Start of 2015, 1st of January

Looking back at the entire of 2014, at the start of the year with me still being entirely trolling around in class with the gang, imitating lecturers like LPY or AYCP, and also times when I fell sick or very often, lovesick. Walking around school aimlessly and also looking for her while I walk past places with the times I was the closest to her, seemingly like a replay, I was able to see everything from a 3rd person's perspective.

Nonetheless, listening in lecturers and the ultimate crash course revisions before tests or exams. The spirit of helping was quite present at that moment, people helping out each other's. Not forgetting the steamboat and BBQ sessions at Sum's house, and then the heart fluttering moments when I see her around in school, then friends will be like, "Go sit near her or something! *with the smirk on their faces*"

Heart fluttering moments once more during the EEE grad party and graduation ceremony once more, plus the confession of my feelings for her too and the gift for her, totally one of the bravest moments of my life, basically having the balls to go up and tell her in person.

Went to work part time back at my internship place, guess my love for laptops is huge so I don't mind handling them once more. Faced with a lot of stomach problems when working over there because the meal times were absolutely irregular and really screwed my stomach, seen the doctor many times and also went to see the Chinese physician, got a ton of medication and then just consume on time. Computer spoiled, so I just went back to the previous workplace to get it fixed, went to cyber cafés to game when I really had the urge to game. But when I didn't had the urge, went to help 2 of my younger friends with geography notes since I was pretty strong in geography :D

Then came army, something that I really didn't look forward to. 8/7/2014, enlisted to the army, Pulau Tekong BMTC School 4, 3rd Company Platoon 4 Section 2. Went through 9 weeks of basic military training and then not forgetting the long and gruesome route marches, especially the 24km march, my body started breaking down after the 18km mark. Nevertheless, endure through everything and threw my cap up high when everything was over. What came after that was a nice McDonalds breakfast with my family before heading home to unpack every single sweaty and smelly stuff in my field pack before getting some nice & well deserved sleep :D

Posted to MPTS (Military Police Training School), and had to stay in for another 9 weeks, did alot of area cleaning, listening to lectures and MP close combat training which was the hell training because there were lots of break falls, smacking on the ground and not forgetting the punishments which comes in the form of break falls instead of push ups. But there were many friendly Warrant Officers and Specialists, but there were also commanders that all of us didn't like. Oh well, completed the course and got posted to Gombak, the most depressing place for an MP to go. Oh well one and a half more years to go, before I will be able to screw off from the army and not head back to the most depressing place for an MP.

2015, I hope to be fitter, and most importantly let go of her as I think it's just time to. Liking her has made me focus all of my attention and mind on her, sort of has made me blind to people around me. She's definitely one very unique person, a one of a kind person (in a good way of course), someone that I will never ever forget. For all you know, I might be able to see her once more in the future, but as a friend, not someone that I have feelings for, hopefully.

15th of December

And so I came across this article, which was titled: 'Unrequited Love: The Pain Of Loving Someone When It’s One-Sided.'

After reading it, my heart ached as if the tendons inside snapped, or maybe like I got stabbed or something. I will quote a large part of the article down here:

"You realize how much you adore this person and what you would do to move mountains for him or her. Then, your heart starts to palpitate, fingers start to shake and it dawns on you that the next step won’t be easy — the declaration.

This is the scariest part. You either free your soul and spill, or die in torment to salvage whatever relationship you have. If you know for sure that how you feel is mutual, there is absolutely no risk involved. Otherwise, it is an excruciating experience that might make you wish you were hit by a truck.

The part where he or she tells you he or she doesn’t feel the same way or can’t date you for whatever reasons or is not ready to be in a relationship can be painful to hear. But, the reason is irrelevant — it still f*cking sucks.

Rejection is not pretty. It hurts. It brings on an onslaught of tears, heartache and self-loathing. This is the part where your shattered heart will start to ask questions like, “Why doesn’t he/she love me?” and your brain does this bullsh*t thing where it answers with, “I’m not good enough” or “I’m not loveable” or “I’m worthless.”

The next thing you know, you’re in sweatpants with a tub of ice cream and you call in sick to work because you can’t get out of bed. Rejection can be immobilizing.

Then, you have to deal with the “giving each other space” thing so you can stay friends or “never see each other ever again” because it’s awkward. It’s almost like a breakup! Then, you mourn the person’s absence and wonder if he or she thinks of you, too.

Then, you get even more depressed by the very thought of you being all emotional while he or she is probably off with someone better. Then, you wonder if he or she cares at all, even just a little bit. And then, you feel sorry for yourself.

After some time to grieve — weeks or maybe even months —, you might be able to wake up in the morning and breathe clearly again because it didn’t hurt so much.

You start doing the “I’m working on me” thing and it distracts you for a bit, but a song might come on the radio that reminds you of him or her, or someone asks you about that person, and the pain bleeds through the cracks of your trying-to-mend heart.

You want to call him or her just to see how he or she is, but maybe that’s too much. You have news to share with this person, like a new job or something interesting that happened, but maybe that’s too much, as well.

The worst thing that could happen is a relapse. And, you’re stuck with the feeling of “will this ever get better?”

You move on with your life, fearing you’ll never open your heart that way again. You also fear no one will be able to steal your heart again.

Perhaps the sun will shine over the dark clouds one day and you will have your moments of hope and faith — hope that it will get better soon and faith that it will all make sense.

You didn’t understand because in your eyes, the two of you would have been an unstoppable force and an amazing love story. You wish that he or she could see the beautiful world through your lenses — a romance entangled with heated debates, bad fights and passionate sex.

The truth is, he or she will never understand. He or she will never understand how happy you could have made him or her or how it feels to be loved by you. And that, in the end, is the saddest, most painful part of it all."

Yup that's probably how I'm feeling for the past 2 weeks. Won't say anymore.

14th of December

Time flies, whether it has been fast or slow. Managed to clear my IPPT last friday but sadly no silver because I screwed up my pull ups and my sit ups, therefore I won't even get a single cent from the government. But luckily due to the fact that I cleared my IPPT, I will definitely get my corporal rank soon within the course of my service, hopefully soon as I look forward to the pay rise.

Left less than an hour before I actually leave home for camp, such a 'sian' feeling but I do know that I am about to graduate from the basic course in less than 6 days, fast isn't it? Weeks ago I was complaining about how slow the course progress was, and look where I am now? I'm about to be a trained Military Policeman, going out to catch or book military offenders.

Family has been supporting me non stop since the start of my BMT until now, and also with the bonding of my section mates, helped me to realize that to get through things, we have to work and suffer together. Gaming also kinda takes away all the stupid thoughts that I have in my head when I'm actually not in camp for the week, and also not forgetting music. I have been repeating a few songs again and again because I just can't seem to not play them when I am listening to music.

