was 2PM's Nichkhun and f(x)'s Victoria. My first opinion was that , they looked real good together, although Victoria noona is one year older than Nichkhun, but they still got along well together.

Then my dad came to my room and he sort of was a little pissed (could tell with the heavy, displeased breathing). So I got up from my bed and started revising (although I wanted to continue watching We Got Married on my phone, oh well) Anyway, I started watching a new series of We Got Married today. Its the GaIn and JoKwon couple, and the first episode was so interesting until I kept watching it and obviously forgetting to study.

I HAVE to study now, if not tomorrow will be hell for me.

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*Signing Off*

Saturday

Today I was one hour late in meeting Ryan in school to study, because the weather was totally perfect for sleeping, especially in the morning when the conditions are perfect for sleeping. I was supposed to meet Ryan at nine, but it was nearly 10 when I reached school and met him. At first the studying went well, but later into the session, I felt there was a blizzard going around me. The giant fan above my head plus the cool weather, which of course resulted in a cold D:

It was about one when my stomach decided to remind me to eat, however theres was no food court open in the school since it was a weekend. So I walked to the MRT station where there was a 7-11 outlet. I bought chips and my favourite Slupee, since I haven't drank it for ages, it felt like I was drinking pure spring water obtained from the mountains. Ryan later went to buy cup noodles for me since I was still hungry. I compiled all my notes today and then I tried out the sample papers, and wow I could do most of the questions :D I was kinda proud of myself for once. Anyway there were some questions here and there which I could not do, tomorrow I must do those questions which I do not know how to do, and clarify all doubts by tomorrow, so monday I can just simply go to school and refresh my memory :)

Anyway Ryan decided to spam Venessa on skype, and after 15 mins of spamming, Venessa told us she just completed her vocal lessons over skype, and her teacher was from Las Vegas, the name is Greg Enriquez or something. Anyway I was kinda amazed her teacher was actually from Las Vegas. The word globalisation came to my head the moment she told me her teacher was from the US. After lunch I studied for another half an hour, then Ryan decided to play CnC. So, I joined him of course :P We played King Of The Hill and basically I just kept nuking the enemy because they kept irritating me again and again. After playing we went to sit down at the empty space between T18 and T17. Like yesterday, we chatted about many funny stuffs and also played with our phones.

1 hour later, the sky threatened to rain again, so I went home quickly. At home, the wind was OMG, it was very strong, cooling and lastly comfortable. So obviously I took a nap to regain my energy for the night.

Its 1:23am now, and I should be getting some sleep because I have another day of revision tomorrow :)

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*Signing Off*

Concussion + spoiled internet

I took a nap from 7pm to around 7:40pm, and when I woke up, the part where my head hit the wall 2 days back was aching a little, but I think the concussion in my head will last for quite some time though. I was rather sleepy and hungry when I woke up, so I wen to the kitchen and chewed on some bread and ham. My internet was down, so I had no choice but to use the Cisco AnyConnect Client(?) <-------- (not so sure of the name though). The last time I used that client thingy, was before my AutoCad lab test a month back. The client lagged up my entire computer until AutoCad crashed about 2 - 3 times when I was practicing it. Surprisingly, the client did not lag my com, it even provided the internet as quick as my home's. I studied for another 1 hour+, then Ryan MSN-ed me to ask me to play CnC with him. I quickly agreed but however, our game systems had glitches so we were unable to play together D: I decided to play a game by myself, and the results were not really that sastisfying because my defenses were broken through many times D: In addition the enemy para-bombed my base --------------> = money gone D:

Anyway now I'm waiting for tomorrow to come because I will be going back to school to do the sample papers and also to enjoy last few moments with my brothers and sisters before they head off for their holidays after our exams. Luckily, Sister Venessa isn't going anyway so I can go her house when I'm bored!!! hahahaha. Mum went out for dinner with her friends so my and my brother were at home since around 6+.

