1st of November

Here comes the 2nd last month of the year! :) Which also means that I've got less than 7 months before I ORD :DDDDDDDD

I woke up with my arms and chest aching because I completed an intense gym session with my army friends the previous day. We ended everything with a good meal at the nearby coffee shop, I had a plate of Roasted Chicken Breast rice with a cold drink before we all headed for home. Energy levels hit sub zero and I totally had no energy to do anything else so I opened my minecraft server for my friends to play on it while I went to take a short nap. Mum bought chicken chop for me while my brother got me a bowl of laksa, eat until super super full :D

So today I followed my parents to SAFRA since my dad had to do some sports admin stuffs there, while waiting I got myself a subway sandwich since I was super super hungry and I didn't want to wait all the way till my dad finished his work. Headed back home just in time for lunch, mum cooked for me my favourite home cooked food as I was watching some CS:GO funny videos before I went to do some math that I cracked my head over :\

So... 7 months left and I have to achieve my ultimate goal, which is to get gold for my IPPT. Still trying to focus on each station my working out bit my bit every single day. I have tried the daily 200 push up regime, unfortunately on some days I am unable to do because I'm on overnight shift. Therefore I compensate it by either doing more the day before or after I dismount from camp. My highest record so far is 355 push ups in 35 minutes, and I still remember I immediately fell asleep after I bathed :D.

My long weekend is finally over and I've got to go back to camp tomorrow morning for another 24 hours shift :\ This week ended pretty good after going through rough times mid week, and I'm looking forward to the new week ahead :)

Justin

30th of October - Re-ignited the feels

Till now I'm still not enlightened about one crucial question that I've always asked my friends but never got an answer. Some of my female friends told me this before, "Actually boring guys are good leh, in a sense that they will be super loyal to their girlfriend or wife in the future. For someone like you, I think your other half will be super blessed".

I was glad that their impression of me is a good one. However I do see an irony, a major one. If females say that boring guys make good partners, then why my friends leading monotonous but meaningful lives are being dumped by their partners one at a time? Even some of my friends, whom I know for more than 15 years, their character being of a pure soul, is also getting dumped by their partners. Those ladies that dumped my friends, went for guys that are more outgoing, spontaneous and people that knows how to party. 

I'm confused, like really.

Anyway it was around 5 pm, doing my shift work with Bryan. He was sharing about how he flopped things up when he was out dating with this girl of his, and there was one point when he said about what he was doing while driving his car. "You know when I was driving halfway, she fell into a deep deep sleep and her head was falling towards the direction of my shoulder. This is something that I always wanted, like when you're driving and the car stops at the red traffic light, you turn your head and look at how beautiful she is. It's something unexplainable".

A bad habit of mine, which is being jealous and also the frequent comparison of lives with my peers. I felt jealous after he shared his story with me. He has the things that I also want to experience, which I feel I might not be able to experience at all.

I felt absolutely terrible during dinner, so I didn't talk to anyone. Headed upstairs and forced out 160 push ups to cool my head off before going to sleep.

At least I did feel a lot better after waking up.

28th of October

Absolutely horrible mount that I just completed this morning. I was given an 8 pm to 4 am sleep break because I helped the sister section to cover duties. Felt a little pissed because I requested some of them to help me bring me my dinner as I was away on another post and no shift during dinner time so I couldn't go out to collect my own food. Furthermore they ordered McDonalds so I wanted to eat even more earlier as the sugar from the drinks will keep me awake at night. Sadly no one brought in the food or bothered to take over me. I even had to ask a sergeant to take over my shift for a short period so that I could go out to use the washroom and then collect my food.

The arms commander was also late so I got taken over 20 minutes later than usual, while the rest had already returned to the bunks to rest. I was already a little pissed but I just decided to go and get a shower before sleeping.

A headache later developed so I couldn't sleep properly, waking up almost every 5-10 minutes (yes). The weather was also terribly humid so I was sweating non stop while trying to keep myself warm from the fan that was constantly blowing on my lower body.