Time for dinner soon, actually rushed out this post to fill up the week's number of posts, I sort of made a little promise to update as much as possible and also to remove the laziness of not posting anything. Maybe if I am not tired after routine orders I might actually make another post before I sleep!

10th of December

Just finished my morning physical training, which also includes the nice cold bath and the hot cup of milo and snacks to complete the morning. Exactly midweek of the 8th week and one more week to the end of the course. 

In addition, it has been exactly one week since I contacted her. She hasn't replied me, but I did saw she replied someone else as the other person wrote on her profile. It was this morning when I saw that she replied to her friend. I'll be honest here, I was a little sad, I felt forgotten and that I was just wondering since breakfast till physical training why she didn't reply me. Basically the same old thoughts flooding my head once more.

The more I thought, the more sad and forgotten I felt. It went to the extent that the things that my friends have said to me, suddenly all became true, which is to simply 'Let It Go'. However the thought of letting go has crossed my mind once, but it got covered by the fact that whether I was able to find someone with a very similar character and personality like hers. 

Right now I'm feeling a little better after the morning physical training, just that I'm still thinking whether it's time to let go and perhaps never be able to find someone like her again, or remain lost while clinging on to that tiny bit of hope and continue to have feelings for her.

She's a wonderful person that I have liked for around 2 years already, and someone I will never be able to forget.

8th of December

My first ever post made in camp, physical training just ended, had a great shower and now I'm having a cup of hot milo while having some snacks. Many things have been going through my head since yesterday night. I couldn't fall asleep that easily, in which I ended up tossing and turning in my bed.

So you may ask, what are the things that have going through my head? Well firstly my family is going overseas for the whole week, so I won't be able to call them or hear their voices. Next, is the fact that I still take other people's judgement of me too seriously, be it in a jokingly manner or for real. A few days ago I went out with a best friend for dinner, as I was travelling up the escalator, a group of young foreign ladies behind started talking about my cap, and for some reason it's stuck inside my head until now, meaning I still could remember what that said word for word.

And lastly, it's about her. It's been months since graduation, and also around a month since I last contacted her. Last Wednesday, due to a minor accident on my phone, I accidentally sent her a 'thumbs up' emoticon. I frantically tried to erase that but to no avail. Therefore I decided to just talk to her once more, giving a simple salutation and asking her how she was. For the entire night until the next morning, I was quite nervous as I was waiting for her reply. 

However until today, she hasn't replied to me, I don't even know whether has she seen the message, whether she is busy or whether she doesn't want to talk to me. Possiblilties are endless, so are my thoughts. Which sometimes sets me thinking, did I say something or do something wrong? Or whether am I too bad of a person?

Right now I just want this day to end fast, so that I can polish my boots and then get some early rest. 

I hope my decision to hold on to that love is not a wrong one, it's tiring but I will still endure.

Justin

6th of December

It's been about more than 3 months since I last posted something, it's due to me being overly lazy or tired from all the army training and the precious time from the book outs during the weekends. But you would probably agree how precious the weekends are if you are in a stay-in combat vocation.

Where am I right now?

I'm a trainee Military Policeman, still currently attending the basic course at the SAF MP Command, the basic course lasts for 9 weeks and this weekend marks the end of the 7th week. Reviving the memories from BMT, 3rd Company has trained me to be more swift when it comes to doing forced preparation, especially when we have to take EVERYTHING out from the field pack and lay it out nicely for commanders to see whether we have all the necessary items inside the field pack. I never regretted being in 3rd Company, firstly I do miss my OC sir, Captain Arthur, and my BMT PC 2LT Tian Jie, without the both of them, I probably will still be some lost sheep wandering around and be super 'blur' about everything.

Was posted to MP command after my BMT, and to be honest, I was quite happy with the posting results as it was what I wanted, but at the same time I was also a little disappointed as I wanted a stay-out vocation, I sort of have something against staying in camps for the week days and booking out during the weekends and then repeating it again and again. Usually nowadays before booking in, I will feel absolutely 'sian', reason being I have to leave home just for some camp and stay in there for 5 days straight before I can get out of that shithole camp and go home. Oh well, but after doing it in BMT and for an additional 6 weeks, I'm kinda used to it already, to the point where booking in is just some compulsory action because if I don't then it's considered 'Absence without official leave'.

During the weekends, I go back to old school, meaning I do things that I used to do when I was young. For example, watching childhood shows like Power Rangers (Yes, don't laugh), or playing old school computer games, while listening to music at the same time. Torrented some movies that I watched before like Johnny English, Ice Age and also not forgetting to watch Seananner's daily comedy gameplay videos.

Shifting everything aside, NS has made me realise that family will definitely play a very very important role in a soldier's training, be it emotional support or mental support. I never fail to spend my time with my family every weekend, be it going out for early morning breakfasts, having some heart to heart talk with my parents, going out with them to shop or even simple things like helping them to buy food or carry their stuff for them. Life is short, I had 2 friends that lost their fathers recently, so I just want to make sure I spend time with my parents as much as I can, strive for the things that I want with the best of my ability and lastly, not to become a disappointment to them like what I was years ago.

I don't want to make my parents feel that they wasted their life supporting me and watching me grow up into some useless person, I want to make sure when I succeed, they will be there in smiles and also will be able to celebrate together with me.

Alright it's pretty late right now, 12:56 am in the morning and I'm sleepy because I ate some medication after I bathed as my fever is about to return. Will get some sleep now and I will most probably create one more blog post before I book in back to camp.

Justin

6th of August

It's 11:15 pm right now, and tomorrow morning I am enlisting to the army, if you ask me once more whether I'm feeling nervous, yes I am. I think it's pretty normal for me to feel this way because it's a whole new environment, no freedom, and loads of authority and control over you. I'm particularly worried about my stomach because these few days it has been giving me quite a number of problems, in which I'm very concerned if whether the problems will resurface when I'm in the army.

Did my packing, but I'm not sure if I have packed everything properly, but then I'm sure I have most of the necessary stuffs needed, and my medication on standby too.

Other than that, I'm just feeling a little mood-less, originally was all nervous but now mood-less as I have no mood to feel nervous and such.

I guess it's time to sleep soon as I don't want to feel tired tomorrow morning, and also that I need time to fall asleep on my own bed for one last time.

Won't be posting anything for the next 2 weeks, but I will be back, hopefully.

4th of August

2 more days of freedom, nothing left to feel but at least I got some accompaniment, the night before Axel said that he wanted to treat me something nice at the nearby mall, so we agreed on having some Texas chicken to eat. I also asked Namra out as I wanted to watch Guardians of the Galaxy with a friend. Met up with axel and we chatted as we ate lunch, discussed a lot of stuff about national service, I'm just too lazy to think about the hardships that are coming, and also whether my stomach decides to screw everything up at one go when I am alone. I guess this long battle I have to fight it all alone.