My brother was complaining about the internet since it was down for 2 days and StarHub didn't do anything about it even though my mum called StarHub multiple times. Appa came back from his bowling practice with high spirits because I guessed he had a good game. But his high spirits was ruined after he found out that StarHub did not do anything at our spoiled internet, oh well I can't really say anything about it, because when my dad gets pissed, nothing will be nice. Oh well, my dad has been like that since? I don't know.

Apparently my dad and mum were discussing about our spoiled internet yesterday night and then I was wishing that it could be fixed by today. I secretly wished it was fixed by today because I wanted to play Maple, I made a small deal with my guild master and promised him to complete the task by TODAY, but because of my spoiled internet, I risk getting kicked out of the guild D:

Now I'm watching anything I can watch on TV since my laptop's entertainment levels has hit the floor ever since my internet was down. D:

Shall stop posting here because I don't know what to post already.

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*Signing Off*

Friday

Yesterday night I arranged to meet Ryan in achool at 8am. I set my alarm to wake me up at 7 today, however I only remembered setting 3 alarms. This morning, I heard about 10 - 12 alarms. When I looked closely on my phone, it was Ryan calling me. I lazily answered my phone and told him that I was late (obviously), after he put down the call, I saw that he had called me for about 9 times (which basically explained why there were so many 'alarms' that morning, oh well)

I zoomed all the way to school, I reached 5 mins earlier than the usual 15 minutes because I couldn't keep him waiting. We ate breakfast at Macs at about 9, and we went to the 3rd floor of the main library. It was totally deserted (yes, really deserted), I went to study 2 hours of DE, then I went to watch We Got Married on the net, I had a good laugh while watching. At around 2+ I went to have lunch with Ryan at FC2. Ryan told me he didn't want to eat at first.

But within seconds after I started eating, he suddenly stood up and said that he was going to eat. We chatted as we ate, after that we went to the empty space in between T17 and T18. And we chatted again about all the funny moments about our childhood, I also had a good laugh on that especially when Ryan told me about the times when he stayed at Heritage View. Especially when he told me about the lawn mower and the crow that was sliced by the lawn mower. Ryan's exam starts at 4 so I left about 3:45 so that he could refresh his memory the last few moments before his exam.

I left for home, only to find out that my internet is still down (2 days already), looks like I will be out of action for another 2 - 3 days. BUT the goodside, I am able to concentrate on my studies for the up coming exam :) So I guess that is not really a bad thing though. I'm gonna take a nap now because I'm rather sleepy. Shall stop here for now.

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*Signing Off*

Wed and Thursday (Continued)

After we met, we took a bus back to Fairfield, at the guard house, the security guard didn't let Brother Chew Bok in because he was not wearing shoes. So Sister Venessa and I went inside and collect the school magazine. I was kinda surprised when they handed me a CD and told me that was the school magazine, and at the same time, a thousand thoughts came inside my head.

Was the school trying to be creative for once or is the school just trying to be cheapskate? Anyway after we collected the CDs, we headed to Fusionopolis to have lunch. I saw many Fairfield students which reminded me of my secondary school days in which after school I would join Sister Venessa, Brother Chew Bok and Brother Ryan Silver for lunch over there. We ate at 18 chefs(?) <------------- I can't remember the name of the restaurant because its the first time I'm eating there. I ate Pasta with Tangy Tomato sauce with chicken sausages, and the Tangy Tomato sauce was awesome, better than most pastas I have eaten in my whole life. The meal also included a FREE iced lemon tea and cookies and cream ice cream!! All for only $6.40!!! I was glad they introduced me this restaurant because its super cheap and the food is great :) After lunch, we walked from Fusion back to my house where we decided to spam some pictures because we had nothing to do. I think we spammed about 90+ pictures :) Here are some of them (I decided to put some pictures in my blog because I felt it was something new to my blog)

The first few pictures taken (testing testing)

Major height difference :D

ME and Sister Venessa :). Apparently after Brother Chew Bok tagged us, everyone said we looked like sisters. I was like WHAT?!?! To prevent any misunderstandings, I.AM.NOT.A.GIRL.ITS.JUST.THAT.I.HAVE.LONG.HAIR. Oh well I guess its really time to cut my hair after 7 months+

I shall cut my hair after my exams, because no one really cuts their hair after exams because they would be busy playing and enjoying themselves.