Endured until the end of the mount, and finally dismounted from camp. Drizzling slightly so I had to choing all the way to the bus stop opposite the base. Withdrew some cash but had to withdraw a higher amount because the machine wouldn't let me freaking withdraw the lowest amount avaliable :\ Slept all the way till late afternoon, did some math while playing some old school Runescape and not forgetting the music that somehow kept me pretty concentrated while doing math :)

I actually had the energy to do a quick 1.6km run under 7 minutes, and had to struggle my way to do 160 pushups in 14 minutes which was slower than usual. I guess it's the lack of rest :\ By the way, I'm very glad that I sort of made a new friend although I met her previously at a friend's 21st around 2 months ago. I have been tweeting her a little and I do hope that we can be friends soon :)

Alright I've got another 24 hours mount to do tomorrow, gotta sleep now :)

26th of October

I have been thinking about the semi-opened air bar that I went with 2 of my friends. Seems to be a pretty relaxing place, actually in fact it is one of the most relaxing places I've ever been other than my own home :D

I do need a break from all the overnight shifts that I have been constantly been doing in camp. One overnight shift every 2 days, with an extremely irregular sleep break. But at least food is provided so I get to save some money for my future expenses, and not forgetting good food muhahahaha. Long weekend is coming up and I might actually go back to the bar and maybe get a small drink again? :)

I have been thinking a lot about this lady recently. We both have some similarities, like our taste in music and also sadly, a medical condition. She's a very nice person and I feel that I can be good friends with her hopefully :)

Time to sleep, another overnight shift tomorrow. I might buy myself a good McDonalds breakfast after the whole thing ends.

Justin.

22th of October

The night shift was pretty fun as we had good snacks, and hot drinks to last us through the 12 am to 4 am shift. But the 2 hour + sleep break was terrible, when I woke up I was feeling so disorientated and dazed as my eyes wouldn't stop shutting. The breakfast provided by the camp was pretty decent though, ate at least 80% of the food given.

The bad part was after I left camp, I had to wait for at least 5 buses before I could bored as it was packed with students that were going to NP and SIM. There's one thing I can't understand when it comes to boarded buses. IF and only if the bus is super packed and there's clearly enough space for only ONE more person to board, but 9 F-ing people decides to board all at one go. After one of the nine people board, the rest will go back into the bus stop, with the ultra disappointed face. COME FUCKING ON, don't know how to AUTO is it? OR are they just bloody hell blind? If they know that only ONE damn PERSON can only board, then if there's someone waiting in front, then just wait for the next damn bus, God freaking damn it.

Reached home after one hour since the bus moved slower than usual, but glad that there was breakfast at home. Slept while AFKing in a game, then mum came home with lunch but I wasn't hungry so I slept again until around 2 pm. Woke up and watched Kitchen Nightmares on my com while trying to do some math. Feeling pretty guilty as I keep getting distracted by the show, and also about the fact that Gordon Ramsay could talk sense into the most stubborn, egoistic and arrogant restaurant owners in the US. Gordon Ramsay is one patient person, if it was me, I would have argued the crap out of them (Just saying, I 'm not really like that!! Or at least I try not to be a person that easily loses his temper._.).

Before dinner I went out for a run as I somehow emerged out of the laziness mood. The first 2 km was okay, but technically I walked a little in between as I had to stop while walking to the sports complex in SP. Ran 4 rounds around the track, and both my muscles behind the shins started aching real bad so I stopped to walk out of the complex and back onto the path at the roadside. I then ran around 400 metres to the zebra crossing that was close to the SP dorms, turned around and started the last 1 km run which felt like eternity (:\). Oh so many times I felt like giving up and to just walk for the remainder of the distance, but some how another voice in my head just giving me the pace to run as I moved forward leg after leg. Reached back safely, luckily I didn't black out or throw up since I ate lunch pretty late.

Just did 200 grueling push ups while listening to my favourite songs, so the pain didn't felt so, that painful? Haha ._.