So after lunch, Axel had to go somewhere else so I headed down to Somerset to meet Namra. Then we went to Cineleisure to quickly buy the movie tickets, along the way I told her that I still have been contacting 'you know who :D', and the magical thing that happened to me few days back, and Namra started fangirling at the middle of the walkway at the train station. Got the food and movie tickets, then mum called me to discuss with me about the music player that I wanted to get for my national service. So it was between an iPod shuffle and an iPod Nano, so I decided to get something cheap but still useful as I needed something to get rid of my boredom since I probably won't be able to use my main phone during my Basic Military Training.

The movie was a mix of comedy and action, won't spoil any more, go and watch the movie for yourself if you want to know he plot! After the movie we talked for abit on the way back to the train station before we parted ways and head back home. Ate dinner and started gaming, raged quite a bit because of some retarded person that started throwing the game. We decided to play one more match and won convincingly, after that match Eugene went to sleep so me and Axel continued to look at stuff from Kpopmart, they had pretty good merchandise and was also sold at attractively low prices, I might actually purchase some merchandise from there when I book out from my BMT.

For now I have less than 36 hours of freedom and after that I will lose many things, my freedom, my pink IC and all the hair that has been growing on my head since birth until now. I don't know how much things I will gain from getting conscripted in the army, but then for now I guess I just have to remain silent and serve as per normal

No feelings

2nd of August

Woke up late again since I had no mood to do exercises early in the morning, and that since I had to go out later in the afternoon made me just laze in bed longer. Switched on my com and listened to some music before playing some Runescape, mum and dad was watching TV so I just played my own games.

Mum then wanted to go out to Queensway shopping mall to get lunch and also to buy some stuff for me for my National Service. Headed out without any delay and reached Queensway shopping mall, Mum wanted to get some curry chicken, so we went to the Katong laksa stall and ordered a bowl of curry chicken and a small bowl of Laksa for myself :D I ate till my whole body was feeling absolutely warm and my forehead was covered in sweat, I guess I can't tolerate spicy food as well as last time. Managed to eat finish everything, then went to review the list of things that I need to purchase for National Service.

Went to buy a new pair of goggles, then some prickly heat, face washing cream, a running sleeve holder, and a bottle of deodorant. Mum bought some herbal cream for herself, after that I bought some McDonalds for myself, since I was craving it for song long, upsized fillet o fish meal with an extra apple pie for my mum. Went home, ate the food and gamed with Eugene. For the first time I actually wanted to play dota on public matches, first match I played this hero that I never played before, and I actually carried the entire team to victory, and the second game was a little shaky at the start but I still managed to get an ultra kill (4 kills) that changed the entire game in which we ended up winning the game.

The third game I raged badly because we had a teammate that didn't want to listen and kept feeding to the enemy, and also kept disconnecting often so we concluded that that person had a wooden PC. Lost that game but I felt that we put up a good fight, took a break and then did some night exercises after that since I was feeling a little weak and needed to do some exercises to revitalize myself.

After the short but intense night physical training, bathe and chatted with Eugene on skype for awhile longer then before going to sleep.

*Update*: Actually this post was supposed to be done yesterday but I was too lazy to continue after typing out 2 sentences, LOL

I will stop here and carry on with the next post instead since that was pretty much what happened yesterday :P

Justin

31st of July

7 days left to my national service, and I haven't been training for more than 4 days, starting to be a little worried since I'm pretty weak. Went to see the Chinese physician yesterday to request for more medication, the physician was very kind in explaining what I could eat and what foods I should avoid for the time being.

So I was supposed to meet Xing Tang today to have with him in school, just that I didn't check my whatsapp so he went to have lunch with his friend instead. Ate lunch at home and played some old games, then went out to meet Janson since I requested him to being his own non camera phone so that I can use it for my BMT. Was a little late so when I reached there he was sitting with his sister's boyfriend, and they were playing their handheld console game sets. Went to buy some tea break for myself, a cup of hot milo and a plate of traditional butter kaya toast :)

Chatted with Janson and we actually discussed about our future ambitions, and I shared with him my story about that special someone :D 

The main point about this post is that something magical happened to me today which caused me to smile non stop, like even now :)

Last night I contacted her again and I asked her how she was, she replied cheerfully that she was doing real fine. I was happy knowing that she was fine, and that I wanted to ask her out for a simple meal. She didn't reply me so I thought she was tired and might reply me the next morning. This morning when I woke up I thought she replied but to no avail. 

So I decided to message her once more, this time I went straight to the point and asked if she was free before next Thursday. She replied to me saying that she wasn't free and University was starting for her. And I actually went to ask for her number after I gave her some small words of encouragement, I totally regretted asking her and I thought that it will be awkward from that time onwards.

Crestfallen, I went to my buddy's house for a birthday celebration. Had so much fun and laughter since I was feeling down , even did crazy stuff like lying down on 3 of my buddy's laps since the car was full and I had to squeeze in since I was the skinniest of them all, plus selfie shots since all of is were feeling 'high'

She actually messaged me later on with her number, and when I saw it I ran around the dining table like a mad man, smiling non stop. I couldn't believe that she gave me her number, she told me that she trusted me not to abuse the number, and I was really thankful that she actually put her faith in me.

So right now, I'm just lying on the bed and smiling like a crazy person. Guess it will be tough for me to sleep today, will continue smiling till tomorrow morning :D

Justin

29th of July

8 more days to my national service, I remember having so many mixed feelings about going in and suffering a lot. However, right now I don't have any thoughts and feelings about enlisting, perhaps I felt crappy too long until I am actually used to the feelings. Have been forcing myself to train as I felt that suffering in the army isn't worth it, even if I have to suffer, I don't want to suffer so much. I guess this 'motivation' has pushed me further a bit, to the point in which I am able to do 7 proper pull ups, which is a very very big achievement since I wasn't able to do even 1 last time.

Yesterday was my brother's 22nd birthday, so my family decided to head out to have a birthday dinner for my brother. We headed to Star Vista as it was pretty nearby and had a few decent restaurants to eat, and we chose the Korean restaurant 'Born-ga' since my brother was craving for Korean food. We ordered a large amount of food, and they actually gave a large amount of veggies since Korean food was especially famous for their veggie wraps:) Ate some kimchi since the main course didn't arrive as fast as the side dishes, popped some salad into my mouth as I was really hungry. Soon the main course arrived and then we continued eating.