Oh yeah don't ask why there is only 3 pictures out of the 90+ plus pictures we spammed. It's gonna take me years to post every single picture down so I decided to post the best 3 pictures out of the entire folder of 90+ pictures.

I will stop posting here because I'm too tired to continue posting.

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*Signing Off*

Wed and Thursday

These 2 days I could say they were pretty good and bad days for me. Firstly I woke up at around 7:55 (naturally woke up), and then disaster struck. I sat upright and stared into blank space. Then the next moment, I lied down full force on my pillow, expecting it to have a soft landing, but then, I hit my head hard on the wall. The resulting impact instantly woke me up, and I was like, what just happened to me? Anyway, my friend who visited SP for this week texted me early in the morning because he was unable to use the school's internet because he didn't have a SPICE account.

Anyway my friend was called Yong Keen. Yong Keen asked me why can't he access the school's internet. So I sent him a text immediately asking him whether it was spwireless or wireless@sg. However, Sister Venessa replied to me, I was very surprised. So I told sent a text to Sister Venessa telling her it was a mistake. However Yong Keen replied to me this time, and I realised that I sent Yong Keen and Sister Venessa wrong messages. What a huge blunder! The disaster did not stop here, later at around 11am, when Sister Venessa asked me where to meet so that later Brother Chew Bok can join us to go back to our secondary school to collect our school magazine.

So I told Sister Venessa to meet at 12pm near the Convention Centre, at the same time I asked Brother Chew Bok where he was since his exam ended. However minutes after I sent Sister Venessa the text message, I realised I sent Sister Venessa the text message which was meant to be sent to Brother Chew Bok.

Looks like the concussion in the morning is taking its toll on me, judging from the severity of the concussion and the number of text messaging mistakes I made today.

Shall stop posting here, gotta study :)

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*Signing Off*

Study day

Today I went to NP to meet up with Brother Chew Bok and Leddin, I reached NP and that place was completely foreign to me. I had lunch and during lunch, I heard someone played Taeyang - Wedding Dress and River Flows In You - Yiruma on the piano near us. I gotta admit, I was completely mesmerized by that beautiful music, I hope to play that to my girlfriend next time. However, I totally suck in playing instruments, so I gotta take up lessons if I really want to play that song in the near future.

After that I went back to SP to have dinner with Chew Bok, then Venessa joined us after I ate finish my meal, then we headed to CASS (T19) and sat down near the cafe. We chatted and decided to spam picture <----- (haha it was a long time since we did that in Secondary school) At about 7:15, Venessa had to leave for home, so I walked home by myself. When I reached home, I bathed and had a small bowl of cereal (yum yum)

I switched on my com and I tried studying for DE awhile, then I chatted with Venessa and Chew Bok on oovoo for almost 2 hours+ (haha I laughed so much while chatting with them, especially on the part when Venessa was eating in front of the webcam, I almost died laughing on the way she was eating) Then I went to watch a variety show on my phone.

I realised that I had a new ideal girl. She is Seohyun from Girl's Generation, I like her because she is so cautious, thorough in everything she does, and she is kind, loving and caring. Lastly I think she is really beautiful (basically she fits my description and criteria for my ideal girlfriend)

BUT, the downside is that I would never be able to meet her, so I guess its all just wishful thinking. My life has been sucky since the start of poly. There were happy times but the amount of sad times is just overwhelming, and I am going berserk when I just think about them.

Oh well, I just gotta blame on my lousy luck, no matter how many times I complain about why is it me who gets the bad luck.