So today was pretty okay, besides for the fact that I kept getting distracted while trying to do some math in the afternoon.

Some of my friends are going through tough periods, be it in school, at work, or suffering with an lifelong medical condition. Just wanna let them know that I'm rooting for them where ever they are, or what ever they are doing. Cheers to them :)

Justin

20th of October

Somehow waking up before my alarm rings is starting to become a norm since I have been posted to Gombak base. I woke up at 3 am because I had to charge my crazy phone, the battery seems to have a life of it's own. Either it super charges to max battery in less than 5 minutes or it takes crazily long to charge it to full voltage. Sighpies.

Headed off to camp wearing the pair of jeans that was given to me during my birthday. I thought the skinny jeans will actually shrink even more after my mum washed them, but apparently it seems to be okay for now :) Some how my stomach ached real bad after first parade, and I had to choing to the toilet without even changing out. Had a good shit but it completely drained out all of my energy, somehow forcing everything out has consumed my energy in the process (LOLOLOLOL). Had to report early because someone was late and someone had to take his place, and I happen to be the poor soul that is available. On a good note, lunch was good. In camp, food is rarely good but the chicken tomato pasta was exceptionally good that day:D

It was training day so we had to report to the gym for an official training session conducted by another regular. It was a pretty fruitful session as I did more lifting sets than usual, and also I ran quite a distance on the treadmill. Went out for dinner with Axel since he needed to go to Art Friend to get some drawing stuff. 

Right now I'm back at home and listening to my favourite songs on my com :D. Just did some math though, brain is getting pretty rusty from the lack of info going into my head so I am actually getting some stuffs back on track by doing some basic math. Alright, time for some games before heading to bed :D

On a good note, I'm getting CNBLUE's latest album '2gether' later this month, hopefully I get the poster of the whole group so I can get it pasted on my room's wall :D

18th of October

Recently I have been reading a lot of quotes, pictures and some shows with deep meanings behind it. One of them hit me real hard.

"Finding balance and enlightenment within yourself/.
7 energies to unlock, 7 purposes, but blocked by 7 different emotional marks.

- Earth energy, located at the base of the spine. Deals with SURVIVAL, but blocked by FEAR. What am I most afraid of? Let them be clear to you, surrender the fears and let them flow away.

- Water energy, located at the sacrum. Deals with PLEASURE, but blocked by GUILT. What are all the guilt that burdens your soul? What do you blame yourself for? Accept the reality that these things happen, but do not let them cloud or poison your energy and soul. To be a positive influence in the world, you have to forgive yourself.

- Fire energy, located at the stomach. Deals with WILLPOWER, but blocked by SHAME. What are you ashamed of? What are your biggest disappointments in yourself? Remember, you will never find balance if you deny this part of your life.

- Air energy, located in the heart. Deals with LOVE, but blocked by GRIEF. Let all of your grief out in front of you. Love is an energy, and it swerves all around us. Your family and friends love for you is not lost, but it is deep inside your heart and reborn-ed as another form of love. Let the pain, flow away...

- Sound energy, located in the throat. Deals with TRUTH, but blocked by LIES. What are the lies that we tell ourselves? You have to first accept that destiny that you want, not the destiny that someone else is trying to force upon you.

- Light energy, located in the centre of the forehead. Deals with INSIGHT, but blocked by ILLUSION. One of the greatest illusions in this world, is the illusion of separation. Some things  you think are separate and different, are actually one and the same. Like people, but we all live as if divided.

- Thought energy, located at the crown of the head. Deals with COSMIC energy, but blocked by EARTHLY ATTACHMENTS. You have to let all of those attachments GO. Let them flow down the river forgotten. Think of the lovely attachments that you have, and let them go."

That part about letting go of earthly attachments, the people I love, the people I care about, and most importantly the love of my life. In order to understand more about myself, I have to give up many things, including her? I was in disbelief. I'm not sure whether I wanted to understand myself more, or to continue things the way they are. The image of her flowing away from my life, just terrifies me. What will happen if I made her flow away? Will I be as empty as before? Or am I just going to find someone else and fill up that spot so that that emptiness feeling won't come back? But if I do that I'm just finding excuses for myself, and being extremely selfish.