So these few days I have been focusing my training on my upper body, especially my arms since I wanted to do a certain number of push ups for the training. Yup just push ups and more push ups, and some motivational quotes and thinking of her while training just helped me alot. My aim? To get the $400 incentive in NS because I want to buy a new computer by myself without my parents spending a single cent, because I want to show them that I can buy the things that I want without giving them headaches on why they should spend the money on the things that I want.

So it's 1:15 am in the morning, and I'm listening to some music to just calm myself down since I'm about to lose my knowing that I'm about to completely lose my freedom in another 8 days time.

Mind blank

8th of July

Didn't really sleep well since there was large storm raging outside at around 3am, the winds were like super strong and made really loud howling sounds and shook the windows quite strongly. I remember waking up and checking twitter and Instagram before going back to sleep.

Woke up at around 8+ since I told myself that I wanted to head out for a morning exercise session. Managed to drag my feet off the bed and washed up, are breakfast and then drank the powdered medication mixed in hot water (at least it didn't taste so bad, the first time I tried tasting it in room water temperature, I almost died drinking it). Wanted to watch some Running Man on my phone since my mum won't be joining me for the morning exercise since my mum is joining her friend from the Friday night Tai-Chi class. Had to watch the show at my brother's room since the wireless was much much stronger as compared to my room. Since I didn't really know what episode I wanted to watch so I just scrolled through the entire list of episodes on Wikipedia, so I just watched the episode when the cast went to China and the guests on that episode were KARA's Kang Jiyoung, Actress Lee Yeon Hee and Kim Joohyuk. I watched for over an hour or so, then mum came back home with lunch, so I continued watching while having lunch :)

So in the end I didn't went out for morning exercise since I had already had lunch, I ended up watching another long episode of running man. In that episode, it featured guests like Actress Go A-ra (고아라) and Lee Yeon Hee. I loved that episode has it was pretty unique and relatively hilarious, watched halfway and I had to go and charge my phone as watching the previous episode drained the battery of my phone all the way till around 30%. While charging, I decided to play abit of music, since the restlessness was kicking in bit by bit. Blasted Hyolyn's One Way Love, and a few of my other favourite songs.

Had to leave home to visit the Chinese physician as a follow up to the previous week's consultation. Was feeling a little annoyed on the way there, and to make things worse, I had to wait close to an hour since the person at the counter keyed in the wrong number for me. But after reflecting and thinking that the people in front of me were elderly and needed more time for consultation, it made me less annoyed. So after consultation, I gave the number back to the counter and went to sit down, but before walking to the seats, my mum asked me if I wanted to leave first because I agreed to meet my friend at Bugis+ at around 4pm. So I agreed and left the place first, on the way to the MRT station, I gave my friend a call to tell him that I was on the way there. After reaching there, he was already playing so I just stood behind him and watched him play for abit. He kept telling me to sit down and play with him since he told me that I came all the way down from Queenstown to Bugis+. I went to enquire some stuff from the counter, after that I booked a computer and started playing, but for some reason the game that I wanted to play couldn't be launched, and I can't say that I wasn't disappointed as I had to settle some monetary stuff in game since I wasn't online in that game for more than 2 weeks already. 

The person asked me if I wanted a refund or something, but since I already sat down, I would just make full use of my time there, so I just told the person that I could just play other games instead. Reluctantly played Dota, but couldn't concentrate in game so I sort of abandoned the game halfway. Then I wet out to have dinner at the Subway outlet at the same floor. Chatted with my buddy as he ate dinner, we talked about stuff in game and the attitudes to take when playing dota and such, then we all left for home. 

Walked though SP as I wanted to save money by not taking the bus home. I walked past places where I first met and saw her, plus the places where I interacted and lastly the place where I confessed to her. The memories that flowed back were so surreal, and almost felt so real, as if I was seeing myself and the scene playing back. So while walking through the interior of SP, memories came flowing back bit by bit, as I recalled the things that I did / saw in SP, I missed them all. Will be going to the army soon, and it will be a completely new environment as compared to school. 

Was feeling like crap when I reached back home, so I went out for a walk after dinner just to lighten my mood and I didn't feel so crappy after that.

Will stop here for today as I have to do some note taking for some friends of mine :P

Justin

7th of July

So I've been out of action for more than 2 weeks, because my laptop died on me (it sort of had some graphics card problem, so I had to send it for servicing as the screen had some uniform lines and also having constant blue screens after switching it on). Had to carry on with life without a com for the next 13 - 14 days). So for the first few days I had to endure life without a computer and also that since I didn't have one, I requested my buddy to have a sleepover at his house. During that day I followed him to Clementi Mall as there was a Starbucks 1-for-1 offer, he wanted to order this strawberry frappe with whipped cream and got another one for his father. After that we went to the Clementi hawker center and we bought some fried kuey tiao while I got some mixed fried noodles and a burger from McDonalds :) After that we took a bus back to his house, then he had to rush off to MY to fetch his brother back from the customs. When we reached his house, I was greeted by his mother that was a little mad at him, and his mum asked him angrily where he was as he needed quite abit of time to travel to the Causeway. So after we entered the house, he had to leave in a hurry, leaving me and his mum in the house. His mum started doing some Sudoku while I was given permission by my friend to fiddle on his com for abit, so I decided to watch some music videos while enjoying the music. I talked to his mum every now and then and she actually wondered how I could actually just sit down there and just watched the music videos all day long without doing anything else, well for me if the music videos and songs are good, I would be able to just sit there and just listen to the music :D Listened to music until around 6+ while his mother kept on painting, then I went to watch some Running Man, was totlaly hilarious since there were some of my favourite idols being absolutely goofy. I rememeber I didn't watch finish the entire show as I wanted to play Sniper Elite v2, quickly downloaded the game and started playing. But I'll be honest, while playing I dare not raise the volume too loud as the game had some gore and bloody scenes, especially after you fire the bullet from a long range and the slow-mo camera action with the bullet piercing the skull and destroying it with the blood splattering out, is quite a gore-ish scene for his mum so I just did body shots the whole time when his mum was sitting near the TV screen. Later, she received some call in which she had to leave the house in a hurry, apparently my friend's younger brother had encountered some problems at the customs in MY as his passport had already expired, therefore denying him entry back into SG. Before my friend's mum left the house, my friend came back, therefore I wasn't going to be left alone to game. We played abit of sniper elite as I wanted to show him how smoothly the game runs on his computer. I roamed around his house while he was playing. Lazed around the house since I was a little sleepy.

We left the house to buy some late night snacks at Sheng Siong supermarket, I bought a chocolate bun and an 1.5 litre honey green tea bottle, and not forgetting a cup of hot milo for the late night :) My buddy bought some biscuits for himself, and after that we decided to take a walk around his neighborhood. At first we headed up to the carpark's roof garden, we found a bench and we started chatting. We chatted about the many things that were going on in our lives, and I also shared about her, like how she's carrying on with her life, and also some personal problems of my own. I felt really good being able to share with someone face to face about my problem as it removes a huge load off my chest. 