Its 12:32am, I'm tired so I'm gonna get some rest for the night.

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*Signing Off*

Love life (Part 1)

Sometimes, I just really wonder about alot of things. Questions pop up inside my head every now and then. The most common questions that I always have inside my head is that, how does it feel like to be accepted by the girl you like? How can you love and feel loved by the person you love? What is the feeling when you get a hug from the person you love?

These questions pop up in my head, but time after time, I am unable to answer them. However, I sort of got the slight feeling of giving a hug to my girl in a dream. I remember clearly it was near a jetty, and that my girl was crying, hard. And that very moment, I just stretched my hands out, and hugged her. I wanted her to feel safe, and comforted at the same time. I wanted to give all my love to her.

That very moment, a large tsunami came, we ran for our lives. I held her hands and ran all the way, not looking behind. Suddenly I heard a loud thud. I realized that she had fallen to the ground, I ran back to save her, but only to realize that it was too late to run away from the waves. So I hugged her tight, and I said to her, "I will never leave you, even in the brink of death" I closed my eyes, and she closed hers, and the next moment I could feel the cold water over my shoulders and my entire body. Even as the waves swept us away, I did not let her go, as promised.

That very moment, I woke up, and I was relieved but sad at the same time. I was relieved that this did not really happened, as it all occurred in a dream. However, I was sad because only then, it will prove how strong my love for my girl will be. I don't think any one right now will understand how much I am going to love my girl. 

Another thing that is burdening me is my hover hand syndrome. I just have this fear of touching girls. Even if it's only placing on shoulders, I still have the hesitation of placing my hand there. I guess that's gonna be one of my big problems in the future when I do get a girlfriend. 

Anyway it's 1:15 am in the morning now, I better get some rest because tomorrow will be a day of revision for me 

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*Signing Off*

Disappointed with myself

Eternity has passed and I finally decided to post something because I can't sleep. 12:58AM and I should be fast asleep, BUT my hungry stomach and my heart refuses to let me sleep. 

Anyway the good news for the next 3 weeks to come is that there will be no more lessons in school, meaning that I can slack more(?) I remember about something weeks ago, I was at Brother Janson's house celebrating National Day. I was surprised as I could remember almost all of the commands they executed even though it has been about 1 year since I graduated from Fairfield NCC. Anyway when the National Anthem was played and the helicopter with the flag flew past, I could not help but just go out to his house's balcony, and salute to the direction of the Singapore Flag. 

I just couldn't help but salute because of what my country has provided for me and my family for 16.8 years on my life. And to repay my country, I WILL serve NS with the fullest of my ability and pass out as a top grade 3rd Sergeant. Anyway to me the best part of the Parade was the marching in of the G.O.H (Guard Of Honours). I am not surprised on the discipline and precision of the men marching, because they are chosen out of thousands of other soldiers to march during NDP, therefore their standards are one of the highest out of the entire cohort of soldiers. 

Anyway back to my pathetic life, I had no more AutoCad lessons so after PEEE lecture, I went to SP colours library to go and study with my classmates. 1 hour into the session and they were like playing Sushido(?) Sushido is a game on Viwawa <---- (a gaming website) I gotta admit I suck at these kind of games because I guess those weren't the right games for me. 

Now to my love life, after weeks and weeks of confused feelings, I have decided to continue scouting  for another one. But this time, I have set the standards to even higher ones so that my heart won't take just anyone in. I gotta admit scouting for one sucks because you look and feel like an idiot when you are scouting for one. Next, the more you can't find, the more desperate your heart gets. 

Your heart will become as confused as your mind is, and that feeling absolutely SUCKS. Anyway these few days sucked for me. Especially on Thursday. It happened during IE (Intro to Engineering). I was troubleshooting the circuit board because it refused to work. So I used the soldering iron to clear off any burnt solder and also to make a clear path in between the "lanes" of the circuit board so that it will reduce the chances of a short circuit. 