Right now I guess I will just focus on the first 6.

11th of October

It's just been 24 hours since my birthday party ended, and I myself can't believe that I made through the day with very little sleep since I mounted the day before. I was absolutely angsty since the moment I reached home because I was so tired. Decos weren't even up, the cake not collected and then I was hungry since the breakfast was absolutely horrible. Used my com and listened to some music to calm myself down, settled the decos and slept on my chair for around 30 minutes. Still angst I headed to Clementi with my brother to get the cake and lunch.

Fast forward to the party, my army friends messed with my computer and changed the wallpaper to my eye candy (meh). Loads of laughter with the helium and our stomachs were full with the dinner and drinks. I gave a speech with the words that came right from my heart in front of everyone, I guess it was the first so I knew I was pretty nervous but since my mum told me to cut it short so I summed it up as much as possible.

Sang the birthday song and then I had a private chat with Namra as she was the one that helped me the most. be it the planning or the carrying of some of the decos. I gave a 2 tight hugs as a form of my gratitude to her, she also even gave me a pair of skinny jeans from ZARA which definitely cost her quite a bit of money. My army friends gave me a wallet from Braun Buffel, but what everyone gave me was their valuable time that they have set aside for me. Lastly was the wish book, everyone wrote some messages for me, I read every single one of them and I could say that I was so touched as I never knew what exactly my friends thought about me and they wrote very nice things about me.

Went out for supper with one of my bros, had Mexican cheese fries while my bro had Grilled chicken chop and a cup of iced milo. We walked down Holland Village while chatting about our recent life occurrences, headed for home after that. My parents cleaned up the place and changed my bed sheets too, I was so touched by their efforts and I could hear them sleeping so soundly.

Really thankful for my family as they helped me in every single part of the journey in my life, be it primary school, secondary school, poly or even army. They never gave up on me even though I gave them trouble after trouble, time and time again.

Time to sleep soon. but I guess I will have difficulty sleeping. Not in a bad way though, I'm smiling like a happy 5 year old kid whilst typing this blog post. Hopefully I do fall asleep soon! :)

8th of October

Did the final prep for the birthday celebration this coming Saturday, and faced with some difficulties such as the balloons not being able to be pumped because the mouth is tightly sealed etc. Solved them nevertheless:)

Besides doing the prep work for my party this Saturday, I also went back to watch one of my favourite childhood shows, Avatar: The Last Airbender. I enjoyed every moment while watching, and it took me a total of 2 days to finish watching the whole series (I actually didn't watch from episode 1 as I felt that the starting was a little boring). The final fight between the Avatar and the fire lord was so good, I think I rematches the whole fight for at least 5 times. In addition I think the female characters in the series, some of them are pretty attractive, it's been a long time since I've found a cartoon character really attractive to me. Characters like Katara really attracted me the most as she had this never ending kind heart that is filled with love, and furthermore a serving spirit towards the needy and even has healing powers. Another character is Princess Yue from the North Pole, her conservative but kind character also made me attracted to her. 

I think I sound like some crazy man mentioning about how attracted I am to these fictional characters, but meh. Probably going to watch the whole series once more after my birthday. 

Furthermore, I've have broken 2 of my fitness records!!! Which is the most number of push ups did in one day, and also the duration taken to do 200 push ups! Probably converting to a pure calisthenics workout from now on, gotta get my body to recognize what I can do and what I can't. 

Till then, one more mount and it's my birthday party! Adios!

6th of October

Final preparations are done, and I just left 3 more days to my 21st birthday party! Honestly I'm super excited for what is to come, because it's the first time so many of my friends are coming over to my place, and also they can understand the environment that I live in day by day :)

Sadly the cake maker wasn't able to put the image that I wanted onto the cake itself as there were some copyright issues, oh well. At least I know deep down inside my heart, that photo will be my driving strength in the future and will definitely shape my character for the better. Spent quite some time talking to my mum about the food that I was planning to order from the caterer since my parents are not going to cook as they feel that it's easier for them to order and cleaning up will definitely be way easier as compared to cooking dish after dish by themselves.