We talked through the night, and went back to the house at around 6:10 am, he used the com for awhile more to update one of the pages that he is managing. I lazed around and lied down for abit, then later he decided to sleep. So we went to sleep in his room. I lied down for about 10 - 20 minutes, but I couldn't seem to sleep. So in the end I just got up, went to his living room and started making notes for my friends. Steadily, I managed to endure the tiredness that was taking over my body bit by bit for more than an hour. I couldn't just leave without saying goodbye to his mum as it would be so rude and disrespectful, so endured till his mum woke up. Not long after I was about to fall asleep, his mum woke up and had to make breakfast. When his mum saw me making notes for my friends, she went, "你这样早起来就去读书了? 你不累吗?" (Which translates to: "You got up so early just to study? Ain't you tired?") I told her that I couldn't sleep so I just got up and did something productive for my friends. I talked to his mum for quite a while, then I had to leave for home I wanted to buy some breakfast for my mum since I thought my mum was sick. So I went to the kitchen where his mum was and I told her that I was thankful that she allowed me to stayover for one night, I gave her a hug since I was feeling thankful. After that I woke up buddy up as I had to leave for home, he wanted to send me to the bus stop but I just told him to go back to bed since he was really tired and I didn't want to disturb his sleep. Went to buy breakfast at the market near his house; some fried noodles for my mum, and mixed noodles, a fried egg and some small pieces of luncheon meat.  Boarded the bus after that and headed for home.

So for the next few days I just stayed at home and made notes, and on Saturday I went out with the 2 girls for lunch and gave them free tuition at the same time. Since they listened attentively when I was explaining, I guessed the time spent on the notes was worth it :) We walked around Star Vista and snapped a few pictures before heading back home with a cup of Honey Green Tea in my hands. Blasted some music back at home, especially to songs like CNBLUE's Can't Stop, Hyolyn's One Way Love.

Few days later, I called up to check whether my computer already repaired or still under processing. My former colleagues told me that it was under it's final testing and if everything was I could come and collect it the following day. So the following day, headed down to the service centre with my mum, and when I first tested out my computer at the counter, the casing wasn't closed properly and the fan seemed to be freaking out a little as it would work very hard when I opened simple programs like Chrome and IE. So I gave it back to the counter and told them to rectify the problems, while they rectify the problems, I went for lunch with my mum at KFC. After lunch we went to the top floor challenger and went to look for some computer mouses. After considering, I went to buy a Razer Abyssus mouse and a simple Logitech mouse for my dad, my mum did the payment instead, so I'm pretty thankful :) 

After collecting my computer, we went to buy some food and left for home. Back at home, I immediately went to test out my computer. But to my horror, the fan worked unusually hard, and my laptop even shut down when I was gaming. Disappointed, I had to go back down to the service centre to have them to re-rectify the problem. 

So it has been around 3 days since I re- sent in my computer and I just called in to check on the status, and they told me that I had to wait till around the 7th or 8th of July to check the status. So I guess it's no computer till the end of this week. So in the meantime I might continue heading down to the Cybercafe at Clementi stadium or just continue with my training for my National Service. 

So it's around 30 days left on being a normal civilian, and I won't know what's coming up for me in NS, all I can hope now is that I'm able to pull through the initial 2-week compulsory confinement. Right now, my family and her will be my greatest sources of strength, since I will be facing the battle alone when I'm in the army.

Will stop here for now, have to get some early rest for today.

Justin.

21st of June

With just less than 50 days to NS, the fear and nervousness starts to kick in, bit by bit. Furthermore I fell sick due to my stupidity, I ate a large amount of sugar and even mixed sugar into my water bottle (reason being I wanted to recover my energy as fast as possible, so I ate a large spoonful of sugar and drank the entire bottle of sugar down). At 3 am, my stomach freaked out badly, giving me the diarrhea feeling. Rushed to the toilet but false alarm, and my stomach walls started spamming and I really wanted to throw up so badly. Anxiety attack was about to kick in so I just closed my eyes and did some simple breathing exercises, I then managed to fall asleep at around 4:30 pm, then woke up the next day with my stomach feeling really funky and always having the urge to have a diarrhea. This continued on for a few days, and after dinner with Axel, my intestines suddenly became real loose (like if I pressed on my left side of my abdomen, there will be a loud growling and compressing sound of the digested food being heard *gross*), so I quickly asked him to go home and I went to the toilet, and ended up as a false alarm.

Went to the see the doctor and also gave him the medical report of the doctor that he referred me to for endoscopy, then I told him about my stupid story that ended me up in this stupid state. He prescribed me some medicine to treat my stomach openings, and also another set of pills to help me to 'reset' my digestive system to it original state before I got this stupid problem. So after 2 days of medication I feel a little better, maybe still feeling a little funky as well.

But the main point of this post is to share what happened today, nothing exactly happened to me, maybe just my mind and my feelings. So today was the day where my cousin got married, she's 27 years old, not a cousin that I'm really close with. Was feeling a little pissed with my family for rushing me early in the morning to get ready, didn't even had time to properly comb my hair and I had to scoot out of the house. Took a Taxi which we waited for more than 20 minutes, arrived at Grand Hyatt Hotel (no idea if I spelled that correctly). Feeling gloomy and a little unhappy as I enter the ballroom, but my face lightened up a bit when I saw my relatives and cousins that I didn't meet since Chinese New Year until now. We registered at the front counter, and I saw the bride's younger sister and younger brother busily helping out. Soon the reception started and there were videos being played of the wife and husband to be, on how they knew each other, their happy times and how they groom had to fulfill some 'tasks' in order to be able to meet the bride, causing all of the guests to burst out in laughter.

Next was the grandest part of the ceremony, which was the entrance of the bride and the groom, and I have to say, they look really compatible. However when I saw the bride and groom walk down the isle, I suddenly had this ultimatly sad feeling, this feeling that I haven't experienced for a very long time. My thoughts then were, "Don't you think they look good? What about yourself? What are you going to do about her?"

I sort of started daydreaming, to the time when I pictured myself walking down the isle with her, and smiling and my family and friends congratulating me. My heart ached badly after I pictured that, because the fact that it's going to be an impossible dream. She's too good for a person, more like perfect to me. I think of her all the time, to the point where I sometimes hallucinate into thinking she's in front of me and I'm like actually talking to her face to face. I miss her to the point I feel that I can go insane, and like she's a drug when I see her, I want to see her more and more, and especially that smile of hers that melts and warms my heart. The fluttering of my heart when I see her laugh happily, and that her gracefulness when she helps people, I miss all of those.