I eventually gave up because the circuit board couldn't work again. I realized that Faiz was learning how to play DOTA too. So I went over to see how was he doing. Since I'm a beginner too, I decided to join him in a game. Henderson, David and Jonathan joined in later, and I got owned obviously.

But the point was that when Leon succeeded in making the board work, I was happy at first. However I suddenly felt extremely disappointed with myself. There he is working his ass off to help the both of us pass this project, and there I am playing DOTA. I obviously don't think thats right. After lunch, the disappointment and the guilt got the better of me and I just left for home immediately.

It's been about a day since I reflected on what I did, and I promise to myself, I will never ditch a teammate, friend and most importantly, the girl whom I love the most. I will help people with the best of my ability and most importantly, love and care for my girl.

당신이 여자 사랑.

*Signing Off*

Weekends

It's has been another 1 week since I posted something. It's 11:20pm now and I'm lying on my bed just reflecting on what I bloody did today. Its seems that I did a terrible mistake, actually to other people, it may be just a minor mistake, but to me, it's like bothering me every moment. 

Today I woke up at around 10 because I was awakened by the smell of the McDonalds breakfast that my mum bought home. I applied about half the amount of sweet syrup on my HotCakes. OMG how many calories was that, I really gotta stop eating sugar for the time being. 

After breakfast I really wanted to continue studying from where I have stopped yesterday. But my computer was just too tempting, and unfortunately, I succumbed to the temptation and I went to play maple. Today's biggest mistake was that I have played computer games for more than 14 hours today.

I myself couldn't believe that I actually played 14 hours of com. I seriously felt like crap just now when I was playing maple just now. To make matters worse, my buddy Chew Bok actually asked me to play CnC (Command and Conquer) with him. The shittiest part was that I actually agreed to play. I played together with Janson and the 3 of us won (of course). But what was the cost? Right now as I am typing this post, I'm feeling extremely exhausted and crappy. 

I guess I better get some rest soon, or tmr I won't even have the strength go even get up from my bed, let alone go to school. 

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*Signing Off*

Confused

It's has been eternity (1 week) since I last posted something, I guess I was too lazy to post, and to be completely honest, I almost forgot that my blog even existed (LOL). Anyway last nowadays, Shannon is the one that always wakes me up early in the morning by just SMS-ing me, and of course the ringtone of my phone will wake me up. 

Anyway, I guess I have gotten a little better in DOTA (Defense of the Ancients). At least I know when to assist and kill at the slightest opportunity. And of course, the hero that I know how to use the best is Yunero (Juggernaut). 

These few weeks, I realized I am getting happier with my poly friends, but sometimes I do get frustrated because of some minor issues. Today I had to go to school because I had to finish up my IE (Introduction to Engineering) project, which consists of soldering a few components. I got up from my bed and my injured legs (especially my knees), were taking it's toll on me. I dragged me feet to school, and Leon texted me telling me that they were at food court 4. However, I mistaken what Leon said (more of forgot) and I went to food court 2 instead, when I entered the food court, I was wondering why I couldn't find them.

So I gave them a call and asked them why I couldn't find them. Until Jmeen noona told me that they were at food court 4 all along. In other words, I made a huge blunder and I had to walk all the way to food court 4, while carrying my toolbox and enduring the pain coming from my injured legs and knees. While walking to food court 4, I was fuming mad until to the point I was ready to go berserk. I blamed myself of my own stupidity and on why I did not realize I was at the wrong place. So when I met them, I refused to eat, my frustration levels were at it's peak when I met them because I know I didn't want to eat at food court 4, but I wanted to actually eat at the McDonalds outlet at the Triple E building. 

So after Leon, David and Jmeen noona ate finish their food, I went to eat McDonalds breakfast (HotCakes with sausage and an upsized Milo), I gotta admit, I never felt happier after I ate everything down. After that we all moved to the Spectrum's top floor. We found a table and we all started using our lap tops since the IE lab that has free access only opens at 1. Leon then suggested playing DOTA. we all agreed. Anyway I was kinda surprised when Jmeen noon actually wanted to play DOTA with us. 