Now I've just got 2 more mounts to complete and I will be able to see the happy faces of all of my friends that I am inviting this coming Saturday:)

22th of September

A few more days and it is the end of September! *plays the Green Day song* :D

October is coming and it shows me 2 things, firstly it's my 21st birthday and secondly I have only 258 days left to the end of my service. I've come a long way, from the countless order ins, looking at different 'chio' female camp visitors, gossiping about the crazy perm staff to enduring all of the retarded BS that my PC is giving us. 

I have gained weight back into the healthy range, which is close to 70kg. My running and statics have improved dramatically ever since I completed Polytechnic, so you say that I've changed a lot for the better in terms of physical appearance. 

Recently been chatting and meeting up old friends. There's one friend that I want to share, I used to dislike her in Secondary school because I thought she was very snobbish, attention seeking etc. But when I met up with her after she wanted to meet me after a long 5 years, and her physical image changed A LOT, like as if she was a completely new person (yes, in terms of character too). She's a great listener and gives very constructive feedback when it comes to certain topics like work and life, a good friend indeed. The best part? She even agreed to bring me to a bar which I've never been to before, she also promised to buy me a drink which I could drink and chat with her into the night. An experience I can't wait to try out! :D

Preparations for my 21st is still on-going, I do hope my party will a enjoyable one, will carry on planning as the day draws closer and closer *nervous meme* Like what the old man said, "Fail to plan? Plan to fail. Simple." Will have to put in 110% effort for the planning next week :D

Alright time to sleep!

Justin

13th of September

"The first step into solving a problem is realizing that there is one"

I have been a terrible person these few months, venting my anger and frustration onto my peers and my best friends around me. I have even hurt my family without knowing it.

So what happened to me these few months? I have been jealous, my ego has taken over me, my rage controlled my actions and emotions, I have been a crazy desperate person. Most importantly, I have been terribly intimidated by the people around me, be it whether it is by my friends or family.

To the love of my life, I have never forgotten you one single bit ever since day 1, yes I may have eye candies every now and then, but the person that never left my heart was you. I will probably never have the courage to talk to you ever again, let alone ask you out once more. I'm happy for you for what you have become, reborn with Christ. Congratulations on your baptism and may you have the strength and love to make a positive impact on other people's lives. Never stop showing the world your beautiful smile and I do hope you will find someone that is truly capable of making you smile, forever.

To all of the people that I have made them frown upon me, or shake their heads when they think about a person like me, I'm truly sorry for my terrible attitude and actions once again, I know it is not the first time this has happened, I will definitely work on it and I will emerge as a better person in the future. I know I will not be able to apologize right in front of your faces, but I feel this is the first step into an apology.

9th of September

This week, a terrible week so far. I really can't wait for this week to end because of all the crap that I'm facing and bullshit I have to deal with from the people around me. Firstly, the blue ticks and flying of aeroplanes. Really got sick and tired of this shit, not forgetting the one word replies that people have been giving me.

Am I a person that is too boring? Am I a person that is easily taken for granted and bullied? Am I a person that people think they can ignore?

Fuck all this shit, if people decide to treat me like this, then I guess it's time to cut those people off and scratch them off the list, one at a time, since they feel that I'm not needed in their lives then I won't need those people in my lives too.

At least my friends in the army understand how I feel, they even cheer me up and get me drinks. Really grateful for for them by my side, the juniors are really nice and cooperative. I also admire the fact that they respect a person like me, judging from the fact that I'm a terrible person and they still get along and respect me, I really can't be more thankful for them.

29th of August

Recently people have been ignoring me over texts, I texted people and I get either blue ticked, or no reply at all. No idea whether is it me that is the reason why they are not replying me, or it is just that they are busy with their lives. I would certainly hope that it's not me that's the problem, oh well.