I will never forget the day when I first saw her, first talked to her and got her picture and lastly the day when I gave her a gift and confessed to her. Up till now, everything just feels so surreal, as if everything happened in a dream.

When I wake up everyday and think of her, I tell myself that it's all over and to move on, but my heart inside tells me otherwise. But the fact that I managed to tell her everything, I guess it's all worth it in the end and I do not have any more regrets, just missing her.

I love her.

15th of June

I promised myself to wake up early as I wanted to go out for a morning exercise, but I sort of overslept because I was happily gaming with my friends the night before. Woke up at around 10, went to wash up and the weather suddenly freaked out, the winds were like ultra strong and the sky was like totally overcast (at least I don't have to go out and exercise since it was about to rain very heavily :P) Ate breakfast then played some maple as I wanted to rush my way to level 140 so that I can unlock the next chapter of the Silent Crusade, but I ended up slacking and switching to cabal since I had some stuff to settle in game, basically some money matter and also to chat with some people :D

The rain stopped and mum went out to buy some lunch, mixed rice added with bean sprouts and sweet and sour pork, and not forgetting a cup of hot drink to make the perfect lunch for the day. After lunch, went to re-watch the walk through for the House of the Dead 4 arcade gameplay on YouTube, after that I went to watch another person play one of the games that I frequently played during my childhood days when I went over to my cousin's house. Slept for a little since I was so tired from playing some L4D, I actually went to replay each campaign and I stopped at the 8th campaign since I was about to fall asleep while playing. Slept for a little and quickly went to log back in to Maple since the hot-time was about to come. Obtained some gift boxes from the event monster lingering in the town. My game lagged badly when all of the players obtained the gift box since many players were complaining that they didn't get some of the gifts that they were supposed to. My brother also came in to my room telling me that he also didn't receive some gifts, and I too didn't get the gifts. Went to watch running man as that particular episode that I wanted to watch had some guests that were in my list of favorite female celebs :D

Went out for a run since I haven't been running for the past 1 day, I promised myself to try and run every single day before I enter NS. Came back home feeling extremely exhausted since I ran non stop and not forgetting the uphill slopes near New Town. Originally I wanted to run one full round around SP, but since it was daytime I just decided to run a 2.4 km at the back of SP (I somehow have a thing against running in the midst of people in the daytime, if I have to run past places where they are alot of people, I will usually run in the night so that there are lesser people). Played some music while eating dinner, felt hungry after dinner so I just ate some left overs in the kitchen.

So right now I'm just typing this post while chatting with Axel on skype, don't really know what else to type since nothing much happened today, expect maybe the fact that she's going off to Korea for a quick vacation, and that I might try to start a conversation with her again tomorrow or something.

Will stop here for today, probably going to game for like an hour or so before going to sleep.

Adios Amigos~

Justin.

6th of June

Reluctant to get out of bed since I was still a little tired, and a little moody when I woke up, I guess I still miss her as always, but the fact that I told her everything, and that my heart felt a little better even though I might not see her again. Got up anyway, switched on my com and ate some breakfast that my mum prepared for me, some luncheon meat with cucumbers together with 2 slices of bread. Wanted to drink some hot Milo but I decided against it since I am going to travel on a bumpy bus later on. Played some maple while eating breakfast, did the daily attendance quest and I collected the rewards since day 1 until today (day 9), and I went to exchange some of the coins for a 2 handed scroll for my Revolution 2-handed sword, and to my astonishment, I managed to succeed in using that scroll in which my weapon is now insanely strong! (to me, haha :D). I was pretty satisfied with my damage, and right now I am going to work towards 100,000 damage per hit :)

Got out of the house to take bus, still feeling pretty sucky as I kept thinking non stop about the times I have seen and talked to her, be it online or face to face. The memory in which the time when I told her everything, and her reactions and what she said after that, I still can remember everything as if I told her everything just yesterday. I don't really know but everything, I just want to talk to her and ask her how is she, but I guess from just looking at her current photos and her bring happy by just serving people passionately, I can tell that she's doing better than fine and perhaps doing even better than me. Reached the workplace after a bumpy bus ride, I guess some of my colleagues didn't really talk to me as I think I was showing some 'black face'. Ate some snacks while trying to fix this customer's laptop, this customer's laptop had some problems with the WiFi. I was puzzled as I couldn't assess the internet without using the Local Area Connection cable, so what I did was to extract out the customer's hard drive and then I slotted our testing hard drive into the customer's laptop, then I went to switch on the WiFi by pushing the buttons on the keyboard, and BAM, it worked like magic. I assumed that the customer's laptop had a software problem, so I just slotted the customer's hard drive back into the laptop, and BAM! The laptop had no problems already, so I guessed that the WiFi was disabled somewhere and what I did was to simply re-enable it using another hard drive. The customer was pretty pleased with me when I called her to tell her that her software had no issues and the data wasn't touched.

*Sorry! Still at the front counter and there are customers coming, will complete this post later at night!*

4th of June

Stuck down here at the front counter at my workplace since my colleague went out for lunch, and my stomach is feeling a little funky since I had some snacks (heaty snacks D:) and right now my stomach is feeling a little warm and churning a little, guess I have to eat something real warm later so I won't feel so bad after that.

Woke up at around 8 today since I snoozed the alarm for about 3 -4 times, I was still feeling tired when I got out of bed (I'm always tired :D), switched on my com and washed up. Mum prepared some luncheon meat with bread so I just ate it for breakfast. Bathed and got ready to leave the house, in the meantime, I went to play some Maple, managed to kill a operator balloon and got a very good scroll and I even manage to succeed in scrolling my revolution 2-handed sword, at least my morning was pretty much made. Left the house feeling as sleepy as always, luckily I managed to catch a double decker bus number 166 and I fell asleep while listening to my favourite songs. Currently the songs that I like / listen alot are songs like CNBLUE's Can't Stop, Z:EA's The Ghost of Wind, Yong Junhyung's Flower and Caffine, and not forgetting old songs like INFINITE's The Chaser and Paradise, there are still quite a number of them that I like just that I'm too lazy to type them all out one by one (I just named those that I listen to a lot while I am traveling on the bus). Was hoping that the bus driver wouldn't drive that fast since I wasn't really looking forward to work as I was still really sleepy, but still alighted in the end, and went up to my workplace. Signed in and I started chatting with my colleague when he arrived.