As usual I played Yunero (Juggernaut), with high spirits, I thought I could get a good result in that game, since it was partially an in-house game. However I was wrong, David pwn-ed the shit out of me, killing me 7 times. That was when I realized how lousy I was in DOTA.

After that game, we moved up to the lab and settled down ourselves before starting to finish up our circuit boards. Since Jmeen noona didn't know how to do her circuit board, she asked Leon to help her, while I continued me and Leon's group assignment. At the start, it wasn't so bad because I simply desoldered those bad parts. But later when I had to solder the VCC part into the board, I started getting frustrated as the solder entirely stuck together. So basically I resoldered it again and again.

Anyway I left about 3+ and went back home to have tea break. My legs were killing me by the time I was at my house's doorstep. After eating my teabreak, I went to play DOTA public game, as usual I got flamed again and again for not working properly with my teammates. Oh hell, I was really demoralized, it looks like I will forever be a noob in DOTA I guess?

Today I woke up at around 9+ when my mum told me to go and cut my hair, obviously I couldn't say no to my mum, so I reluctantly agreed. I had a light breakfast since I had breakfast very late because I was lazy to get out of my bed.

Anyway Shannon texted me to wake me up. She had to go to school for the national day dance rehearsal in my secondary school. Haha I could vividly remember the time she asked me why I didn't have a girl friend. It got pretty awkward at first, since it's the first time a girl actually asked me why I didn't have a girlfriend. 

So I replied her that I was still scouting for one. I think none of my friends know who I even like now, besides I can't and I will never tell that person my feelings for her, instead, I will just watch her from afar as she goes into happiness. As for me, I guess I'm a pretty impatient person. Whenever I see couples happily holding hands and waking together, I get very jealous of them. It's because I just wonder why can't I be as happy as them?

But if I sink too deep into these thoughts, I will just end up being selfish because I know love can't be forced. Many of my friends tell me that in Poly, it's easy to get a girlfriend. However, I'm not getting the results I am expecting. Therefore, I am still gonna wait, and continue scouting for the right one for me. 

It's 1:13am in the morning, I'm gonna stop here because I'm too tired to continue posting. 

당신이 여자 사랑

*Signing Off*

Open House

Okay it looks like I haven't blogged for about 4-5+ days already, cause either I was too tired to blog, or maybe I guess I was just lazy. Anyway today I had to wake up early because I had to go school for an open house. When I reached school, there were many parents and students accompanying their parents. My mum and I went to sit down on at the auditorium

Basically that day we talked to our personal lecturer on about the module options for year 2 and also the industrial attachments that we will be receving.

*Signing Off* (Don't ask why this post is so brief and short)

End of week + weekend part 2

After I reached back to Bishan station, I went to meet up with Wei Jie and a few others. They were playing arcade so I went inside the arcade to meet them, however we got chased out because apparently I was wearing the SP T-Shirt, so I couldn't go inside. I went to Popular Bookshop and I was scouting for language tutorials as I wanted to pick up basic Korean but I always failed to find those with standards (those which I could understand)

After that, we went to eat lunch at Long John Silvers, William (Wei Cheng) and I went to order first, Faiz and Nazrinn ordered their meal after us. After lunch I went to call Leon to meet up with them cause Wei Jie had to leave early. After that I went to return my donation bag to the counter and then I took a train home. On the way I chatted with Leon with something about our class.

When I reached home, I was dead tired so I went to take a short nap, Shannon was in Indonesia so I couldn't text her if not I will pay extra charges (zzz). Anyway I decided to use my com all the way till midnight, I was expecting some good things to happen to me in maple today.

Basically I used com all the way till about 12+ before going to sleep.