Guess I would just do some self-reflection on the things that I've done recently.

1st of August

Amidst the very busy schedule in camp, been feeling a little emotionally unstable for the last few days.

Have you ever felt hope on the progression of something that you lacked in the past, but suddenly that one small amount of hope is just suddenly taken away from you? Fuck that, besides that stupid shit, I guess it's my body that is deciding whether to cling on and not to fall sick, or to just give up and let me fall completely sick (some what like a one time good one illness).

Just yesterday I saw this very attractive lady right at my workplace. You know, when else can you see an attractive lady in some screwed up camp? Sadly I could only see her for a good 10 seconds before she turned and left.

And yes, as much as I don't want to admit it, my heart fluttered when I saw her smile during the short period when I saw her. Even my commander that was working in the office was stunned when he saw her, guess her beauty has a very strong effect on all of us (in a good way of course).

3 more mounts to go, and I will be breaking the record for the most number of mounts in a row in the platoon and in the entire company. It is something not worth celebrating but I guess I know where my limit is.

12th of July

The week has ended, and guess what? I have to return to the dreaded camp tomorrow morning and mount again (14 hours mount FTW!). Enjoyed my one week of rest with my friends, going from camp too camp and attending passing out parades/ceremony to night chilling sessions with some beautiful ladies last wednesday.

I guess I'm ready for this upcoming week, 13 mounts in a row to tackle.

11th of July - Pride

Pride in myself is something I always wanted to have. I have been mostly proud of the people around me, like recently I've got 2 friends that endured the 'torture' that army threw to them. One of them managed to complete his BMT after a grueling 5 months on a desolate island, while the other finished medical training after a 12 week course. I might not know what my other friends have went through previously in their lives, but to be able to see them at this very day, I'm proud of them for pulling through struggle after struggle.

However I'm faced with this small little problem, which is when I see the people around me accomplishing great things in their lives, and then I take a look at myself. I seem to have this sense of inferiority. A good example are my BMT mates that went to Officer Cadet School.

Just an hour ago I saw their pictures - pictures posing with their swords that signifies the authority bestowed upon to lead, influence, change and bless the lives of the soldiers under charge. They looked really smart in their pictures, especially my buddy that made me change for the better as a person. 

For some reason when I was about to post the picture online with my friend in my smartest uniform, I hesitated. Hesitated because I was afraid that I would be judged, reason being they are OCS while I'm just a lowly vocationalist. Oh well, this problem of being judged by others still lurks somewhere inside me while I continue on with my life.

It's something I have to work on, and hopefully I will achieve enlightenment as soon as possible.

7th of July

Finally at least a week's rest from camp, been so tired lately with the constant mounts and dismounts from camp. Many things happened recently and I just felt like sharing it here (well even though no one reads but I don't really care).

First thing is the inner battle in your heart and mind. The battle with my mind started because of the inner temptations that my mind and body craves, resulting tons of guilt being felt again and again. Food is one of the sinful temptations, been having tons of 'tze char' or '煮炒‘ every other day in camp, or we will end up eating fast food like KFC and McDonald's if we didn't had 'tze char'. The result? The obvious drop in stamina and the tightening on my tight fit army uniform, and it got way more difficult to put on.

Oh well, had a terrible migraine for 13 days straight, gastric problems for 4 days and my aching right joint near my hip ever since the migraine started :\ That gave me even more problems because with the aching joint I wasn't able to go and run as often as I planned to go, every step that I took when I moved forward just hurt so much that my mind is just telling me not to carry on after a certain distance. Migraine and gastric went away, but my leg still hurts. Doctor said it might be a posture problem and also the problem with me sitting down too often (sigh, I'm sitting down as a I work in camp, so in the end the amount of times that I sit compared to standing will still be more no matter what :\).