Quite a number of repairs today since some of them was halfway done since last Saturday until today, the first one was some urgent rework case in which my colleague passed to me for some final testing, the keyboard wasn't working so I had to remove the entire casing and I actually found out that the keyboard wasn't even connected to the motherboard itself. Connected it back and I ran some CPU stability test and also a high graphics test, after about 5 - 10 minutes the laptop shut down by itself, indicating a fan problem. I was puzzled so I quickly removed the entire casing, and the motherboard so that I am able to take out the fan and see what's the problem. While disassembling the fan, a screw dropped out from the fan internally, so I guessed that was the problem that is causing the fan to malfunction, and then I re-applied the thermal paste and the fan was working perfectly fine, one laptop fixed! :)

Have to stop here because I did this post at the front counter and there are customers that will be coming later! :D

Adios Amigos~

Justin

3rd of June

Woke up feeling exceptionally tired because of the late night game raging session the night before (enjoyed it because of the nonsense that we discussed :P). Was hoping that time didn't passed that quickly because it's the last day of my off-days from work, in other words I have to go to work tomorrow D:

Got out of bed anyway, and ate some hard bread for breakfast while playing Cabal, was pretty satisfied with my performance in the nation war because I managed to have some proper teamwork with my guild master. 14 kills and 4 deaths (:D), recently I have been getting more kills in nation war because there are quite a number of new comers from the opposite nation, in which they are not really experienced or do not have the average standard of equipment for war. So I just kinda took a little advantage and killed them (sorry :\). After breakfast, went to watch some Korean shows, the recent episodes of 'The Human Condition' have been pretty interesting so I decided to watch a little more episodes, I haven't been watching 'Ghost Adventures' because the past few episodes have been a little boring in my opinion, but from Zac's twitter, I think there are going to be interesting episodes / encounters coming up, looking forward to that :)

Mum went out to buy lunch for me since she knew I was going out later that afternoon, was kinda hoping that mum would buy me some roasted chicken breast rice, but since the stall wasn't open, she bought me mixed rice instead (some rice, broccoli, a large slice of black pepper pork and an egg fried by mum herself). After lunch, went to laze around in my bed like some ginger cat because I was a little reluctant to go out but I had to go in the end because I had to return my graduation robe by the 7th of June, but since I am going to be working from Wednesday all the way to Saturday so I will have to return it today. Took a train and changed lines, bought some light snacks from Old Chang Kee outlet at Potong Pasir station itself. My stomach felt a little funky after eating the snacks, I guess it has to be the stupid oil from the snacks (D:). After returning the robe and getting back the $30 deposit, headed back to Potong Pasir station to take a train, while walking I saw a 147 bus driving past me. So I called home to told my mum that I will be taking the 147 bus at the opposite bus stop since I had nothing to do (I originally wanted to go and find my friend at her workplace but I realized that she was having her off day on Tuesdays). Boarded the bus and stared outside the window while contemplating on the things that I wanted to do / planning to do after I stop work, chatting with my buddy on messenger about the recent things that happened (it also included you know who *wink wink*) After 40 minutes of sitting in the bus, I grew a little tired and started yawning non stop, and my butt started to hurt (yes, literally even though the seats were cushioned a little). Alighted at the stop that I needed to, then I went to buy one of my favourite childhood snacks (chocolate wafer :D), before heading home.

Mum suggested that I should go to Star Vista to buy dinner, but since my brother is going to a hawker center outside, mum decided to cook for me in the end. Stomach became funky once more after eating dinner, and also that I told my mum to help me tell my brother that I didn't want supper in the end. At around 9:30, I decided to go out and have a late night run and some slight workout. Came back home feeling exhausted since I haven't been working out / running for about a month or so due to work (D:). Went to play cabal and attended the nation war once more, and though I got killed a little more as compared to the morning session, I still managed to beat the number of kills I got this morning :) Danced and derped a little with my buddies in game before exiting cabal. Chatted with Eugene for abit and played some dota, lost very badly and was feeling totally unsatisfied with my performance. Guess it's one of those days where games don't work out the way you want it to be.

Alright so it's 12:28 am, got to get some sleep soon because I have to go to work tomorrow, gotta earn money!! :D

Adios amigos~

Justin

Graduation (27th of May)

It's been more than a month since I last posted something here, because I've been busy at work and also too tired from work after coming home, plus some laziness I guess? :P Anyway I created this post today since my buddy asked me to create it.

Few days back was the graduation ceremony, I remember waking up feeling like crap because my stomach wasn't feeling good the night before. Ate my breakfast anyway, played some L4D before I went to arrange my stuff for graduation. Killed a ton of Tanks in L4D, because I felt that I needed that I needed some de-stress before I went out. Went out at around 12, as I needed to buy my school tie and also wanted to meet up with some of my friends. I saw my friend back from Secondary school and also another familiar face, they have just completed their graduation ceremony and were attending their own tea reception ceremony. I chatted with them for awhile before my brother called me to tell me that he has ended his class and was waiting for me at another part of the school. Met up with my brother and then we chatted a little, then I saw her friends nearby. My blood froze since I knew that she has to be there nearby, within minutes she appeared and when I saw her, she looked beautiful as always with that never ending smile of hers. I was beginning to feel anxious since my parents agreed to reach the entrance of the hall by 12:45 pm, and it was around 1 pm when I called again and again as my mum wasn't picking up the phone. Finally they reached and I dashed to the reception counter to quickly purchase my school tie.

After much difficulty, I managed to properly put on my school tie and graduation robe, then I entered the hall with my parents. At first I was a little lost because I actually followed my parents to the audience seats (I was supposed to go to the seats assigned for the graduates), so I kind of stared at one of the ushers for like about 3 - 4 seconds, then she sort of like figured out that I had no idea where I was supposed to be seated (I know it's embarrassing). Then I saw her again entering the hall with smiles, I couldn't help but to stare at her once more. I noticed a book near the arm rest of my seat, I picked it up and opened it and it contained all of the graduates for all of the graduation ceremonies (even those sessions that were later in the day or the day after). Jin Kai came soon after, and we started chatting since he was just a few seats after mine. My family was seated in front so I called to my family so that they could see where exactly I was seating. I had to stand up since my mum couldn't really see me in the entire sea of graduates. Soon the ceremony started and that there were speeches given by some CEO of some large multinational company, and also videos being played of some students sharing their life and their wonderful experiences in SP.

After that was the much awaited price / diploma presentation ceremony, in which every graduating student's name will be called on stage and then will be given this red coloured scroll casing. My heart was pounding every second during that part, and I could also see my dad looking at the queue of graduates for me. Soon it was my section to stand up and join the queue, as the queue moved forward, my parents managed to locate me and started to take some pictures of me when I was waiting. She's was sitting near the front and I was happy that I saw her, and her smiles eased my nervousness. Soon my name was called, and as proudly as I could, I smiled brightly and walked towards the director. When I was near him, I asked,"Sir, can I take a selfie with you?" He smiled and replied with a nod on his head. I then took a selfie with him and then collected my scroll casing.