*Signing Off*

End of week + weekend

I could say that this week is reasonable good and bad for me. The good thing about this week is that I got back my Structured Programming lab test, I passed with flying colours with a score of 96/100. The bad thing is that I'm gonna have a hard time doing my GenEd project, cause I will be cracking my head on how to properly allocate the work. Anyway yesterday I went out of dinner with my parents at some Thai restaurant near Alexandra Vilage.

I could say, the food wasn't pretty bad after all. The fish and the Tom Yam soup was the best out of what we ate for that dinner. Anyway after dinner I went back home to use my com and I of course, went to play maple for a while, surprisingly I managed to up 60% that night by chionging Rex party quest. I went to chat with Shannon for a while before I went to sleep. What caught me by surprise was that she told me to call her a princess(?) Anyway I did I was told to (which is to call her princess whenever I text her), and she would call me a prince(?) in reply.

Today I woke up at 6am because I had to do a flag day at Bishan, I reached about 7:15, and I sat down there like a retard. About 20 minutes later, I saw Leon and Jmeen noona. Okay I really felt absolutely retarded and stupid for coming extremely early for this flag day. Anyway, this flag day wasn't a pleasing experience for me. For the first 1.9 hours, I followed Jmeen noona and a few others to Ang Mo Kio hub to do our flag day.

At the start, we first took a train to Ang Mo Kio station and we went to look for stuff to do. We ended up wandering around for almost 2 hours. Then at one point we saw a familiar face from 1B/21. Then Si Jin decided to stay with him to do flag day together. Jmeen noona, Leon and David decided to buy Koi to quench their thirst(?) Anyway, I felt kinda bad to not do daly day, because I saw other handicapped people putting in effort to do their part for the children's handicapped association.

So after some consideration, I decided to do flag day together with Jonathan and Si Jin. Half an hour later, I decided to give up because no one wanted to donate any money to me, so I called Wei Jie as I wanted to meet them up in Bishan. So Si Jin and I walked back to Ang Mo Kio station. Along the way, I saw Edwin from 1B/21, and Si Jin decided to stay behind and continue doing the flag day.

Okay I am kinda tired and I need some sleep for the night.

*Signing Off*

Thursday

Today I woke up at 5.50 as usual because Shannon texted me to wake me up, then she went to talk about what happened in school the day before. Actually the real reason why I woke up early because downstairs of the block where I live at, some one was fumigating the area, so the noise practically woke me and my mum up. Anyway, after my dad and my brother left the house, I went to switch on the com and started downloading songs.

I went to change my ringtone from 2pm's I'll Be Back, to SHINee's Lucifer. I guess I got tired of my old ringtone so I decided to change to something better(?). Anyway, when Shannon reached school, she went to talk to her upper sec friends, so I didn't text her, and I went to play one of the campaigns of Left 4 Dead, which was utterly boring, anyway I laid on my bed for a little while then I went to watch abit of SNSD's Hello Baby on my phone, then I watched the same episode of Invincible Youth in which Sooyoung <------- (:D) was featured in.

"Sooyoung so cute" was what I thought when I was watching the entire episode. I headed to school after that. I reached about 25 minutes before the lesson started. The first lesson was a 4 hour practical (sian), and then currently it's been only about 2.5 hours into the practical and I got to survive about 1.5 more hours with an empty stomach. I guess its all about my willpower.

Well, gotta stop now, I'm too hungry to continue.

*Signing Off*

Tuesday

Today was a reasonably good and a reasonably bad day for me, I was feeling down the whole morning, my left eyeball hurts for no apparent reason, but the main reason was my confused heart and mind. Till now, I still don't know who to choose. However, I thought over again and I came with one half of the solution. Since I will never get a chance to meet that person, I will just continue being her fan, supporting her from behind.

As for the other person, I will not tell her my feelings for her, instead I will just watch her from her, as she gets happiness. As for me, I think I will just wait, maybe in the distant future, someone will appreciate my love for her, and I hope will love me as much as I love her.

*Signing Off*