Next, love hurts. I still think of her after 2 long years, she's moved on while I'm still trying to. Every time I see a lady of my age, the first thing that comes into my mind is her, I will subconsciously ask her questions that I want to her to know in my head, questions like how is she doing, whether she's coping well with university and such. When I pay a visit back to her Facebook profile, and I see that she's smiling angelically as always in her photographs, then all my questions to her have been answered. Even though I know she's not smiling at me or for me, one thing's for sure, she's indeed happy with her life and that I should feel happy for her too. Whether I will see her in the future, that's one very difficult question to answer, but I will always be supporting her from the darkness and shadows.

They say that love can make you do extraordinary things, but love has made me blind and I know that because I sometimes feel like I'm pushing people away from me because I'm feeling moody and thinking of her, I don't know luh.

At least I've got a week to rest, and I have to settle the problem with my leg once and for all. I had to postpone the recent IPPT because I couldn't run properly, and next I want to go to the restaurant at the botanic gardens with my friends because they serve very good food there:)

Till then, continuing life with my injured right leg :\

27th of May

Couldn't wait to dismount from camp, because I was battling a flu and a terrible headache for the last 24 hours. Dismounted anyway, left camp quickly and went back to SP to buy the standard breakfast that I always have after an overnight mount in camp. 

The graduation ceremonies just ended recently, and as I walked past the main skate park and the long pathway with the long railings, I could remember every single thing that I did during that day. More precisely, the things that I did, said and the moments which I confessed my feelings for her. Its been more than 2 years since the day I started having feelings for her, the heart fluttering moments, all the times where I get to see her, every single moment felt like heaven, to be precise, every time I saw her I feel like I am seeing heaven's most beautiful angel.

Peers have telling me to set my heart right by letting go and moving on. I thought I had that settled out, as I thought I was thinking of her as often as before. However the memories of me and her, still remain inside my head as if everything happened just yesterday. 

She's move on with her life, enjoying her overseas vacation and putting her 100% into her University life. While I'm current executing my plans for the rest of my NS life, I am also trying to keep myself fit the for now. 

Every now and then I see her appear at my Facebook's home page, her smiles and her lovely eyes. At least they assure me that she's doing fine and that I should feel happy for her just as how she is happy with her life now.

With that I shall stop here, will update with a new post soon :)

21st of April

Have been absolutely busy in camp, with the non stop mounting and dismounting, time some how seemed to pass really quickly from every mount and dismount. Here I am, just chilling on my bed in the bunk, I shall share about what I did for the past 2 weeks.

Exactly half of it was spent in camp doing overnight duties, so let's not talk about that. I went to watch Fast and Furious 7 with Nams, met her at around roughly after lunchtime, then we wanted to have pizza so we headed to Pizza hut to get 3 personal pan pizzas. While waiting for the pizzas to be ready, we went around getting some items that Nam needed for her birthday. Went to Popular to gather the items, got some strong tape, 2 pairs of scissors, some more tape and a small stack of construction papers. But in the end, we just put every thing back since she said it wasn't that urgent to get the stuffs.

Walked around again and saw this stall that sold many kinds of deserts and treats, so Nam got herself a Choco cupcake, while I got myself and éclair. Got the pizzas and headed for the cinema. The movie was extremely badass, especially the Rock at the final part of the movie, the feels were real too but I shall leave that for the movie to explain for itself. Since Nam had to leave for another place, I accompanied her to the station chatted with her for a bit, gave her a tight and loving hug before we parted ways.

Went to watch another movie with Sabby. Wanted to watch the con artists but since the tickets were sold out so we went to watch the movie 'Home', this cartoon like movie that has Rihanna and Jennifer Lopez
voicing in that movie. The movie has this cute orange cat that I couldn't stop telling Sabby that it was so cute and lovely. I would say the movie had a few learning points that links to reality, but like again, I will leave it for the movie to explain for itself.

My section mate Bryan introduced to me this Maple story private server, which I think it totally rocks because its extremely stable, meaning there are very little disconnection occurrences. Furthermore the rates are pretty much similar to the actual servers so I tried it out and I can't stop playing it right now

*will continue the rest of this post because I need some rest from my dismount!*