After a few others, then came to the closing of the ceremony and then was the start of the tea reception. I knew this was the only chance I had to talk to her once more. After I went out of the convention centre, I immediately went to look for her. While looking for her, I went to take some selfies with some of my friends that I made during my poly life, and I met up with my family. My mum actually bought a gift for me from the school itself, which is a teddy bear with a flower attached to it's back. I took a photo with my family while holding the flower itself, and another picture with my dad (Dad, I love you). I met up with my buddies and while still holding the gift box in my hand, I was so worried that I wasn't able to find her and talk to her. 

I was desperate, I decided to call my friends for help, which was to help me to locate her and to give me call when any of them located her. My buddy James told me that she was at the 2nd floor of the convention centre. After hearing it, I quickly ran up to look for her, I pushed the door open and frantically searched for her, I saw someone that looked like her, but I wasn't sure because I couldn't see her face. I went outside of the 2nd floor feeling so crestfallen because I thought all hope was lost. My buddies saw me feeling so down and they wanted to come upstairs to talk to me. Just then, Namra texted me telling me to quickly go to the skate park, at the same time, I also saw her walking with her.

Without thinking, I ran all the way down to the skate park at the plaza area, in which I met up with Nam, and I frantically asked her where was she. I was trying to catch my breath while the gift box was still in my hand. Then she walked towards me, while giving me the most sweetest smile ever. My heart melted when I saw her smile, and I smiled back to her. Then I said to her, 'Hi! :) I think your speech that you gave just now was so good :)' As we met face to face, I said to her: "I got you a gift!" and I handed her the gift box. When she saw the nicely wrapped gift box, she was stunned and she laughed a little while saying, "Oh my gosh, is it really okay for me to accept this gift? I barely know you :)". I told her it was okay, and I said to her, "Open it! Open it! :)" Since her hands were full, I helped her to open the gift while the box was in her hands. When she saw the gift that I got for her, she went like,"Oh my gosh! Snoopy! So cute! :)" Obviously I was dying of happiness when I saw that she liked the gift so much. She wanted to take a picture, so I happily agreed (:P), she held the gift in one hand and her friend took a picture of us. After taking the picture, I wanted to talk to her, so I said to her," Is it okay if I can talk to you in private for like 5 minutes?" She quickly agreed and I brought her to a corner.

This part is going to be cheesy (don't laugh). She was standing very close to me and then I said to her, "Okay, erm things are going to get a little awkward for what I have to say to you" , then she went, "Oh I think I know what it is." So I told her, "You know for the past one year, I actually had feelings for you, and the reason why I told you is because today is the last day I am going to see you and I probably think that we won't be seeing each other again, and furthermore I regretted it many times already, I don't want to regret it once more." After she heard it she was a little surprised but she was laughing a little most of the time, and I was about to die from blushing. My buddies were all looking at me from afar as I was talking to her. After I told her, she was like laughing a little and she said to me, "Thanks for telling me that you got feelings for me and also I really respect your decision. Don't need to be shy just because you confessed to me, I'm not a person that will go around telling other people like 'Hey this guy confessed to me!', come on! Don't need to feel shy or anything! :)" I smiled awkwardly at her after that, after that I asked her , "Hey, I don't know if it's okay if I can have one last selfie with you?"
She replied, "Yeah sure! Of course, it's grad man :)" I was happy once more, we took a photo and then I smiled at her and said thanks to her. She then stretched out her hand towards me, and that she said, "All the best to you for the future! *with a very bright smile*" I reached out for her hand, and I grabbed it and shook her hand, then I said to her, "Yeah you too! All the best for uni :)" Then she turned and left. That's the first time and the last time I will ever get to shake her hand, and probably the last time I will ever see her in my entire life.

Still missing her as much as ever, I wonder how she's doing right now? Maybe smiling and helping others as always? :)

I love her.

22nd of April

Haven't really been posting the regular posts because nothing much happened these few days, since Sunday I have been resting at home since I didn't have to work till Wednesday. I woke up at around 9+, and I panicked a little because I kept thinking I had to go to work until I checked the day then I heaved a sigh of relief. Had breakfast, some luncheon meat and a fried egg with some bread and a cup of some hot drink, went to watch the 2 new episodes of Global We Got Married before calling Sam and Jin Kai to ask where they were. Yesterday night, Sam gave me a call while I was gaming and he asked if I wanted to join Sum and crashed this lesson and I quickly agreed. So on the way to school, Sum called me and told me that he was in this classroom which I used to take this practical lesson for Power Electronics and Drives, and he told me that there were some pretty interesting people that I will see when I enter the classroom.

Reached there anyway, gave Sam and Jin Kai a call as they weren't they are the meeting point. Sam was still in the train while Jin Kai was buying a drink some where else. Soon Jin Kai arrived and we started laughing because we wanted to see the lecturer's reaction when he saw the both of us (the lecturer is the lecturer that me and Sam always tried to imitate and laugh after failing to imitate). So when we entered, the lecturer saw us and the first thing he said to us was 'Welcome Back :D (there was obviously some sarcasm ._.)' I turned away because I was about to burst out into laughter (:P), after 5 minutes, Sam arrived and joined us. He couldn't sit because there were not enough seats for everyone. Later we all started chatting and sharing about our current happenings. They shared about their trip to Thailand (Sum's hometown), while I shared about my work and also stuffs that happened from the Grad party till now. During the hands on part of the lesson, the lecturer came over and talked to us, and the reaction he gave when he found out that we have graduated was epic. We continued to chat with him and then we left after that.

Met up with James and we all went to FC2 to have some late lunch (I was starving by then ._.). Bought some chicken chop with an extra fried egg, then all of us chatted while sharing some funny and disturbing information, but mostly about their recent trip to Thailand. Went home after that, mum steamed some 'kueh' and prepared a cup of hot milo for me (I love you mum). Went online on maple, Axel was looking for some party quest, he partied me so I just accepted. Did one round of party quest and finished it in a relatively fast time, got the marble reward then I closed the game because I didn't feel like playing Maple anymore. Switched to left 4 dead, stopped because I was about I rage at the stupid bots that didn't know how to save.

Went to lie ont bed to cool myself down because I felt that I was getting to stressed from gaming. Slept for abit, continued watching some Global We Got Married while eating dinner. Started the late night gaming session but I stopped early because I wanted to create a new blog post, another reason was that I had no mood to play because I had to sleep early due to work tomorrow.

So it's 12:30 am right now and I have to get some sleep, if not tomorrow will be a terrible day for me. Nights!

Adios Amigos~

Justin